Longing
how I wish I could be
Holding
in my hand I am holding
Walking Away
they said run dont walk
Silent Thoughts
he stands before me
The Perfect Dream
falling into the darkness
On The Other Side
I look into the mirror
Tender Kisses
the softest touch
Turn Around
taking your heart in my hand
Between Us
what lies between us
Shadow Dancers
as the flames of passion flicker in my heart
Playing in The Light
I am but a player
Catching Rainbows
he told me to chase my dreams
Picture Perfect
she looks into the mirror
Forver
if they gave us a choice
Love of One
he felt so lonely in his world
Ghosts
in the darkend night
Place in This World
do I know where I belong
Warning Labels
labels of the heart
Secret Ambition
she hid her dreams
The Key
he handed her
Fading Out
how do you know
Move Me
finding myself standing on the edge
Wondering
so many thoughts dance
Counting Tears
have I passed the point
A Gift
you gave a gift to me
Passing Memories
I let my mind wander
Tempation
when she looked in the mirror
Left Behind
she left her dreams
who you thought I was
I wish I could be
the pure one again
I have a longing in my heart
to be free of pain
but each day passes
and I still remain
I wish I could be forever yours
seeking nothing more
than the mere bliss of your spared time
I wish and long
for the day when
my longing will end
what remains
In my heart I am holding
the thing that never will change
I am holding the soul
of who I used to be
I am clinging tight
to the person I have yet to be
I am holding my future
I am holding my past
I am trying to save
my sanity
by barely holding on
to me
pretty girl
they said he's no good
he'll break your heart
but she thougth she'd love him
till her last breath was done
she believed in her soul
that this was the one
this was meant for forever
so she gave it all
she surrended her heart
it didnt prepare her for the fall
she lost her faith
on that cold night
when he turned away
and walked out of sight
she her soul fought its hurt
as she fell to the ground
her tear drops melted into the dirt
she watched him walking
leave no trace behind
but her broken heart
she fought her way back up
she rose like a pheonix
to kiss the moon lite night
her soul reached the heavens
as he walked out of sight
offering me everything he can
he gives me comfort
when no one else can
he leads me from my darkness
into a shining light
he gives me hope
and a peace
letting me know
it's alright to be
just who I am
with him
he says this all
without one word
just a soft placed kiss
and silent thoughts
sent over miles
to my heart
seeking in this space
the memory
of the perfect dream
I am sure I had it
once a long time ago
I seem to have lost my way
back into this dream like haze
I seem to have lost the brightness
of this perfect dream
for now my nights are filled
with horror and tears
seeking yet again to free myself
from the chains of these pains
into my perfect dream
I see the love lost
in my eyes
I look into the mirror
I see the pain
in my beautiful smile
I look into this wonderous place
a looking glass
and I see the reflection
of what truly is me
for otehrs see the joy
the pure happiness
for only I know the darkness
and that which rages inside
so when I look in the mirror
I wish I could see
what others see
on the other side
can break the heart
the sweetest words
can wound the soul
the most tender kisses
can bruise the lips
when given without love
without love it is but nothing
lies of the soul
burning inot the deepest part
with tender kisses
holding it close to mine
letting them blend
as one
till the end of time
letting my soul be raised
to new heights in the
letting my hopes become
those of eternity
letting my faith be placed
at your feet so lovingly
letting this all become
exactly what it was meant to be
but turning around to find
our hearts no longer
beat as one
feeling my hopes being dashed
against the cold hard reality
the faith I placed so careful
crushed beneath your sole
my heart my body
my faith my hope
all lost in the
is something so hard to forget
there are times
so few and dangerous
when letting go would seem so easy
yet there are times between us
more often that most
where my heart could sing
over come with the love
that grows between us
across the wall of my deepest soul
can be seen two shadows
they dance in perfect time
moving in the rythm of love
melting into one another
almost becoming one
these shadow dancers know no end
for they are your heart and mine
one lost in this charade
I am but a soul
torn til my beauty fades away
if I step out in to the light
will I regain my heart
if you know me for who I am
would things change so much
so I hide in the shadows
and play a small role
in this play of life
waiting for my turn
>To step out into the light
he said they wopuld lead me to heaven
on angels wings I would fly
soring above the clouds
I would dance among the sun beams
so I chase those dreams
like one who rushes to find
the rainbows end
I know one day I will find
that pot of gold
in my lover's arms
seeing everything but the truth
she desires to be more
or in some ways to be less
she desires to be picture perfect
like those who walk the catwalk
