NEW Exaiphnes II: Into the Woods
Date: Thu, 18 Feb 1999
TITLE: Exaiphnes II: Into the Woods
AUTHOR: Marti
E-MAIL: oakgirls@yahoo.com
DISTRIBUTION: Gossamer and Xemplary okay, others please ask.
SPOILERS: None, really, but set post FTF and in Homicide season 7
RATING: R
CLASSIFICATION: Crossover - Homicide: Life on the Street
KEYWORDS: slash; Mulder/other romance
SUMMARY: Followup to Exaiphnes I: Explosive Nature. Mulder and
Tim Bayliss
go camping.
DISCLAIMER: This story is based on the characters and
situations created by
Chris Carter, the Fox Network and Ten Thirteen Productions as
well as NBC
and Baltimore Pictures. As such, the characters named are the
property of
those entities and are used without permission, although no
copyright
infringements are intended. The following work is for the
distribution and
entertainment of fanfic members only. Any further distribution of
this
work without the authors' consent is in violation of
international law.
AUTHORS' NOTES: If you've read Exaiphnes I, you know that
Rachel and I
wrote that as a prequel to this story, which was already written
back in
December but needed some more background to set it up properly.
In keeping
with our little analogy there: that was the Phantom Menace, this
is the
Empire Strikes Back. We're hard at work on Return of the Jedi (in
2 or 3
parts) and will eventually have a Star Wars as well. Feedback
will be
gratefully received at oakgirls@yahoo.com
Into the Woods, 1/3
When he walked in the door of his apartment after work one
Wednesday, Tim
Bayliss was pleasantly surprised to see Fox Mulder already there,
sitting
on the couch.
"Hey, you're home early!" As he walked past the
couch on the way to drop
off his keys and wallet, he stopped to kiss the top of Mulder's
head.
"Yeah, we finished all the paperwork we had to do for
today, if you can
believe that," Mulder answered, leaning back to smile at
Tim, then turning
his attention back to some papers on his lap.
"So, if that's not paperwork you're doing now, what is
it?" asked Tim,
coming around to the front of the couch.
"This? Well, it was going to be a surprise, but since you
asked...I have
an idea for this weekend."
"Really? You mean we're going to go out and *do*
something?" He paused.
"Wait - what we're doing involves research?"
"Just a few maps." Tim realized that the pamphlets
strewn around Mulder on
the couch had titles like "Day Hikes in the Shenandoah
National Park."
Mulder wasn't sure what Tim was going to think of his idea, but
rather than
resort to persuasive rhetoric, he decided it was better just to
get the
proposal out there. "I think we should go camping," he
said simply.
"Camping."
"Camping. Haven't you ever been before?"
"Well, there isn't exactly a wealth of wilderness in
Baltimore...or maybe
there is, but not the kind that makes you want to sleep outside
surrounded
by it."
"Didn't you ever get out of town on a trip? Boy Scouts?
Anything?" Tim
shook his head. "Well, we used to go in Massachusetts
sometimes, in that
brief window of opportunity when it's warm in the summer."
"So, not to be difficult, but what makes you want to
revisit that now?"
Tim was pleased that Mulder was going to be available for a whole
weekend,
and that he was actually making deliberate arrangements, and
yet...camping?
"What's the attraction?"
"Other than quality time with you?" Mulder smirked a
little, and Tim felt
his face flush. "We live just a few hours from one of the
most beautiful
places on earth, and I think we should see it. The Shenandoah
National
Park starts just below the Virginia state line: 75 miles of
trails, rocks,
streams, wildflowers, and wildlife."
"Does that include bears? Gnats? Exposure to the elements?"
Time for the persuasive rhetoric. "Okay, you're *not*
taking this in the
right spirit. This is you and me with uninterrupted hours
together in the
beauty of nature, away from work, partners, gunslinging, and cell
phones.
Or maybe I'll have to take my cell phone along...but I promise to
turn the
ringer off."
"Is there so much gunslinging on our jobs that we have to
get away from
it?" Tim teased.
"You know what I mean. 48 hours where you don't hear
Pembleton snapping at
you, where you aren't faced with a sea of red under your name on
the Board,
where you are out from behind the desk and the wheel of a
Cavalier. You
must admit that sounds tempting."
