About
2:00 a.m. I awoke feeling very strange. I couldn't see anything, but
felt an energy or electric-like current running through me. Also felt
someone close to my right shoulder. I thought this was my wife, but
soon determined the bed, with my wife, was far below me, to my left.
Wanting to find out who this was at my shoulder I tried to turn
around. A voice said: "Please go back to sleep." It was a
male voice that seemed to originate within my thoughts or mind.
I wasn't
afraid, and I still wanted to know what was happening, so, I tried to
turn again. The voice said: "Do you wish to continue here or
would you like to go on?" After considering this question only a
few seconds, I replied: "I want to continue, of course". My
reply was given as a thought.
As soon as
I had answered, the energy surrounding me began to grow in intensity.
The stronger it became the more I felt loved and supported by it. I
became aware of (or remembered) my spiritual nature, and also, my
purpose for being here. (I felt as if I had always known these things,
but had somehow forgotten them.) I further knew that all people share
this love and support. That everyone is held safe and secure and loved
unconditionally by the Creator.
The
intense energy lasted about 15 minutes (estimate). During this time, I
felt total love, support, belonging, and an expanded knowledge of many
things. I never wanted to leave this beautiful state of being; but
finally the energy subsided and the voice said: "Please go back
to sleep." In the next moment, I was back in bed, with my wife
next to me. The adventure, however, was far from over.
In the
months following, the energy remained, though not as intense. I had
many lucid/out-of-body dreams (dreams where you are aware of, and
active in, the dream state) teaching me how to overcome my limitations
and fears. My health improved, in about 18 months I was released from
all medical care. In another 18 months, my business was sold and I
found employment. Life was looking good again.
Currently,
the story continues. I can still feel the energy. I am still learning
about, and improving myself daily. I can't remember every detail the
intense energy allowed me to understand, but I know the most important
thing is to teach, practice and live in Love.
The above
story is my experience, told as I remember. It was like an earthquake
to my beliefs; shaking, crumbling them to dust. I would never be the
same again, the experience changed my perception of life forever. On
the following pages, I have written about two of my experiences after
the NDE. In most cases these "aftershocks" are more
interesting to readers than my original experience.
Having a
NDE doesn't make one more knowledgeable, powerful, or saintly than
anyone else. Nor does it automatically change the person. The
personality change a Near Death Experiencer goes through, comes from a
deep desire to improve, due to what was learned. The improvement is
done by practicing living in Love as felt in the experience. It is not
any easier for an experiencer than for anyone else. The Affirmations
and Hands pages along with others pages in this site are the methods I
am using to help me live in Love. They are included here only as
information for the reader.
Name:
Leroy Kattein
E-Mail Address: lekatt@ionet.net
Location: Tulsa, OK, USA
http://ndeweb.com/Ndee.html