or grace the cover of magazines
her lover admires her across the room
he frames her with his heart
to him her beauty is but radiant
shining through the rest
in his eyes she is picture perfect above the rest
would you take forever
would you live for an eternity
in blissful peace
if the price for this freedom was your heart
the one you gave to me
I would rather lay down and die
than lose your love
for in that love I shall live
forever
he felt he was but one
he felt his heart breaking
shattering with tears of pain
but one entered his life
a love of one changed it all
a child so wonderous and giving
that he made the man whole
for he would do anything
for the love of one
of one child
are we haunted by the ghosts
of loves and lives gone past
do we give into the pain
and let it rule our world
or shall we set it free
releasing it from its bond
letting ourselves remain whole
wishing to find the way
I let the pain slip by
reaching to find the light
in the bleakness of this night
should I feel welcome amongst the many
should I search this world
for my place within it
I look for the answers not ouside my soul
I look deep within knowing they are there
I seek out my place in this world
with my heart open to chance
growing in the love given
and all that has given me a place in this world
warnings we can't read
they tell us time and time again
what will make us bleed
but we jump in without thinking
hoping this time will be different from the last
tis nothing more than that
a leap of faith into the deep
if we pay no attention
to the warning labels of the heart
deep within her soul
she never voiced
her deepest wants
she kept her goals
under lock and key
keeping everything covered
believing that is how it should be
she had a secret ambition
to one day shine
like diamonds in his eyes
she longed to be
more than just a friend
but she kept this secret to herself
to her dying day
always regreting
letting it slip away
if she had spoken
those simple three words
althought she never knew it
this is what she would have heard
those three words repeated
as if reflected in a mirror
for this was his secret ambition
just to be near her
so they lived their lives
forever together but apart
for their hearts would not allow
the secret ambition to depart
a shinning gold key
sat blazing in her hand
she knew not what it would open
or what she was to understand
so there it sat firey
upon her bare palms
burning with desires
of the unknown
on the key was written
this simple verse
the bearer of this key
shall find what they need
when the time is right
so she held this key to her heart
and it blazed her soul
with words of love
for he had given her the key
to his heart
that which would unlock his soul
she used it that day
and the heavens blessed it so
when love is enough
how can you tell
when there is no faith
do you search
deep into your soul
is that where the answers lie
how can you tell
when time is too much
if you wait forever
does your heart slowly
fade out
looking over into the deep
thinking what would it take
to move me
reaching foward with one hand
forever graping back with the other
holding my place
what would it take
to move me
is it time to make a choice
is it now or never
am I ready
to move me
through this mind of mine
so many feelings play
on my heart strings
where are the answers
to these thoughts
my head can not match
what lies inside my heart
who am I to know
where to begin to start
I am lost and left
always wondering
wondering who I am
and who I shall be
of living beyond no return
should I not by now
known what I need to learn
why is it I spend my days
dancing in the flames
and dwell away my lonely nights
counting tear drops in the snow
watching them melt away
the coldness
pierce it with warmth
wishing it could find
some warmth within my soul
the day you said
you loved me
you gave me a new hold
away to believe
in this world so cold
you gave me a gift
your heart in my hand
a chance to know truth
and to understand
the unselfishness of loving
the giving a true gift
I thank the heavens
they sent you
upon this day
to be with this lost
and lonely soul
I let my soul drift
I let my heart go
Into the darkness
Of those passing memories
of days of love
of weeks of joy
of months of bliss
but for now
they are nothing
more than passing memories
of the way things used to be
when you were mine
for eternity
she saw nothing in her eyes
that would lead a man astray
but yet she looked deeper
and peered into her soul
temptation lied deep within
her heart tinted with the darkness
the warmness of her being
the kindness in her words
offered him what he longed for
a temptation of the soul
for he could touch her not
she was only a fantasy
yet there she still remained
a temptation of the heart
on his doorstep
to his hollow heart
these dreams
she left behind
were ones that wont come true
they were the fantasies
of a a life so wonderous
one of hope and happiness
but she left these behind
on the cold door step
for they were no longer hers
to dream so deep
he loved another so
so she shed her dreams
and walked away
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