"Well, when you put it like that...but it's not exactly a
*sea* of red, you
know!" Tim moved out of the armchair to sit next to Mulder
on the couch.
"So, what do you have in mind?"
****
During the next two days of work, Tim kept thinking ahead to
the weekend.
They planned to leave early Saturday morning, spend the day
hiking, and
then stay overnight at the Lewis Mountain campground in the north
half of
the park. He was excited and on edge at the same time. It was,
after all,
two days of togetherness. It was also togetherness in public,
more or
less; even if there were not any other people for miles around,
at least it
moved the relationship out of the confines of their two small
apartments,
where it had had to stay out of necessity, or, more accurately,
because of
Mulder's reluctance to admit to anyone other than Scully that
they were
having this relationship at all. Part of the reason they never
spent any
appreciable time together was due, in truth, to the demands of
their jobs,
but at least part was due to Mulder's refusal to commit to any
short- or
long-range plans. So, on that front, Tim was thrilled. This was
some kind
of move forward, wasn't it?
But he still wondered about the wisdom of a wilderness
retreat. Maybe,
somewhere in his FBI training, Mulder had some experience with
outdoor
living. But there was that time he and Scully had to stay
overnight in the
Florida woods because their guide had been swallowed up by a
cavernous hole
in the ground, and Scully said Mulder hadn't even been able to
get a fire
going. And that time they were trapped overnight on a sandbar in
a lake in
Georgia, because Mulder didn't realize they were only a few feet
from
shore. This wouldn't turn out like either of *those* times, would
it?
At least they would have a tent. They had gone shopping on
Wednesday night
to stock up on supplies. Mulder had suggested he get some wool
socks,
since he predicted it would be cold at night, even though the
September
days were still balmy. He had also recommended a Polartec vest,
since it
was supposed to "wick" away the sweat produced during
the more strenuous
hikes. What does "wick" mean, anyway? Tim grumbled to
himself. All I
know is, my back is going to be killing me after spending a night
on the
ground. But, at least Mulder will be there when I wake up, right?
****
They stayed over at Mulder's apartment on Friday night, so
they would
already be that much closer to Virginia when starting out on
Saturday. Tim
hadn't slept over there very often, mostly because Mulder didn't
have a
bed, or a bedroom. He usually stayed up watching TV and fell
asleep on his
black leather couch, but the few times Tim had tried to share
that, he woke
up with his neck wrenched and his back out of whack; even for
Mulder, it
wasn't worth it. This time, Mulder said Tim should have the couch
and he
would use the new sleeping bag on the floor.
Everything else was packed, so in the morning they just had to
roll up the
sleeping bag and throw it all into the Jeep. Since Mulder had
done all the
planning, Tim had offered to drive, to show he was putting some
effort into
the trip too. He hadn't said anything about his doubts, and
thought that
it would be better to focus on the parts of the trip he was
looking forward
to.
It didn't take long to get out of the city and onto the
two-lane road that
would take them into the park. Once they passed the DC suburbs,
the view
on either side of them turned to rolling hills decked with
occasional trees
whose leaves were just starting to turn to their fall colors.
They hadn't
said much to each other so far, as Mulder was still nursing a cup
of coffee
and Tim was concentrating on traffic and watching for exit signs,
but now
Tim spoke.
"Okay, you were right. It is beautiful."
"See? You should listen to me more often." Mulder
smiled and reached
across to touch the back of Tim's neck, his hand warm from having
been
curled around his coffee cup. "Seriously, I know you're a
little dubious
about the whole thing, but it will be fun, I promise."
Tim was startled to realize the other man knew what he was
thinking. "It's
not that I'm not looking forward to it, I just don't know what to
expect.
I'm a city boy, remember?"
"Yeah - I still can't believe you never took a field trip
or anything!
Have you never even been across the state line?"
"We did take a grade-school trip to the battlefield in
Manassas once. I
remember being so disappointed, getting there and finding out it
was just a
*field*."
"What were you expecting, blood and guts still strewn
around a hundred
years later?"
