Ah don't know how things turned out the way they did. After Ah left Remy in Antarctica, things fell apart. Everyone was so torn up with their own problems, Ah don't think anyone realized what was happenin'. And by the time Magneto attacked, the real Magneto, we were already to far gone. Lookin' back, Ah can see that it's just what he wanted. First he spread doubt and mistrust. Then he left us alone. As it turns out, we were our own worst enemies. We let doubt and guilt eat away at us. We let the Dream drown in a pool of pain. Now look where we are. Luckily the world isn't a worse place. The hate died down on it's own. The world didn't need the X-Men. We weren't heroes anymore. We fell apart. Ah don't know where all o' the others disappeared to. Scott an' Jean are livein' in Alaska. We don't hear form Warren and Betsy. They just left. A few o' us are still liven' at Xavier's, but only because we have no where else to go. Storm has fallen from grace. Logan keeps an eye on her, but Ah don't know how with it she is. She locks herself in her green house. Doesn't talk to anyone. She has buried herself under a pile of guilt. I think she holds herself responsible for what happened to Sam. Poor Sam. I don't think the sound of his screams will ever stop ringing in mah head. No one ever found the professor. Ah thank God he wasn't here to see us fall.

"Rogue!"

"What is it Logan?"

"I need your help. The Icicle is flipin' out again."

Usually, Bobby's fine. But sometimes....Ah don't know. He just loses it. Then It takes me an' Logan just ta calm him down. Ah want to leave, Ah really do. But Ah can't leave Logan here to look after Bobby an' Storm. There isn't anyone else. An' they're the closest thing Ah have to family. Oh, sometimes Ah've dreamed of just flyin' away. Maybe Ah'd go find Remy. He's still alive somewhere. Ah know he is. Ah would've given up on all of this a long time ago if he wasn't. But Ah guess Ah'm to afraid that he has gone on with his life. Not that he doesn't deserve to. We abandond him. Just like all of his other 'families' did.

Rainin' out. Like usual. Storm's doin'. Ah don't think she notices. She talks to Logan some times, but only about how she failed us all. She doesn't understand that she needs to let go of all that pain. Holdin' it all inside only makes the hurt worse. When Ah see her, Ah'm reminded that Ah could've ended up like her. But Ah let go of mah pain. Ah still miss Remy, but it dosn't consume me. Not any more.

Just outa curiosity, Ah used Cerebro to Fine Gambit. He's in New York. If he comes, he comes. He might not. It's a chance Ah'll just have to take. Now Ah'm sitin' near the front door, waiting. Ah tell myself "Girl, you're settin' yourself up to get hurt again." Ah don't care. Ah'm past the point where things have to be certain. Ah'm willin' to take a chance.The door opens.

"Chere."

"Remy." Ah start cryin'. Not just 'cause Ah'm happy to see him. Ah'm also sorry he has to see us this was. Ah look in his eyes, an' all doubt flies from my mind. No matter what we've become, the love is still there. And maybe it'll be enough. It's a chance we'll both have to take.

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