God, I want to love you, yet I am
not sure,
I want to trust you, yet I am afraid
of being taken in.
I know I need you, but I am ashamed
of the need.
I want to pray, but I am afraid of
being a hypocrite.
I need my independence, yet I fear
to be alone.
I want to belong, yet I must be myself.
Take me, God, yet leave me alone.
God, I believe and yet I do not believe.
Please help me with my disbelief.
God, if you are there, you do understand,
don't you?
Give me what I need, but leave me
free to choose.
Help me work it out my own way, but
don't let me go.
Let me understand myself, but don't
let me despair.
Please reveal yourself to me, God,
I want you there.
Lighten my darkness, but don't dazzle
me.
Help me to see what I need to do,
and give me strength to do it.
God, I believe and yet I do not believe.
Please help me with my disbelief.
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