Doesn't Really Matter
Part 5 in the series "Its my Life"
by: Adrienne


Discalimer:The only characters that are mine are: Kelly, Danielle, Shaye, Shawn, April, Mike, Pete, and Sam

Summary: Joey has to deal with the aftermath of Jen's death, and Pacey and Doug struggle with there father, and the way he's treated them.

Authors note: Any songs that are in my stories are not mine, so email me if you want to know who made them


Grocery Store

Thursday Morning

Pacey and Joey were walking around the grocery store, doing Bessie's grocery shopping for her

Joey sighed

Pa: You okay? You want me to take you back to Bessies, and come back here?

Jo: No, I'm fine, I just can't wait till we go back to Boston tomorrow, I mean I love being home, but so many things remind me of my past..and of Jen.

Joey said the last part quietly, Pacey was still worried about her, but he was glad that he saw her smile every once in awhile.

Joey picked up a loaf of bread, and put it in the basket, she was going to continue walking untill Pacey stopped her, and held her, she could've stayed there forever.

Joey heard someone clearing there throat, so she let go of him, but grabbed for his hand when she saw who it was.

Man's Voice: Well, Well, Well...if it isn't the town loser, and what do we have here, he's in the arms of a Potter girl.

Joey felt Pacey tense up, she gave his hand a light squeeze, hoping that he would calm down. Joey wanted to punch Mr. Witter, she didn't know how Pacey could've taken so much of his dad's abuse growing up. Joey was about to say something, but Mr. Witter started up again.

MrWitter: I thought by sending you off to live with your grandparents, I would never ever have to see your face again, what are you doing back here?

P:(Calm but angry) Well, if you talked to your mother and father in-law, you would know that a friend of mine was murderd.

Joey winced at the words..murderd..she was still getting used to the idea that Jen was gone. She wouldn't be able to call her, and tell her about girl things, like how hot guys were, or just random stuff.

MW: If you thought you were going to get an ounce of sympathy from me, you were wrong. She probably only hung out with you for pity, you're nothing in my eyes, you don't even exist.

P:(sarcastic) Oh, that's right, you only have one son, and his name is Doug--

Pacey was about to continue, but Mr Witter cut him off

MW:(Angry) I don't ever want to hear his name again, you hear me. If I ever see you or hear you call me dad again, I will personally make your life a living hell, just like I made his.

MrWitter was about to leave, but then he looked at Joey

MW: You're a smart girl, I don't know why you hang out with the likes of him, if I were you, I'd dump him and move on, you could do better

MrWitter turned and walked out of the grocery store, Pacey and Joey finished up there shopping in silence. They finished putting the bags in the car and Pacey was about to hop in as well, untill he felt Joey's hand on his shoulder, he turned around, and she pulled him towards her

P:(Hugging Joey) I can get over him saying all of that stuff about me, but I just don't understand why he hates me so much, am I that so hard to love

Joey pushed him back slightly, so she could she his face

Jo: Pacey, look at me, people love you, Dawson loves you, Bessie loves you, and I love you

Pacey shook his head, and looked at her

P: Joey, you heard what he said to you, you could do so much better, I'm nothing, I'm just a town loser.

Jo: Yes, I heard him, but he's wrong Pacey. You're so much more than him, you're smart, you're funny, you're good looking, and you were and still aren't a loser.

Pacey:(thinking) She's right, I can't believe I let him affect me like this

P:(smiling) Potter, you really think so?

Jo:(Smiling)Yep, and one more thing, it doesn't matter what anyone says, because I'm going to love you anyways

Pacey hugged Joey closer to him, and leaned down slowly

P:(Whispering That's what I love about you, Potter, you always know just what to say

Jo:(half smile) Well, I must admit, I stole a line or two from Janet Jackson

P:(quietly) Stooping to the Jacksons level, Joey I had no idea

Joey leaned in, and brushed her lips against Paceys, she traced her tounge, and then slid it through Pacey's lip. Pacey wrapped his arms around her back, and passionantly kissed her back, untill she was breathless.

Pa:(Smiling) Well, sticking to the Janet Jackson Theme, "You know you want me"

Joey rolled her eyes at Pacey, and leaned in to give him another kiss, but he stopped her

Jo: What's wrong?

