Extremes

I close my eyes
and put my head down
I sit and rest
hearing nothing.
Laying here refreshes
but means nothing.
I drift off to sleep
learning nothing.
I ignore my body's needs
damaging everything.
My breathing slows
so does the noise
and my needs and requests.
One deep sigh
a final breath.

I try to open my eyes
but I can't.

I can still see though
something bright
something bold
something I do not know.
Someone shakes me
but I don't move.
I never will again.

I've run away
too many times
from life
from others
from myself.
There is no more running
it's ended for now
perhaps forever.
There's nothing I can do
there's nothing I will do
even if I want to.
I have no choice.
The decision was made for me.

Again.

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