"No, but a statue, some spent bullets, something to show
it wasn't just
pastureland. Didn't they want to put a theme park or something in
there?"
"Yeah, a few years ago. It didn't pan out."
"Good. Not that I am so enthralled by history itself, but
that's sacred
ground. People died there. There should be some kind of memorial,
if
anything."
"Of course, people die all over Baltimore, and there
aren't memorials on
every street corner." Mulder did, in fact, agree with Tim,
but something
made him play devil's advocate.
"That's not the same kind of war. Dying because of a
fight over a pair of
tennis shoes isn't exactly like dying for your country."
"Yeah, but the Civil War wasn't based on the most noble of causes, was it?"
Tim glanced over at him, wondering why Mulder was refuting
every statement
he made. "I don't know...it still seems like there's a
little more reason
behind the deaths at Bull Run than behind some of the ones I
work." He
paused. "Hey, aren't I supposed to be getting *away* from
work?"
"Sure. But you brought up Manassas, didn't you?"
"Maybe I did and maybe I didn't. Could you just find some
music to put
on?" He found himself wishing Mulder would be quiet. What
was with him?
Mulder picked up a shoebox full of tapes which lay on the
floor at his feet
and started rummaging through them. "There's an awful lot of
Erasure in
here, isn't there?"
"What do you mean, an awful lot?"
"Well, four tapes *and* the greatest hits?"
"I like Erasure. What's wrong with Erasure?"
"They're just a little too...synthesized for me."
"Or too queer?" As soon as he said it, Tim knew it
was the wrong thing,
but there it was, hanging there.
"That's not what I said."
"Right." Tim wasn't trying to prolong the argument,
but it came out
sounding petulant anyway.
"It's just that guy, the singer, he dresses in drag at
their concerts."
Mulder felt like he had to defend himself.
"But you can't see that when you're listening to the
tape, so forget about
it. Don't you like any of their songs?"
"I don't know...they're sort of catchy, I guess."
"I'm not saying you have to put it on. Just pick something else."
There's not much else IN here, Mulder thought to himself, but
he thought he
should drop the subject. Jeez, was the whole weekend going to be
like
this? He didn't remember any petty sparring between them before.
"How
about Bonnie Raitt?"
"Sounds fine." Tim was mad at himself for being so
touchy, but he still
couldn't keep the irritation out of his voice. Just get over it.
Just
think about how nice it is that he's *here*, all yours, for the
next 36
hours. He exhaled and mustered up a smile. "No, really, it's
fine. I'm
sorry. I just got up too early, or something." Glancing over
to see
Mulder's expression, Tim was relieved to find the other man
smiling back.
He reached over to brush his hand against Mulder's cheek, feeling
the
slight roughness of early-morning stubble, a sensation which was
still new
enough to send a little shock running through him.
End Part 1, continued in Part 2
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Title: Into the Woods, 2/3
Author: Marti
E-mail: oak_girls@hotmail.com
Disclaimers, etc. in part 1
They arrived in the late morning, when the sun was high and
the air had
warmed up enough to stop and put the top down on the Jeep. Tim
wondered if
they should go to the campsite first, since the spaces were first
come,
first served, but Mulder thought it was probably better not to
leave their
supplies unaccompanied if they weren't going to stay there all
afternoon.
He recommended a short hike he had picked out, ending at an
overlook called
Betty's Rock where they could have a picnic.
"It's supposed to be a 180-degree view of the Shenandoah Valley to the west."
How does he know all this stuff? Tim wondered. "When did
you have time to
do all this research?"
"Here and there. In the car on the way to investigations.
In my office
while I was waiting for programs to run on my computer."
"How long have you been planning this?"
"Two or three weeks, maybe?"
"No kidding!" Again, Tim was impressed by the effort
and commitment this
demonstrated; he only wished he'd realized what was going on
sooner, since
it would have saved him some weeks of worry and restlessness when
he
thought about the relationship.
