In This
Empty Room
Author
: Bishonen Rapist
( VoodooMagicc@yahoo.com )
Web
Site : Pieces:
J-Rock/J-Pop Fanfiction Archive
Pairing
: tetsu x hyde
Author's
notes :
I
meant to do this from the beginning of the fiction, but
it slipped my mind to do it. For this chapter on forward,
I will have the translation of anything in japanese at the
bottom of the chapter; in other words, footnotes. For
example: [•1] "Inu," the girl said happily. The one
means at the end of the story, go down and where you see
the one, is where the translation will be --[•1] "Inu" means
"dog"-- Okay, do you get it? Hopefully you do. *is bad at
giving explanations*
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Part 3 - [ Nepenthean ]
Hyde awoke only to meet the sun, shining ever so brightly;
it was morning. /It's seven o'clock... I shoud've
gotten up an hour ago.../ Hyde shifted to his side, unwilling
to get out of bed. /Come on Hyde... your best friend,
one of the most important people in your life, is in the
hospital... now get your lazy arse up!/ Hyde
yawned loudly. /Arse?/
Hyde silently giggled like a schoolgirl /I've been hanging
around Ken too long...I've picked up his vocabulary.../
Five
minutes later, he finally emerged from the king-sized bed.
Groggily, Hyde went into the bathroom and stepped
into the shower; it automatically coming on. Afterwards,
activity took place over the sink where he brushed his teeth,
and dried his hair with a towel.
/Going
at this rate, I should get to the hospital no later than
eight forty-five/ Hyde thought to himself, walking out of
his bathroom to his room; taking off his robe and starting
to get dressed. Now dressed, in what he considered
'simple clothing'; red leather pants, and a black shirt
which read 'Rebel' in glossy red letters, he gave his shoulder
length hair another look and quickly ran downstairs followed
by leaving out the house and into his car.
Traffic
jam. /So much for being at the hospital at eight forty-five/
He glanced at his watch which read '9:00.' [•1] "Kuso,"
Hyde softly muttered. Preoccupied and relatively bored,
Hyde rummaged through his surprisingly clean glove compartment.
/...I
haven't listened to this in I don't know how long.../ Hyde
slipped in Tierra; the second full-length album of five
(quick an: I know their have released eight albums, but
this is suppose to be May of '99, so Ark, Ray, and Real
hasn't came out yet) Laruku released in their career.
/Oh
god, the memories from this song.../ He wanted to cry from
listening to 'Wind of Gold' the very song he'd written the
day he and Sakura confessed their feelings toward one another.
/Sakura.../
[•2] "Uxeito, nanra okeru sono is fuka motte ware? Chikushou,
do I still have those kind of feelings for him?...I can't
still love Sakura... not after what he did to the band...
to me..."
Hyde
snapped out of his trance; a car horn was blowing at him
violently; the traffic was starting to move.
/Hyde,
you know you mustn't, you can't, possibly have feelings
for him... he hurt you.../
Soon
the traffic started moving at a pace that was suitable.
(an: My teacher who taught me japanese ears are probably
burning... I forgot how to spell 'is' in japanese... e_E;
Sowwie Misuta- Yasustakei!)
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"Oha--" Hyde quickly silenced himself. She
kissed Tetsu on the forehead, who still lied motionless
on the bed. That she was Kaori.
[•3]
"Mo-ningu, Haido," she said softly, giving Hyde a big bear
hug; she hadn't seem him in ages, afterall.
"Mo-ningu,
Kaori. Long time, no see nor talk, ne?" replied Hyde,
slightly laughing off his response with unease.
"Yeah,
I know," said Kaori, her attention still drawn to Tetsu,
tucking some hair behind her ears and pulling her handbag
out of the chair Hyde was motioning toward.
"How long have you been here?"
"Um,
since around five this morning; I've been here for
roughly four hours. I had to pull some strings to stay in
here this long though... you know the 20 minute visiting
thing was just not for me."
