"Who am I?"
I am young and vibrant and full of life.
(or at least I used to be)
The world is out there waiting for me to explore.
(I have seen too much of it now)
No one knows better than I do what I want.
(I thought I knew what I wanted)
Nothing can hurt me, I am in control.
(What happened?)
No one is going to tell me what to do.
(somebody, please tell me now)
I don't need your help or advice.
(Help me?)
Love conquers all!!!
(I thought I knew what love was)
Life is like Disneyland, full of fun and adventure.
(let me get off this ride quick)
Sound familiar?
First of all I would like to thank Rik Berry,
for allowing me to borrow this beautiful
painting to use on my site!!!
And I would ask you to please
go to the banner below and visit
his site sometime soon.
The story behind my feeling led
to post this painting is this:
I was browsing the web early one morning
before work, when I came across Rik's site.
I was admiring the different paintings,
but when I came to this one,
it was as if all of the wind
was completely knocked out of my lungs.
Silently, tears began to run
down my face, as I stared
at the girl in the picture.
I couldn't take my eyes off of her face,
off of the guardian angel
as he stood over her,
protecting this innocent child.....
You see, that girl? That was me,
many years ago,or I should say
someone just like her.
Only my life took many many
more turns for the worse
before I finally gave in.
Before I could not get any further
down than I was,so I thought.
And at the time,
I was always contributing it to "Luck"
when I got out of a scrape.
There were way too many situations
that I found myself in,
that to be honest,
I never should have come out alive.
Later, after my life began to change,
I was totally amazed looking back,
that I was alive, and well in one piece!!
And I always wondered
if the Lord had been
watching over me all along.
Regardless of whether
or not I was loving Him in return.
There was no other
credible explanation.
The thing is?
There are so many of us out there.
And we all have a story to tell.
Many of us have learned from
the school of hard knocks.
Many of us carry
irreparible scars from the life
we chose, or so it seems.
Some of you, like me,
knew or know who Jesus Christ is.
Whether it be from a family member
or a friend. We chose to turn away
and do our "own thing".
It was still easy to say
"I believe" or " I'm a christian",
when our lives were not
at all giving any evidence of it.
Some of you don't know Him at all.
But what you do know,
is that there is that place,
deep inside of you that hurts.
It literally aches it is so empty.
And we continually find ways
to try to fill that "place" up.
Whether it be
looking for love in all the wrong places,
or drinking ourselves into oblivion,
and/or getting high on
whatever is available.
But it just doesn't go away.
For me, that path took me
further and further away from Jesus.
And at some point,
I don't know exactly when, but
I tried to come back.
To pray and ask for help
only to find that the answer
wasn't what I expected it to be,
and I would get really angry.
Then the guilt would come.
Full force. Guilt for turning away.
Guilt for the things I had done
to and with others.
Guilt for who I had become.
I was hopeless.
I would just simply have to live
with what and who I was now
and face the fact that I could
never be forgiven.
Because I couldn't forgive myself.
How could anyone love me?
Knowing what I knew about "me".
Well, the good news is this.....
There is a second chance waiting
for you. For each of us.
And you don't have to go far
to find it.
Because He has been there
all along.
He loves you. YOU!!!
He will cry with you, and
put your tears in a bottle.
And if you will just admit
that you have made alot of
wrong choices, and that you
just don't see any way out.
That you cannot do it alone
anymore. That you need help.
He will be there with open
arms, smiling.
I am living proof of it,
along with so many others.
There IS hope!!!!
There is so much
that I would like to tell you.
But you may not stay awake
for it all.
I have said enough. Maybe no one
will be touched by this. Maybe it
was simply God's way of showing
me how He kept watch over me
even when I wanted nothing
to do with Him.
I just want you to know
that you are loved. That you
are worth everything.
YOU matter!!
And God loves you.
That's not just some
saying.
It's REAL!!!
A friend of mine
says it
plain and simple...
"Do you want another 10 years
like the last 10 years of your
life?"