They were heading south on Skyline Drive, and pulled over into
a parking
area on the right. The trail, marked with short logs placed
horizontally
at intervals, was less than a mile long and not very steep. As
they hiked,
Tim concentrated on the ground cover, making sure he put his feet
in the
right place, so he almost ran headlong into Mulder when the other
man
stopped short at the end of the trail to take in the view. Tim
pulled up
alongside him and looked out at the vista. Purple-gray mountains
rose up
on either side of them, with an expanse of green valley in the
middle, the
landscape dotted here and there with houses and farms. They were
standing
to the left of a relatively flat rock formation, and Mulder
scrambled out
on top of it so he could get a better view.
"Pretty spectacular, huh?" Mulder asked.
"Yeah, it really is," Tim replied in a hushed voice.
"I'm not used to
seeing so much of a view at one time...it's hard to get
perspective on
anything in the city."
"This isn't even the best one in the Park. We'll try some
more after
lunch. But this is the kind of thing I wanted you to see."
"I'm glad you did," Tim said simply. He felt a
little ashamed at how
contrary he had been since Mulder first suggested this. I should
have
trusted him. This is great, this is beautiful, and there's a lot
more of
it to come, he thought.
"You hungry?" Mulder asked.
"Yeah, let's eat."
They found a flat place to sit and unpacked their lunch. Tim
hadn't paid
much attention to what Mulder was packing, except to put in a
request for
the kind of sandwich he wanted. However, he noticed that there
was only
one sandwich in the bag. "You're not having one?"
"No, I brought some other stuff."
Tim smiled to himself as Mulder pulled out a bag of sunflower seeds.
They ate in silence, enjoying the stillness of the woods and
the sun on
their backs. When he had finished eating, Tim packed his trash
away and
then slid over closer to Mulder so their legs were touching,
putting one
hand on Mulder's knee. "This is great. Thanks."
"You're very welcome." He turned to smile at Tim,
pleased to have him
closer by than he had in a while. "You look more relaxed
already."
"Yeah? I feel good. All that work-related stress just
seeping out into
the rocks."
"That's the idea. It's nice to see you out of your suit."
"Hey, you've seen me out of my suit before. You've even
helped me out of
it a few times."
Mulder smacked him lightly on the thigh. "You know what I
mean. I like
that cap. You look...cute."
"Really! I don't think you've ever said that to me before."
"Well, you do. But I'm going to have to take it off."
"Why?"
"Because it's going to get in the way when I kiss you."
Tim felt his heart start thumping as Mulder came around in
front of him,
straddling his lap, then pulled his cap off and set it aside.
Mulder ran
his hands through the short brown hair, smoothing it back from
Tim's face,
and leaned in for a kiss. It was gentle at first, but then Tim
opened his
lips so Mulder could explore more deeply. He leaned back on the
sunbaked
rocks and pulled Mulder down with him, an opportunity which
Mulder took to
start attending to other places on Tim's body, first trailing a
row of
kisses along his jawline, tickling him just a little with his
tongue, then
sliding down his neck. Tim's shirt was Henley-style with a row of
six
buttons, half of which were closed, so Mulder kissed him first in
the
hollow of his throat, where the shirt was open, and then undid
the buttons
one by one, pressing a kiss into each spot as it became
available. Tim
couldn't believe how aroused he was by such small, subtle
movements; he
encouraged Mulder to go on by holding one hand firm on the back
of his neck
and sliding the other one up his back underneath his own shirt,
which was
now untucked. He was quite disappointed, therefore, when Mulder
stopped
short after the last button and laid his head on Tim's chest.
"I'm sorry...believe me, the spirit is willing, but the
rest of me is a
little uncomfortable." His knees were pressed against the
rock on either
side of Tim, and the warmth of the stone was turning to extreme
heat in the
noonday sun.
"Damn," Tim murmured, but he understood. There was a
protrusion of some
sort pressing into his lower back, though he hadn't noticed until
that
instant. "Later, then. I wanted to see where you were going
with that!"
"This will just give me time to plan something
better." Mulder grinned and
kissed him once more before getting up.
****
They repacked the car and headed further south on Skyline
Drive. The
campsite was about thirteen miles away, and Mulder had picked out
some more
hikes in between, including one with a breathtaking 270-degree
view, and
one in an expanse of prairie land where they saw several
white-tailed deer
who almost let the men come up to them before sprinting off into
the woods.
