I am sitting alone
here in the dark
and it is silent.
no light may enter
no air may leave
I wouldn't want it.
why do I live
to be in pain
a noise becomes apparent.
the light floods in
the air flows out
alone, I am, no more.
I feel a rush
it goes by slow
then it goes away.
I say "mom
why is it so
that when I asked for love
that she said no?"

was it too much?
was it to little?
my life, it became
oh so brittle.
without her love
I fade away
never to live...
...another day.

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