Pa:(Joking) I know you would love to continue standing here kissing me, but there's an audience

Joey looked around, and there was old couple staring at them, she looked back at Pacey

Jo:(smirk) Like that's stopped you before

Pa:(smiling) Joesphine, I do remember Bessie saying that she wanted us to hurry back

Jo:(pulling away from his arms) You never listen to your elders, why start now?

Pacey opened the passenger side of the car, letting Joey in, and got in on the other side Pa:(smiling) I listen to my elders, when they're related to the girl I'm in love with

Pacey and Joey smiled at eachother, and they pulled out of the parking space


B&B

Joey and Pacey arrived back at the house, and we're about to pull in the driveway, when Joey noticed something odd.

Jo:(curious) Um, Pace..isn't that Doug's car?

Pacey looked over to where Joey was pointing

P: Yeah, it is

Pacey parked the car, and turned off the engine

Jo: I wonder what he's doing here?

P: Maybe he needs a shoulder to cry on, since dad, or should I say Mr Witter, kicked him out

Joey looked at Pacey, she could tell he was hurting

Jo: Remember, I'm here for you, if you need a shoulder to cry on

P:(smiling) Thanks potter, I'll remember that

Pacey and Joey got the bags out of the car, and started heading for the door. Joey opened the door, and there on the living room couch, sit: Bessie, Bodie, Doug, and some other lady. Bessie and Bodie got up, and took the bags from Joey and Pacey.

Be: If you'll excuse us, we'll just go put this away

Bessie and Bodie headed for the kitchen, Joey grabbed Pacey's hand and sit him next to Doug on the couch

Do: Pacey, this is my wife Kelly

Joey was completley stunned, she always thought Doug was gay, she looked over at Pacey to see his reaction, Pacey on the other hand didn't take his eyes off of Doug

P:(thinking) Why the hell is Doug here? His wife? When did he get married? Figures I wouldn't get an invitation

Jo:(half-smile)It's nice to meet you

K: Oh, we've met before

Joey looked at Kelly, she knew that she had seen that face before, but she couldn't place it

Do: She's Bodie's neice

Joey still couldn't place her, so she just nodded her head.

Pa: Now that introductions are over, Doug, what are you doing here?

Do: I wanted to explain to you, why you couldn't move in with me when you asked

Pacey stood up

P:(Angry) There's nothing to explain, you hated my guts, so you had dad ship me off

Do:(Begging) Pacey, that's not how it happend, please sit down, just listen to me for five minutes

Pacey was about to kick Doug and his wife out, but Joey took a hold of his hand

Jo: Just listen to him, please Pace, for me

Pacey looked at Joey, she knew he could never say no to her, he sit down, and looked at Doug

P:(roughly) Five minutes

Doug breathed a sigh of relief, and then started explaning

Do: The reason why you couldn't move in, was because Kelly was expecting, and at first we didn't want anyone to know, because we thought we were going to give it up for adoption.

Pa: That still doesn't make sense

Doug waved his hand to Pacey, meaning there was more to the story

Do:Kelly lived with me, and none of you guys knew, and I knew that dad didn't like people.... who were different than him

Joey and Pacey looked confused, Kelly piped in

K: Translation: he's a racist old fart

Joey had to smile, Doug had snagged himself a smart, and blunt women.

Do:(continuing) Since Bodie's brother and sister -in- law are racists as well, and had cut all contact off with Bodie when he started dating Bessie, we tried to hide our relationship

Joey looked like she understood

Jo: So, the reason why you didn't want Pacey to move in, was because you didn't want him to have to lie?

Doug and Kelly nodded, Pacey seemed to have calmed down enough to listen more intently

P: So, what happend?

Do: Well, we had the baby, and we didn't want to give her up, so, after a couple of months, we knew we had to tell dad

Jo: So, I'm guessing, he didn't take it well

K: Let's just say, after we got screamed at, and cursed at, and thrown out of his house, it went all downhill from there.

Jo: It got worse?

Do:Much, dad pulled some strings, and I got fired

P:(shocked) He can't do that, can he?

Do: Oh, he did, and he can, and the guy who sold me my apartment, was an old friend, who owed dad a favor, so with Kelly and me both not working, we were homeless

Joey was about to ask where they stayed, but Pacey must've red what she was thinking

P: So, where'd you guys live?

Do: Well, Kelly stayed here at the B&B with the baby, and I went on some job interviews in Providence

Joey now rememberd Kelly, she had mostly stayed in her room, only going out in the daytime, and coming home early, and not bothering anyone, the best guest they ever had. Joey was really not around when Kelly had come to stay though, she had just been raped, and was spending most of her time with Jen.