After the third hike, however, Tim's enthusiasm started to wane.
The sun
was dipping closer to the horizon, and his stomach was growling.
They had
agreed that they would eat dinner at one of the lodges, to avoid
the need
to pack a lot of food and the risk of curious bears sniffing
around their
campsite.
(Bears? Tim had asked. Don't worry about it, said Mulder. They
almost
never attack.)
"So," Tim said, leaning against the Jeep, pausing to
take a long swig of
water from a bottle. "I can't believe those sunflower seeds
could stay by
you all this time. Are you hungry?"
"A little, I guess. Maybe we should get the tent set up before we eat."
"But didn't you say we shouldn't leave our stuff
unattended? Besides,
there are still a couple of hours of daylight. Look." Tim
extended his
arm toward the west, with his hand in a fist, and squinted as he
moved it
two notches down toward the horizon.
"What are you doing?"
"The length of your fist from top to bottom, when viewed
from the length of
your arm, is the distance the sun moves through the sky in an
hour. Two
fist lengths between the sun and the horizon means two hours
until sunset,"
Tim explained.
"And I thought you weren't an outdoorsman!"
"Astronomy unit, twelfth grade physics."
"Do you know what direction we're heading? Which way the
wind is blowing?
Whether we're about to be attacked by marauding Indians?"
"I just know I need to sit down and eat something,"
Tim said, laying a hand
on Mulder's shoulder.
****
After dinner, Mulder tried measuring the sun himself.
"Does this work for
everybody? What if your arm is longer than mine? What if you have
an
extra finger that makes your fist larger?"
"I don't know...I think it's pretty universal."
"Well, my fist tells me we have less than an hour until
sunset. We better
get going unless we want to be fooling around in the dark."
"Is that a bad thing?"
"Fooling around with the tent, yes. With you, no. But the
tent has to be
in place first, unfortunately."
Tim felt a little thrill. He could never quite believe it when
Mulder said
things like that to him. He hopped into the Jeep with a little
more spring
than usual.
When they got to the campground, Mulder said, "See? It's
not that
primitive. Shower facilities, even a picnic table."
"Yeah, I see...even cabins. Tell me again why we're not
staying in one of
those?"
"Full. Besides, this will give you the whole camping experience."
"That's what I'm afraid of."
They parked and surveyed the scene. There were only a couple
of other
tents, on the far side of the cleared area.
"It seems a little underpopulated, doesn't it?" Tim
asked. "Who do you
call if there's a problem?"
"Rangers have an 800 number. And I did bring my cell
phone, although I
packed it down deep in my bag so Scully wouldn't bother us."
"Would it even work out here?"
"Don't worry about it, would you? Everything will be fine."
They found a likely spot and started unpacking the gear. The
tent was
rolled up in a pack, and as Tim pulled it out, he asked,
"Are there
instructions for this?"
"We don't need instructions. It's simple. Just need to
unfold it and get
the poles in the right place."
Tim began to unfold it, and frowned as he realized it was just
one big
expanse of blue nylon. "And where would the right place be,
do you think?"
"I don't know. Aren't there casings of some sort?"
"What's a casing?"
"You know, a long opening, stitched on both sides, that
you stick something
else into. Like a sausage casing."
"There's nothing here that looks like that."
"Let me see it." The light was dimming, however, and
so it was getting
harder to discern any details. "Can you get the poles out of
the Jeep?"
Tim rummaged around until he found them. One was stuck under
the front
seat, so he leaned in at an angle to yank it out. "Ow!"
"What?"
"Nothing...just twisted my back the wrong way." He
carried the poles over
to Mulder, rubbing the muscle he'd just strained. "Any
luck?"
"I found one of them."
"There are six poles here."
"I'm aware of that. You're not helping."
"Sorry." Tim stood silently for a few minutes while
Mulder struggled with
the nylon sheets, which seemed to have ballooned to near
parachute-size.
"Need any help?"
"No."
"Need some more light?" The sun had dipped below the
trees which
surrounded the campsite.
"Maybe. Could you just aim the flashlight in this
direction?"
