Have a yellow candle ready. This is a two-part spell, the first half to be done at waning, second at waxing, both preferably on (consecutive) Wednesdays. For me at least I felt that it was a kind of mental hang-up/problem/whatever, so it was yellow for air/mind, Wednesday having those properties w/ Mercury (but you can do it when ever you deem best). Have a few appropriate oils ready(I just used what was available) something and peppermint(I think) for top, jasmine and rose for bottom. You will inscribe the top half of the candle with symbols that represent your problem to you (see Ann Moura's _Green Witchcraft_ for ideas), the middle with rebirth symbols (i used flames, as it's a rebirth thru the candle), the bottom with confidence, strength, guidance, and love symbols (what ever feels right to you). The top half will be burnt at waning, lower at waxing. You can inscribe it before hand or inside the circle. I used a starlight quartz crystal that is very special to me to inscribe; again, whatever is there and feels right.
Waning ritual: (I will write my words down but you can alter them to fit your needs) cast circle. call elemnts. invoke Mercury (of the mind) and Bright Isis (of healing and mercy). consecrate candle in Their names and by the elements, carve symbols, anoint, charge if desired. Visualize problem that you wish to be free of clearly for a few minutes. if you can, relive some of the pain in the knowlegde that you have the power to be free of it. write/describe problem clearly on paper. (for me it was that i always felt really uncomfortable around older men--it was my father--and i was sick of it. i wanted my freedom and be able to feel sexy and a woman, not a child, in whatever clothes-tight or otherwise that i wanted)wirte it in the present tense. light candle. get a few drops own blood (or saliva, if you're not that brave-i suggest blood for greater potency however-i used menstrual blood, it seemed fitting-actually i used some of that blood to anoint the top of the candle with- it was peppermint oil and menstrual blood as I remember) and pieces of hair on paper and say commandingly and with all your will: "This which once was a part of me is no more. No more is this blood mine, no more is this hair mine, no more are these thoughts, feelings, and hang-ups mine. SO MOTE IT BE!!!" Burn paper in candle flame (make sure to have a dich or fire-proof vessel for this!). Reflect on the banishing properties of the waning moon and the great desire for change. After paper is burned set aside to be thrown away afterwards, and say, "On this Woden's day, with Mercury god of the mind and intellect, and Isis goddess of children, healing, and mercy as my witnesses, I celebrate the death of this negative part of myself, leaving a space to be filled with positive feeling of confidence, self-worth, and self-love. With Thy blessing, Isis and Mercury, SO MOTE IT BE" Meditate on the candle flame and the fact that a part of you is dying. Rejoice that you may now go on with your life happier and more confident. Imagine yourself going through your days like this, in any situation. Thank the Deities and the Elements for their attendance. Let candle burn COMPLETELY HALF-WAY DOWN and snuff flame. Throw away the ashes. If desired (this gives a certain ceremony), say 9 times w/ increasing intensity, "Begone from me, you are no more!" and scream or kick or somehow release energy on last one.
Waxing: Cast circle, call elements, invoke Mercury and Bright Isis. Light candle and say: "As I light this candle, I recognise and celebrate that a negative part of me has died, and by this flame and my own will I am purified, cleansed, and will be reborn. [strongly!-->]No more is that which I carried with me for so long! In its stead is a newborn confidence and self-love that CANNOT be usurped by ANYONE or ANYTHING! SO MOTE IT BE!" Visualize yourself strong and confident, able to handle all situations a nd people that previously made you feel uncomfortable and embarrased. Reflect on the healing and strengthening properties of the waxing moon. Know that you are healed and purified and have now the ability that you only wished for before; indeed, you realize that it was there all along, but had not the faith with which to grow upon. You have come out of a tragedy that you had NO CONTROL OVER, and although you may remember it, you are stronger now by the force of Deity and your own will (after all, you're still alive to read this- what ever doesn't kill you...) Gaze at the candle flame and say: "By my force of will I have conquered my fears [etc.]. Now, each time that I am in a situation which previously would have made me uncomfortable, it gets easier and easier for me. In less than this one moon's full span, I will be well on the way to recovery and wholeness. With the aid of Mercury of the mind and Isis of healing, SO MOTE IT BE!" Know your words are true. Know that it will be exactly as you have stated. Watch the candle for awhile as it burns down and know that your soul is fully healed and pure, and you can get on with your life (although you must still face and work over your problems- it just won't be as hard and you'll find you have confidence and strength as you didn't have before) Let the candle burn itself out, then throw it away (I didn't use cermony for this part). It is done.
Blessed Be, my Sisters and Brothers. Lady Sanguine