Hyde
nodded agreeingly, for he, Ken, and Yukihiro had to also
pull some strings so Yukkie could spend the night at Tetsu's
side.
"When
I first got here, the first person I saw was Yukihiro with
that 'I'm going to guard Tetsu even if I do/have fall/fallen
asleep while doing so' look on his halfway sleep face.
Poor
Yukkie, I could tell he hadn't had a wink of sleep because
he had panda eyes."
Hyde
looked up briefly. "Where is he now?"
"Well, I tried to encourage him to go home and that I'd
stay here until someone else came, but he refused. However,
with my positive persistance, he at least agreed to get
some sleep somewhere... most likely the recline waiting
area instead of the regular waiting rooms, because they
have extremely comfortable couches."
Hyde
smiled; he could just imagine Yukkie now, sleeping on a
couch with a teddy bear in his clutches... possibly a thumb
in his mouth. At this thought, Hyde almost burst into
laughter. "Yeah, well, I won't look around for him
and wake him; he deserves his sleep," Hyde replied, running
his fingers through his towel dried hair which gave him
an even more 'eat your heart out, I'm so damn sexy' look.
"Well,
I'm here now and will probably end up like Yukkie later
on, but thanks for staying here with Tetsu for a while."
Kaori
nodded and made a start for the doorway, looking back, and
smiled. "Haido, you know better than anyone it was
no problem
at all. We might have our differences, especially
since I'm Tetsu's ex-girlfriend, but we do have two things
in common."
Hyde's
smile faded into a serious look, for he didn't think he
and Kaori had a thing in common.
"And that is?"
"We've
allowed Tetsu to touch our hearts and that we love him dearly."
With
that, Hyde's expression soften; he hadn't thought about
that. /Kaori, you're absolutely right.../
"Take
care, Haido," Kaori proceeded to say, as if she'd read Hyde's
previous thought and was responding to it.
"You
too," said Hyde softly as a serious expression came across
Kaori's face.
"Take
care of Tetsu for me, will you? And please sort out everything
out with eachother when he returns to his normal health;
he needs you, Haido... more than ever... he's near his death,
and if he's blessed enough to recover, you and he need to
talk." Hyde
tried not to look bewildered, and nodded, nonetheless.
Kaori's
serious expression was replaced with another smiling one
as she threw a peace sign up, followed by her trademark
wink before leaving the room. Hyde returned to Tetsu's
bedside, seating himself, his mind wondering; what Kaori
had previously said ringing in his ears;
"Take
care of Tetsu for me, will you? And please sort out everything
out with eachother when he returns to his normal health;
he needs you, Haido... more than ever... he's near his death,
and if he's blessed enough to recover, he and you need to
talk."
Hyde's
mind pondered these words for some time, trying to figure
out what exactly, had Kaori meant when she said that. /Sort
out everything with eachother...? Sort out what,
exactly, and what is this 'Tetsu needs you more than
ever' thing? Maybe Ken or someone told her we had an
argument before he did what he did... no, no, she seemed
to have been talking about something else...she's trying
to help me, but she's not telling me what with, exactly.
Just
like Kaori, as beautiful inside as she is out, always trying
to help someone, whether the person feels like they need
it or not... which leads me to my next question: why in
the hell did she and Tetsu break it off? She's still sweet
and nice, not holding any kind of grudges or anything/
"None
of my bussiness, anyway," Hyde mumbled quietly.
"What's
none of your bussiness, Haido?"
[•4]
"Omaesan!! Don't scare me like that, Ken-chan!" Hyde
had nearly jumped out of his skin from shock; he hated being
startled like that.
Ken
lightly chuckled, [•5] "Bantan choudo, bantan choudo, Haido.
Gomen."
"Aww, you're forgiven, Ken-chan!" Hyde smiled adorably.