Fortunately, Mulder had packed his government-issue Maglite. Tim
held it
as helpfully as he could, but it didn't illuminate a large enough
area.
Mulder was sliding his hands along the edge of the nylon, trying
to find an
opening. "Okay. Here. Hand me one of those poles."
Tim obliged. He noticed that as the sun disappeared, the
temperature was
dropping. Suddenly the cotton shirt was not warm enough, and he
wished
he'd buttoned some of those buttons back up. He started toward
the Jeep to
get his vest, when Mulder stopped him. "Hey - where are you
going?"
"Just to get a jacket."
"Well, I need you here right now. Hold that." Mulder
handed him the part
of the tent into which he had successfully inserted a pole and
told him to
stand still while he started running his hand across the other
length of
nylon. By the time he got the other poles inserted, it was
totally dark,
and when Mulder set the flat bottom of the tent against the
ground, the
poles immediately tilted to one side and the tent collapsed.
End Part 2, concluded in Part 3
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Title: Into the Woods, 3/3
Author: Marti
E-mail: oak_girls@hotmail.com
Disclaimers, etc. in part 1
"I don't think that's going to work..." Tim started to say.
"I know, I know. Just let me think for a minute."
Mulder paced in a
little circle around the tent, staring at the pile of fabric,
seemingly
hoping it would decide to reveal its secrets to him.
Tim watched him pace. The afternoon had gone so smoothly that
he'd begun
to think Mulder did know what he was doing, but now he wasn't so
sure. He
still wanted to go get his vest, as the temperature seemed to be
dropping
every second, but he thought he would wait a minute to see what
Mulder was
going to do, or if he was going to snap at him again. Surely he
must be
cold, too, Tim thought. Is it going to be any warmer inside that
flimsy-looking thing? If it ever takes the form of something we
can get
inside of, that is? What temperature were those sleeping bags
supposed to
be good to? It's going to be a long walk to the bathroom in the
dark...
As the litany of gripes ran through his mind, Tim glanced down
to see the
ends of two poles lying across each other on top of the nylon.
"Mulder?"
"What?" He didn't look up at Tim, but continued staring at the tent.
"Are those poles supposed to be attached to each other?"
"I don't see how they could be."
"Maybe there's some other kind of tool in the bag."
When he looked in the sack the tent had come in, he found
three plastic
rings which looked like they might hold the poles together. He
handed
these to Mulder, who took them without a word, and tried sliding
them over
the ends of the poles. When he pulled the poles upright and let
go, the
tent stood up.
"Great - can we get in there now?" Tim asked,
grabbing his knapsack and
ducking inside. Mulder followed with the rest of the gear.
Neither of them spoke as they started unrolling the sleeping
bags and
arranging the camp. Tim waited until he thought most of the
tension had
subsided, and then said, "So, I thought Scully told me you
were an Indian
Guide when you were little."
"That was a long time ago."
Okay, so the tension was still there. Good grief, Tim thought.
What's he
still so pissed about? It's not that big a deal. Surveying the
arrangements, he wondered once again why they had to bring two
sleeping
bags. He supposed they didn't make any big enough for two people,
but that
seemed to defeat the purpose of what he thought was intended to
be some
kind of romantic getaway. He'd looked forward to curling up
against Mulder
all night, since he rarely got to sleep like that. Again,
wouldn't a cabin
with a nice double bed be preferable?
"So, which sleeping bag is mine?" Tim inquired.
"Are you ready for bed already?" Mulder asked
incredulously. "It's only
8:00!"
"Well, I am tired, but I was asking more for future reference."
Mulder realized that Tim was looking at him impatiently, with
his jaw set.
He seemed to be challenging him to come back with another smart
retort, but
instead of responding immediately, Mulder felt his irritation
melt away.
Looking directly into Tim's eyes, which he'd been avoiding for
the last
hour or so, he simply thought: okay. We're here. This is what I
was
trying to accomplish.
In a softer voice than Tim had anticipated, Mulder finally
replied,
"Actually, I have a little trick to show you -- to conserve
body heat."
Mulder unzipped both sleeping bags and started re-zipping the two
together.
"Did they teach you that in the Indian Guides?" Tim said, delighted.