Joey winced as the thought of Jen came into her head, and Pacey noticed

P:(worried) you okay?

Joey nodded, Pacey knew it wasn't nothing, but just stroked her hand, and decided to ask her about it later

Do:(continuing) So, I got a job, and I moved Kelly and the baby out to live with me in Providence

P: Not to sound rude or anything, but what do you two do for a living?

K:(grin)I'm a nurse, and Doug here, is a bartender

Joey had to smile at the thought of Doug bartending.

Pa: So, where's the baby?

Do: Mrs.Leery wanted to watch her, while we talked, would you like to come with me to go get her?

Pacey looked at Joey

Pa: Jo, I don't have to go if you don't want me to

Joey could tell Pacey really wanted to go, and far be it for her to stand between family bonding

Jo: Don't worry about me, I was just going to ask Kelly if she wanted to come with me for a little shopping

Kelly perked up at the word "shopping"

K: I'd love to

They all laughed at Kelly's eagerness

P:(smiling) Well, I think Kelly will be driving you to the store, because with the way you drive, Potter, I wouldn't let you anywhere on the road

Joey gently slugged Pacey on the arm

Jo: My driving is NOT that bad

Doug piped up

Do: I seem to remember a certin Brunette getting a speeding ticket a day after she got her license

Pacey and Doug laughed as Joey blushed, and glared at them

Do: Don't worry Jo, Kelly isn't the best driver either

K:(glaring at the guys) We can see that we're not wanted, you ready to go, Joey

J: Yep, and Pacey one more thing

P:(smiling) Yeah

Jo: You're sleeping on the couch tonight

Joey walked out the door, Doug began to laugh at Pacey's worried expression

K: I wouldn't laugh too hard Doug, you're joining him

Kelly walked out the door, Doug and Pacey looked at eachother, and raced out behind her


Food Court

After laughing over Pacey and Doug's attempt to get on there good side, Kelly and Joey headed to the mall, they first stopped at the Food court.

Jo: Just out of curiousity, where did Doug and you meet?

K:(smiling) I was working at this coffee shop, so I could pay my tution, I mean my parent's were helping me out, but I still wanted to help them. So, I came into work one day, I was afraid that I had failed my finals and I had just found my then-boyfriend and roommate in a compromising situation, so I was all pissed, and I thought I was going to either blow up or cry my eyes out, and that's when it happend. Doug came in, and he asked me for a cup of coffee, and I said "What, No donuts", and he smiled at me. I didn't know it then, but my boss was right behind me, and he had been looking for a reason to fire me, so I got fired on the spot. I really didn't care much about the job, but all of the stress, had finally made me crumble, I ran out of there so fast.

Jo:(interested) Wow, then what happend??

K: I can't remember much, I just know that I woke up, and I was at Doug's apartment, so I started freaking out, and I was like "Ohmygod, he's got a gun" I forgot the fact that he was a cop, and acted like a fool

Joey had to smile at Karen, she was so interesting to watch, she used her hands and facial expressions to describe every detail in a story.

K: So, anyways, he gets me to calm down, and he tells me he's a cop, and that he saw me passed out on the ground, and his house was right across the street, so he took me there. So, we started talking, and then one thing led to another, and I end up spending the night.

Jo: I'm impressed, I mean, I always thought Doug was gay, and now look at him, he's standing up for the woman he loves, and there daughter.

K: Yeah, but it's like, wow, I mean he chose me over his father, and that was, it was unbelievable, he really looked up to his father, I don't see how he could've though. Doug seems to think that I'm too good to be true, and my parents have come around, but they think I should dump him, like Mr Witter think he should divorce me.

Kelly and Joey ate there food in silence for a second, both thinking about the ones they loved.

Jo: Well, Pace and I had a little run in with Mr Witter this morning

Karen raised an eyebrow, telling Joey to go on

Jo: Basically, he said that Pacey was a loser, and that he didn't know what I saw in him

K: Ouch, so what happend after that?

Jo: Well, he left, and I basically quoted a line from a song my roommate listens to, and I told him all the things that I loved about him

K: What line, and what song?