Jesus says...
come unto me, all you
who are weary and heavy laden,
and I will give you rest.
Take a chance. What do you have
to lose?
If you need prayer, or just someone
to talk to?
Send me a note, I promise
to get back to you as soon as
I can.
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"Who am I?"I am young and vibrant and full of life. (or at least I used to be) The world is out there waiting for me to explore. (I have seen too much of it now) No one knows better than I do what I want. (I thought I knew what I wanted) Nothing can hurt me, I am in control. (What happened?) No one is going to tell me what to do. (somebody, please tell me now) I don't need your help or advice. (Help me?) Love conquers all!!! (I thought I knew what love was) Life is like Disneyland, full of fun and adventure. (let me get off this ride quick) Sound familiar?
The story behind my feeling led to post this painting is this: I was browsing the web early one morning before work, when I came across Rik's site. I was admiring the different paintings, but when I came to this one, it was as if all of the wind was completely knocked out of my lungs. Silently, tears began to run down my face, as I stared at the girl in the picture. I couldn't take my eyes off of her face, off of the guardian angel as he stood over her, protecting this innocent child..... You see, that girl? That was me, many years ago,or I should say someone just like her. Only my life took many many more turns for the worse before I finally gave in. Before I could not get any further down than I was,so I thought. And at the time, I was always contributing it to "Luck" when I got out of a scrape. There were way too many situations that I found myself in, that to be honest, I never should have come out alive. Later, after my life began to change, I was totally amazed looking back, that I was alive, and well in one piece!! And I always wondered if the Lord had been watching over me all along. Regardless of whether or not I was loving Him in return. There was no other credible explanation. The thing is? There are so many of us out there. And we all have a story to tell. Many of us have learned from the school of hard knocks. Many of us carry irreparible scars from the life we chose, or so it seems. Some of you, like me, knew or know who Jesus Christ is. Whether it be from a family member or a friend. We chose to turn away and do our "own thing". It was still easy to say "I believe" or " I'm a christian", when our lives were not at all giving any evidence of it. Some of you don't know Him at all. But what you do know, is that there is that place, deep inside of you that hurts. It literally aches it is so empty. And we continually find ways to try to fill that "place" up. Whether it be looking for love in all the wrong places, or drinking ourselves into oblivion, and/or getting high on whatever is available. But it just doesn't go away. For me, that path took me further and further away from Jesus. And at some point, I don't know exactly when, but I tried to come back. To pray and ask for help only to find that the answer wasn't what I expected it to be, and I would get really angry. Then the guilt would come. Full force. Guilt for turning away. Guilt for the things I had done to and with others. Guilt for who I had become. I was hopeless. I would just simply have to live with what and who I was now and face the fact that I could never be forgiven. Because I couldn't forgive myself. How could anyone love me? Knowing what I knew about "me". Well, the good news is this..... There is a second chance waiting for you. For each of us. And you don't have to go far to find it. Because He has been there all along. He loves you. YOU!!! He will cry with you, and put your tears in a bottle. And if you will just admit that you have made alot of wrong choices, and that you just don't see any way out. That you cannot do it alone anymore. That you need help. He will be there with open arms, smiling. I am living proof of it, along with so many others. There IS hope!!!!
There is so much that I would like to tell you. But you may not stay awake for it all. I have said enough. Maybe no one will be touched by this. Maybe it was simply God's way of showing me how He kept watch over me even when I wanted nothing to do with Him. I just want you to know that you are loved. That you are worth everything. YOU matter!! And God loves you. That's not just some saying. It's REAL!!! A friend of mine says it plain and simple... "Do you want another 10 years like the last 10 years of your life?" Jesus says... come unto me, all you who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Take a chance. What do you have to lose?
If you need prayer, or just someone to talk to? Send me a note, I promise to get back to you as soon as I can.
Thank you ICT for sharing your graphics~ Click on the button above if you would like to visit their link. :*)
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