"Oh, no - this is something I figured out just for this
trip," Mulder
teased, glad to be back to their easy camaraderie. He wasn't
going to ruin
this by berating himself when everything didn't go as he'd
planned.
After they had set up the pallet and stashed the knapsacks in
the corners
of the tent, they stretched out on top of the sleeping bags.
They'd
brought some reading material and a deck of cards (Tim had
thought earlier
that he might challenge Mulder to a game of Hearts), but at this
moment
neither felt up to doing anything. After all the physical
exertion, it
felt good just to lay still. A few minutes later, though, Tim
remembered
he was still wearing his hiking boots, and decided he would be
more
comfortable with them off and his new wool socks on. But when he
sat back
up, he felt a sharp twinge in his lower back. "Ow."
"What's wrong?"
"Oh, I just wrenched my back again. Damn." He leaned
forward to rummage
around in his knapsack. "I hope I remembered to pack some
Bengay."
"Tim, you sound like an old man." Mulder said,
reaching up to caress the
back of Tim's head. "I remembered to pack it."
"Good." Tim was secretly pleased that this had
occurred to Mulder. "The
only way you could be more thoughtful would be if you put some on
my back
-- please?" Tim handed him the tube, lay back down on his
stomach on the
sleeping bag, and lifted his shirt and vest. The now-cold air was
a shock,
stinging against his bare skin. Then he felt the exquisite
sensation of
the air combined with Mulder's warm hand and the cooling balm
against his
skin. Mulder spent a few minutes rubbing the muscles in Tim's
lower back,
working in the medicine and working out the kinks, and then slid
up to
whisper in Tim's ear.
"Hey, is this stuff men-tho-lated?" He drew the word
out in a low voice,
his lips against Tim's cheek. "It tingles a little, doesn't
it?"
"Mm-hmm..." Tim murmured back. "And never quite
like *that* before." He
smiled peacefully, his face still pressed against the sleeping
bag and his
eyes closed. "You're certainly better at that than
Munch!"
"What?" Mulder, who had been expecting to hear
anything but that, sat back
on his heels.
"Oh...just once, in the squad room, I had to ask Munch to
put some burn
salve on my back. There I am, hunched over a desk with my
shirttail hiked
up, in a very vulnerable position, and he's just looking at me
like I'm
crazy."
"Well...he doesn't know what he's missing."
Bending back down to his earlier position, Mulder started by
pressing a
kiss against the small of Tim's back. He took his time exploring
the area
of bare skin, running his fingers along the edge of Tim's
waistband and
then following them with his lips. Then he turned his attention
to the
hollow in the middle of Tim's back, running the tip of his tongue
up
through it until he reached the edge of the pushed-up shirt.
Hearing Tim
moan softly, and feeling the vibration of the sound under his
lips, he
looked up to see that the other man's hands were curled into
fists, balling
up the fabric of the sleeping bag.
"So, I guess that felt good?" Mulder asked, sliding
a warm hand into the
waistband of Tim's boxer shorts.
"Yes...do it some more." Tim's breath was shallow.
"Gladly, but these clothes are getting in the way."
Tim let go of the sleeping bag and rolled over onto his back.
"Let's get
them off, then. But you have to come inside here with me."
****
In the middle of the night, Tim had had to scrounge around for
his shirt
and put it back on, but he found it was surprisingly warm inside
the
sleeping bag, arms and legs entwined with Mulder's. He didn't
wake up
until the sun was already well above the horizon. He wasn't sure
if Mulder
had any specific plans for the morning, but he didn't think there
was any
hurry to get up. His head pressed against Mulder's chest, he
listened a
moment to the deep breathing which told him Mulder still hadn't
stirred.
He pulled the other man in a little closer and inhaled his spicy
scent.
Gently, using only the very tips of his fingers, he began
caressing
Mulder's chest and the muscles in his abdomen, working his hand
down until
it brushed the inside of Mulder's thigh and he could feel the
other man
start to respond.
Tim shifted until he was on top of Mulder, chest to chest,
then touched his
lover's full lower lip, first with a fingertip and then with his
own lips.