Jo: "it doesn't matter what they say, cause I'm going to love you anyway"

K:(smiled) I know that song, good move

Joey got up

K: I'm really not in the mood to shop, do you mind if we go home

Jo: Sure, but do you mind if I stop at a store, you know, I want to make sure, that Pacey will remember next time?

Kelly looked confused, but then she understood

K: Yeah, I think I'm going to make sure Doug does as well

Joey and Kelly dumped there garbage in the trashcan, and walked off


B&B

Next morning

Pacey, Joey, Kelly, and Doug were standing by there cars, getting ready to go back to Boston, and to Providence.

Doug leaned in his car, and strapped his daughter April into her car seat, and then he close the door and stood infront of Pacey

Do: Well, I guess this is goodbye

Doug gave Pacey a manly hug

P:(quietly) Yeah, well I can honestly say, getting to patch things up between you and I, was the best part of it

Do:(whispering) Take care of her, she may act like she's happy, but she's crying on the inside

Pacey nodded, and let go of Doug

Jo: Well, I guess this is it, I'm going to miss you Kelly

K: Me too Jo

Kelly gave Joey a long hug

K:(Whispering) I put the gift on Pacey's dashboard

Joey nodded, and let go of Kelly

Do: Don't forget you two, there's an open invitation for you guys to come stay with us, for awhile that is

Pacey smiled, Joey gave Doug a brief hug, and a kiss on the cheek, which he blushed at

K:(joking) Hey, lay your hands off my man

They all laughed, and got into there cars, Doug took off, Pacey was about to but he noticed a gift, and a card on his dashboard

P:(curious) What's this?

Jo:(innocently) I don't know, why dont you open it??

Pacey began to tear at the gift wrapping off, untill Joey stopped him

Jo:(rolling her eyes)Don't you think you should read the card first? You do want to know who it's from

P:(pouting) Yes, Ma'am

Joey smacked Pacey's arm, and Pacey opened the card

P:(reading) Pace, you and me have been through so much together, and I know that our relationship is just starting, but I love you, and no matter what anyone says, I'm going to keep loving you. I love you...Joey

Pacey looked up at Joey, and noticed she was blushing

Jo: You weren't suppose to read it outloud

Pacey let out a slight chuckle, and leaned in and kissed her, he then opened up the gift, and put the cd in, and heard exacactly what she was saying.


(Intro) Doesn't matter what your friends are telling you
Doesn't matter what my family's saying too
It just matters that I'm in love with you
It only matters that you love me too

(First Verse)
It doesn't matter if they won't accept you
I'm accepting of you, and the things you do
Just as long as it's you
Nobody but you, baby, baby

(Chorus One)
My love for you, unconditional love too
Gotta get up, get up
Get up, get up, get up and show you that it....

(Chorus Two)
Doesn't really matter what the eye is seeing
Cause I'm in love with the inner being
And it doesn't really matter what they believe
What matters to me is you're nutty-nutty-nutty for me

(Repeat Chorus Two)

(Bridge)
(You're so kind)
Just what I asked for, you're so loving and kind (And you're mine)
And I can't believe you're mine

(Second Verse)
Doesn't matter if you're feeling insecure
Doesn't matter if you're feeling so unsure
Cause I'll take away the doubt within your heart
And show that my love will never hurt or harm
Doesn't matter what the pain we go through
Doesn't matter if the money's gone too
Just as long as I'm with you
Nobody but you, baby, baby

(Third Chorus)
You're love for me, unconditional I see
Gotta get up, get up
Get up, get up, get up and show you that it..

(Chorus Three)
Doesn't really matter what the eye is seeing
Cause I'm in love with the inner being
And it doesn't really matter what they believe
What matters to me is you're in love with me

(Repeat Second Chorus)

(Repeat Bridge)

(Second Bridge)

Doesn't matter what they say
Cause you know I'm gonna love you anyway
Doesn't matter what they do
Cause my love will always be with you
(Repeat First Chorus)

(Repeat Third Chorus)

(Repeat Second Chorus)

(Third Bridge)
Nutty-Nutty-Nutty my love for you
I can't believe my dreams come true
I've finally found somebody whose heart is true
And best of all you love me too
And Nutty-Nutty-Nutty my love for you
I can't believe my dreams come true
I've finally found somebody whose heart is true And best of all you're nutty-nutty-nutty for me

(Repeat Third Bridge)


That's the end of the fifth part, email me at AANIKITA@CS.COM, next part will be up soon