Just
before Ken was going to give his 'I have to take a wiss
speech' -(realizes what she just wrote -- staying up 21
hrs and eleven min. does something to you x_X; *beats sleep
demon with a bottle of nail polish and corrects/resumes
to fiction*)- Just before Ken was going to give his 'Haido,
now isn't the time for laughter and childishness, this is
a serious situation' speech, Yukkie ran in the room, bug
eyed and hyper-looking -- it was evident he was pumped up
with chocolates and other candies.
"Outside!
Fans EVERYWHERE! There're all here for Tetsu! It's amazing
how many he has in Tokyo!" Yukihiro was bouncing off the
walls (literally, lol), and had to be stop.
"Yukkie,
Yukkie, calm do--"
"I
caaan't! When I heard all the noise outside, I stepped out
of the hospital, only to get trampled by nothing but highly
commited Tetsu fans/lovers. Some tried to bribe me,
saying that they would give me all the candy I wanted, if
I let them see Tetsu, but some filled me up with sugary
treats anyway and the result is thisss."
"Yukkie,
come on, snap out of it," said Hyde frantically.
[•6]
"Ugh, Ken, I'm going to try and get a nurse in here to give
Yukkie something to make him sleep for a while... kami,
the lengths fans go to...they mean well, of course, and
I love them all, but they just don't know how Yukkie gets
after he gets 'sugar high' (an: Power to the sugar high
people! Okay I'll stop interrupting the story unless needed
n.n;), espeically after a nap," said Hyde soft and
steady, motioning toward the door.
"No,
Haido, Yukihiro will be okay." Haido stopped in his tracks
and raised an eyebrow.
"Yuki-chan,"
siad Ken in an unusal soft tone, which meant either not
to cross him, or something lamentable was going on and he
was just not himself; both of which applied to his soft
tone.
"Mind
you, Tetsu is in critical condition, and also there're other
sick people in this hospital you could be disturbing so
please calm down. Kamisama, if you're like this with
sugar, I think I should stop feeding you my special homemade
candy. Yukihiro quickly fell silent; he'd snapped
out of his 'sugary' state. Replacing it, was a blush.
At
first, Hyde wasn't suspicious about Ken's statement, but
the blush on Yukihiro's face made him wonder. /Do
I really want to know?/ He thought about it for a few minutes.
/Eh, I think I will pass the question and come back
to it at a latter time.../ "Well, let's see these fans of
Tetsu's, ne?"
"What about --?"
"We're
only going to observe them for a few minutes, Ken-chan."
Ken
nodded in defeat of his attempt to stay with Tetsu; Tetsu
was his best friend, afterall, and with Tetsu in the condition
he's in, every minute, every second, counted.
[•7]
"Choudai nodoka daun," said Hyde in his usual soft tone
that would've been easily drowned out by all the noise made
by the fans below; however, Hyde was using a loudspeaker.
Gradually,
they quieted. "Tetsu is still in a coma, I'm afraid,
and the equipment used to help keep him alive seem to
be failing," soft cries could be heard in the crowd. Hyde
tried his best to hold back tears to help keep the fans,
numbering in the thousands, reassured Tetsu would make it.
"I
think I speak for Ken, Yukihiro, and even Tetsu, when I
say, thank you. Thank you for supporting us throughout
our career, for we wouldn't have success if it hadn't been
for you the fans... and for supporting us when you find
out about our personal issues. More importantly, however,
we thank you for coming out this afternoon to see Tetsu
solely. Pray for him... he needs it so very badly
and it's tearing us all up emotionally... just like you,
we hope he'll be okay, that he'll live --"
Hyde
plopped down on the hard concrete balcony of the administrator's
office, and cried. Openly, he cried, infront of not
only highly committed Tetsu fans, but Laruku as a whole.
Ken offered to help him up, and he willingly accepted;
then he realized his fellow bandmates were crying as well.
Right at this moment, he felt no barriers between
him, and the fans, for they felt the same grief, the same
thoughts, just as he felt no barriers between Ken and Yukkie,
if he ever had.
