Alright, here it is. I know you've all been DYING to see some of my work. So....I'm gonna post a bit. Haven't written much lately, but here's a bit I've written in the past. I call this one, "BUGS!" for no particular reason
I see a big bug. SQUASH! Juice squirts all over my broad hands. The juice is brown. It smells of gasoline. Oh! A firefly!!
Okay, I know that was bad. *L* But here's a serious one. I wrote this......around February of 1997, I think. My mom's alcoholic boyfriend lived with us and I wrote half of this poem, and then went into the kitchen and was holding a knife to my wrist, debating suicide. At that instant, my best friend from church called me. (love ya, Jess!!) Then my pastor called, we prayed, I finished the poem. So here it is.
God's Faith
The demons have been released They have been released and sent to me They cause me to think thoughts of suicide And yelling, cursing, harmful thoughts
I try to fight their spinning vortex The tears spill from my eyes I cry, and continue to think of suicide
I went into the kitchen and held the knife to my wrist I ran my fingers over the blade Down one side and up the other
I am alone. I have been alone. The blade was not sharp enough I am not yet ready for the pain
I continue to comtemplate the blade I am not yet ready for the pain I was not ready for the pain That plagues my inner body
The demons have been released They have attempted to overtake my body God has been here for me Once again they have failed
God has shown His faith He has cast his light on me God made me strong The demons have gone weak
He has given me strength He gave me a better solution The solution of Him
The demons took me over, I felt lonely Now I remember, I am never alone God is always there for us
My tears have evaporated When I felt so empty God filled my soul
I allowed myself to recede Recede to my lowest point But God lifted me up
The demons had been released But God's love saved me No matter how unfaithful, how weak I become God still loves me God shows me his faith Back home