The kiss was long, slow, exploratory, and Tim didn't let go until
he felt
Mulder's hands on his backside, pressing him in as close as he
could. Tim
could not have put into words how thrilled he was to realize that
it was
*his* lips and hands causing Mulder to react like that. He could
never
believe that this man he yearned for in fact yearned for him
back. It made
him lean back into the kiss with increasing ardor, to start
nudging
Mulder's lips apart with his tongue.
Just then, a twig snapped outside the tent as someone walked
by. A car
door opened, then shut, and an engine started rumbling. Almost as
suddenly, Mulder rolled over onto his side and pushed Tim off of
him.
What the hell? "Was I wrong to think you were enjoying
that?" Tim said, a
little bitterly.
"The noise startled me."
"That?" He had barely registered it. "They're
outside, and we're in here.
They're *driving away*, in fact. We're more alone than we were
five
minutes ago." Tim suddenly felt colder and sat up to find
his socks again.
"I know. I'm just..."
"Just what? Just skittish? Yesterday you were kissing me
in broad
daylight and now you don't want to be near me because there might
possibly
be one other person around, out of sight and out of
earshot?"
"Sorry. C'mere. I want you next to me."
"Well, at this point, I don't feel like it." Tim was
aware he was probably
blowing this all out of proportion, but he was starting to
realize how
things like this happened more often than he cared to admit. The
time they
were on the pier in Fells Point, and he'd reached for Mulder's
hand, only
to have him move away. The time he had called Mulder's cell phone
while he
was out on a case, and been told that probably wasn't such a good
idea.
"What were you thinking about, up on the rocks
yesterday?" Tim asked,
yanking on his socks. "You know why I was so turned on?
Because *you*
started it, because we weren't in the dark, under the covers,
because I
could feel the sun on my skin and the breeze blowing and you
touching me.
It - felt - great." He punctuated each word. "So that's
the last time
that's gonna happen, huh? Until we go out of town again?"
"No...yes...wait. I don't know." Mulder felt
helpless, not sure anything
he could say truthfully would appease Tim at all. "I wanted
to touch you.
I *want* to touch you. I planned this whole trip so I could be
with you."
"But you brought us out here, miles from anything
resembling civilization.
Why? So no one you knew would see you?"
"OK, that's not fair." In exasperation, Mulder flung
his head back down
onto the pillow. "Besides, it's not like this is that far
from
civilization, some idyllic paradise where you can do whatever you
want. A
couple of years ago, two women were killed here while they were
backcountry
camping, and people suspect it's either because they were
lesbians or
because the murderer thought they were."
"What?" Tim felt a chill run through him, though
this was certainly not
that much different than crimes he encountered every day of his
life. "Why
are you telling me that?"
In fact, Mulder wasn't sure why he'd brought it up at that
moment, and he
could see by the wideness of Tim's eyes that he had
underestimated the
effect it would have. "Well, apparently I'm telling you to
make you feel
much worse than I already have." One side of his mouth
curved up in a
self-effacing smile.
"Mulder..." Tim exhaled sharply. "What's going
on here? Have you had
that in the back of your mind the whole time, just waiting for
some
bogeyman to come and get you?"
"No, I didn't even think about it until I said it.
I..." He sat back up.
"I'm sorry if I don't feel as comfortable as you do with all
this. But I
*want* to. I got us up here thinking...I don't know, thinking, of
course,
that we'd be away from it all, but not like that, just...like I
said, away
from ringing phones and all that."
"But part of that is getting to feel more comfortable
with me, right? To
see what I'm like 24 hours a day, not just two or three? Isn't
part of
feeling comfortable letting me touch you when I want to? How
comfortable
do you feel now?"
"Very. I mean...yesterday, I wanted to kiss you and so I did."
"Great! That's all I'm asking for. And it would be nice
if it happened
occasionally once we got back to the city." Tim finally
faced him again,
and Mulder returned his gaze, taking in his rumpled hair, the
imploring
hazel eyes.
Grinning, he responded, "I don't know about later, but
right now I'd
certainly like to kiss you."
"Aren't we going to eat breakfast?" Tim wasn't
really hungry, but thought
he should at least give the impression of resistance.
"Later," Mulder said.
FIN
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