/Kami,
I'm talking to them like L'Arc-en-Ciel aren't going to be
here after today... if Tetsu dare leaves us, leaves me,
it's a possibilty... I... I love him so dearly... he has
always been there for me, even when I cried unnessersary
tears for... for... Sa--/
"Haido,
Haido! Take care of Tetsu, when he recovers, we know he
will! Only you can completely heal him. When he recovers
physically, he'll need your help so he can recover mentally...
you're the only one who can do this. If you really
want to thank us and many others, please do that..." The
girl's voice broke off; it was amazing how well her voice
carried to them, since they were very high above them.
/...Completely
heal him, what?.../ Hyde nodded, yet he wasn't sure what
it meant. Yet, another piece of advice, or request
rather, from someone twice in one day; it was apparent it
wasn't empty advice, but still, he had no clue how to use
it, especially if he didn't understand the meaning. The
eerie silence was broken by a male who looked to be 17,
[•8]
"Hai! tameni Megumi-bish is hidarigawa tameni ketsunoana
waipu!" Everyone else joined in, "Ketsunoana waipu! Ketsunoana
waipu!"
Hyde
was almost tickled with laughter. /How did they find
out? Doesn't matter, they have their sources, might be on
the news... oh kami, he makes a good point!/ The fans
continued to chant for a while and then quieted; going onto
another subject soonafter.
"It
seems there're trying to cheer us up," said Yukihiro smiling
as he looked down at them.
"Yeah,
and doing a damn good job," said Hyde and Ken together,
laughing when they realized it, as they headed back inside
and back into Tetsu's room.
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The
early afternoon soon turned into evening, which later turned
to night; it was getting late and time for Yukihiro and
Ken to head back to their homes.
"Haido,
we both really want to stay, can't we just--"
"No,
when 'the strings were pulled' we could only get a 'one
person can stay overnight' deal."
Ken
frowned. "I'm
not going... I'll feel like total shit, leaving Tetsu here;
even if he does have someone by his side I still want to
be here for him."
Hyde
could see the unwanted tears glistening in Ken's eyes. /Kami...
Ken is just, torn up... I feel so bad for him... seeing
him now you would never think he was Tetsu's partner in
telling hentai jokes all the time... I miss all our times
together... even if I felt like shit some days, seeing the
goofy expressions on my fellow bandmates, -- no
friends faces, always put a smile on my face, a light in
my day... like a rainbow appearing after a terrible storm.../
"I
know! You can go to the recline waiting area, ne? You and
Yukkie can in and out yourselves to see how Tetsu is doing..."
"Haido,
your brilliant," said Yukihiro, feeling new strength at
Hyde's suggestion. Ken nodded in agreement.
[•9]
"Alright then, well I guess this is oyasumi."
"Oyasumi, Haido"
"Oyasumi
Ken, Yukihiro"
The
two other men then left.
/I
vow Ogawa Tetsuya, that I will stay by your side... if you
recover -- no when you recover, I will make things
better... I will be there for you like you have always been
for me.../ Slowly,
Hyde's eyelids started to close; he was now asleep.
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/...Why
is everything black dark?.../ Tetsu tried to move. /Where
am I? What's this stuff on my body? This doesn't feel like
my bed, even though it's extremely comfortable.../ Tetsu
tried his hardest to think.
"Ugh!"
said Tetsu weakly, struggling to remember something from
the previous day (which in reality was the prev. 4 days)
and most of all, trying to open his eyes which were numb.
/Am I blind?... why am I getting a headache just for
trying to think?.../
"Help
me! Is anybody out there?" Tetsu said, his weak voice full
of desperation.
Hyde
started to stir. /Tetsu?/ He open his eyes to see
it was Tetsu who'd spoken these words. "Kamisama! You're
conscious! I have to get the doctors, the nurses, Ken and
Yukkie!"
/The
doctors, nurses, what? A-Am I in a hospital?!/ Before Tetsu
could make an attempt to ask, he heard Hyde's light body
run out. Hyde ran out of the room with hope, excitement,
and joy.
"Ken, Yukihiro! Tetsu is regaining consciousness! Yukihiro,
get the doctor!"
Ken,
Yukihiro, and Hyde flew in different directions; everything
was going so fast that they couldn't take it all in their
brains of fear of overloading it.
Hyde
ran back into the administator's office.
"Yes,
Mr. Takarai?" said the administator, who seemed to have
a very hard, disciplined, personality.
Hyde
bowed. "Yes, well I was wondering if I could ask for
your permission to use the balcony for an announcement I
would like to make."
The
administrator lightly chuckled. "Are you sure you're
a musician?; you could really be a comedian. Funny,
Mr. Takarai, you didn't seem to wonder for my permission
when you used the balcony the first time when I was out
of my office."
Hyde
didn't say anything, for he knew that was true. /Damn
the news... I bet that's where he found that out from/
The
administrator continued, "Well, Mr. Takarai, I'm granting
you permission to use it [balcony] and address those young
people about whatever you need to address to them."
He
nodded he appreciation and practically ran to the balcony,
picking up the loudspeaker that was still lying there from
the day before.
[•10]
"Sougishiki appu!" shouted Hyde to the thousands of sleeping
fans, feeling that they deserved to know Tetsu's condition
as much as anybody else.
Almost
all were awaken, and quiet, for they knew they would've
been awaken at 2:21 in the morning for no particular reason.
"Tetsu
is regaining consciousness! The new light of hope has been
lit!" At first, all remained quiet, but then, cheers and
shouting could be heard, maybe for miles.
[•11]
"Arigatou, minasan!" Hyde waved happily at them all and
returned back into the office.
"I hope they don't disturb other patients; you are aware
that there are more patients here -- not just your friend."
"Gomen."
"Quite
alright; I'm a man of patience so I'm sure they'll quiet
down shortly."
Hyde
bowed in gratitude and motioned toward the door.
"Oh,
and Mr. Takarai?"
"Yes?"
"Could
you tell Mr. Ogawa when he recovers, that I'm his biggest
middle-aged fan? I love his idea of leadership and
his captivating bass playing; I used to play it myself,
in my younger days."
Hyde
smiled and nodded.
"Thank
you, Mr. Takarai, I appreciate it. And, if you don't
mind, tell him I know this shop in Yokohama which has nothing
but platform shoes."
Hyde
giggled lightly so he wouldn't hear it. "I sure will.
Thank
you again." He then broke into a run, heading for Tetsu's
room in nonstop speed.
"Yukkie,
what are you doing out here? Where's Ken?"
Yukihiro
shook his head, "Air got into one of Tetsu's pipes which
could've paved the way for infectious bacteria to get into
his body and he started coughing uncontrollably... they
calmed it down though. He's talking to Ken right now."
Hyde
found himself once again peering through the glass; waiting
for Ken and Tetsu's discussion to be over.
"Ken,
you're my best friend, why didn't you pull the plug?...
why don't you do it now?..."
Ken
held back his tears. "Tetsu, I am your best friend,
I care about you, damnit! I love you, Tet-tet, and would
probably go to the ends of the earth for you, but there's
not a chance in hell that I'm going to do that!"
Tetsu
looked up at him pleadingly.
"No,
Tetsu, no! Stop being a coward... trying to take the easy
way out by suicide... confront Haido... tell him how you
really feel... that's why you did this to yourself in the
firstplace, isn't it?"
Silence;
the silence that always gave away the answer.
"Tetsu,
we've had so many of these talks, that I don't know what
to say to you anymore, but do what is right for you. You
don't want it bottled up inside for the rest of your life...
your damaging yourself; stop it. Just tell Haido, Tetsu...
tell him..."
Tetsu
frowned, "What about Megumi, Ken? The hell with telling
Haido when she's in the picture! From what you've been telling
me for the past fifteen minutes, this is May 4th! Haido
got married yesterday! Telling him would be all in vain..."
Ken
sighed heavily. "...Tetsu... the fans outside started
chanting things about Megumi that in other situations, Haido
wouldn't tolerate; in fact, he was commending them! Then
to find out from him and another source, that he and Megumi
broke up... and I think it was because of you that they
did. I bet more than anything Megumi showed her true
colors to him and he left her... left her because hd indeed
cares for you," Ken paused. "This is your last chance,
your last chance to tell him... don't hurt yourself no more
than you already have."
Gently,
Ken kissed his friend on the forehead.
"Ken
--"
"Don't
thank me anymore, Tetsu. We've been friends for ages,
you don't have to thank me, because that's what friends
are for." Pause. "Friends are also for getting revenge
for calling the other by Kenny," said Ken playfully, cackling
like a villain in a fairy tale.
Tetsu
giggled. /Ken, what would I do without you? Always
there to replace a rainy day with sunshine/
"I'm
going to let Haido and Yukkie in, ne? Yukihiro might get
bored and go outside and get hyper."
"Nanra?"
[•12]
"Kesshite maindo. Nagai suto-ri."
Tetsu
decided to leave it at that -- for now.
"Tetsu, how are you doing?" said Hyde softly, as he and
Yukihiro motioned toward Tetsu's bed.
"Better
than being unconscious," said Tetsu quiet, unusually dark,
tone. /Actually, being unconscious is better... you
can get away from it all -- even yourself. Get away
from those who have hurt you, not know what's going on around
you; be unconscious is actually... peaceful. Deadfully
peacful, but peaceful, nonetheless./
"Tet-tet,
I'm sorry!" said Yukihiro whiningly, tears in his eyes.
"For
what, Yukk--"
"You
know for what! If I hadn't asked Haido that question you
and he wouldn't have had --"
"Yukihiro,
believe me, it's not your fault," Tetsu glanced at Hyde.
"Don't feel a least bit guilty... I was just, looking for
an excuse to speak my mind about Megumi, that's all, and
it just so happens that was the best opportunity; I would
have said that anyway."
Yukihiro
nodded, he still felt guilty and responsible for what'd
happened.
"Tetsu..."
Hyde kneeled down to Tetsu's bed, fresh tears now streaming
down his face. Yukihiro casted his eyes to Ken who
signaled him that they should leave the two alone.
"Tetsu...
I thought I was going to loose you... you scared me... you
scared us..." Hyde's voice cracked slightly. "We love
you, I love you... you have so much to live fo--"
"How
do you know that, Hideto? You don't know how my mind works,
what I was thinking when I performed the 'dreadful' act...
you simply can't say that," Tetsu slightly snapped back;
despite his weak voice, at that moment, it felt like a strong
one with fury from hell.
/Oh
kami, I didn't mean to make it sound that way! I hope Haido
wasn't frighten.../
Hyde
was taken aback. /He never calls me by my name...
his voice, it sounded so angry, but I know, that it's just
a replacement... to cover up sadness.../
"G-gomen
Haid--"
"Don't
be; it's okay. Just promise me you won't hurt yourself
like that again."
Tetsu
shook his head. "I can't promise you or anybody else
that."
"Please don't say th--"
"Too
late, I already have. Let Ken and Yukkie in please."
"No. Not until you talk to me about what's going on
with you."
"What
are you, blind Haido? Can't you see it for yourself... the
root of the problem is right in front of your face! And
you think I'm going to talk to you, of all people? You sure
have a lot of nerve; since when did you give a damn
about me? Wait, let me guess, you feared that if I died,
your career would be over? You shouldn't have worried so
much about that, you have enough status to have continued
your dear sweet care--"
Hyde
slapped him; how amazing, the force a man Hyde's size could
put in it. "...That... is not true...and you know...it's
not..." Hyde's voice trembled in shock of what he did with
every word.
Silence.
Ken
had seen it all, and could also read lips well so knew almost
everything that had been said. As for Yukihiro, he'd
fallen asleep in a nearby waiting room chair. /I'm
not saying what Haido just did was the best thing to do,
since Tetsu is in a hospital bed at the moment, but Tet-tet
did need that... right now, Haido is confused; his
feelings for Tetsu are mixed up and he doesn't know what
to do about them. Right now, I just think he's afraid;
afraid that all this time believe it or not, he has been
in love with Tetsu... if this is part of the case, he's
probably also afraid of getting into another male relationship;
I don't think his relationship with Sakura was all huggy
and kissy as it seemed.../
Ken
yawned and looked at his watch; 2:56. /I'm overwhelmed
and everything that Tetsu has regained consciousness, but
I'm tired as well; I wasn't really getting sleep when he
was unconscious, so maybe I can catch a few winks... Haido
can take care of Tet-tet for now.../ Ken then left
the glass wall; leaving for the recline waiting area.
"Tets--"
"Enough,
Haido. Just leave me al--" Tetsu was cut of short
when Hyde placed a soft, gentle, kiss to his lips.
"Don't
do this. Aishiteru."
Tetsu
blinked in slight shock. /Haido, don't fool youself
because you're not me. You're just looking down at
me; I can see the pity in your eyes... so, I guess you've
decided to take the 'I'm your best friend; I love you so
much' persona; either that, or you're on the rebound. Kamisama,
did I just say [think] that? I really am a foolish dreamer...
to think, for almost nine years, I have strongly believed
I have had a chance... a chance of winning -- his heart.
I know now, that it'll never happen; never. Nothing
left for me to do now but try to move on and forget about
Haido in that way.../
"Fine
Haido, I won't, alright? I'm in no mood to argue with y--"
"Okay
then, Tet-chan! I don't like it either when we argue like
this... so, are we on good terms again?"
/He's
avoiding the problem, but be that as it may, I do want to
be on good terms with him.../ "Yes, of course, Haido;
sounds good to me. Now, will you get a move on so
I can get some rest?" replied Tetsu finally, trying to sound
as playful as possible.
"Alright
Tet-chan," Hyde glanced at the [glass] wall. "I'm assuming
Ken and Yukkie have gone back to sleeping somewhere, but
anyway, the three of us are here in case you need us. Oyasumi,"
said Hyde softly.
Motioning
away from Tetsu's bed, Hyde was ever so startled when Tetsu
reached his hand out to grab his. /What am I doing?.../
"Please...
stay with me..."
Hyde
nodded; not giving Tetsu's sudden change of decision
a second thought. /...Now I know what I'm doing.../
Hyde gently laid his head down on Tetsu's bed; despite the
heavy equipment bounding him down, Tetsu managed to lift
his hand enough to stroke Hyde's soft hair.
/...What
I'm doing is forgetting -- everything. I might as
well be a nepenthean; in fact, I am. For I have oblivion
forgetfulness, grief, and suffering upon... myself. I
know now, looking down at this angel, that the life I've
hoped to have with him can be nothing but an illusion, a
dream. Even though I'm literally strapped to this
bed, I wish he and I could stay like we are, like this,
forever... hn, I'm afraid if I blink, forever will be long
gone and lost. So I wait; wait to see what life, no
fate, will bring... the question simply is, am I ready?.../
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[•1]
Shit :x
[•2] Wait, what the hell is wrong with me?
[•3] Morning
[•4] Hey!
[•5] Alright, alright
[•6] God
[•7] Please calm down
[•8] Yes! For Megumi-bish is left for ass wipes!
[•9] Goodnight (correct me on this one if I'm wrong)
[•10] Wake up!
[•11] Thank you, everyone!
[•12] Never mind. Long story.
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Author's Note: Ugh, I'm such a bad writer... and
plus it is somewhat difficult to write fanfiction using
real people because you have to fit their personalities.
So far, however, I think I'm doing well with that
part since right now there're all basically in a sad state.
Unlike the first to chapters, I pulled this one out
of the air, meaning I didn't have this chapter written all
the way and then skipped over to chapster four x_x; Well,
that is all of the noting from the author and if you actually
like this story (I doubt if you do) review and stay on the
lookout for chapter four, entitled "Lastly"
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