Tell The World

I believe we all have something to say...a story to tell...a testimony. And I believe that each person's testimony can help someone else in some way. It's a witness to the world to know that we are human and go through things just like them but that we have a source of strength, of comfort, of hope, of peace...Christ Jesus. And they can have that too if they will only believe. It's a testimony to fellow believers that God is working in your life like He is in their lives. It's an encouragement, a support, to all who hear your testimony...and most importantly, it brings glory to God.



A CHILD OF THE KING

I thought I'd start out with my own testimony for this first issue, and hopefully some of you will decide after reading this to share some of your testimonies. :)

I believe we all have our own personal struggles and difficulties, whatever they may be. I also believe that satan knows what those struggles are, and he knows exactly how to get you down and draw you away from Christ's plans for you and your life. And only God can help you overcome your struggles...they may still be there, but you will have God to help you deal with them.

My struggle is with self-confidence...self-worth...self-importance. This may not sound like something big to some of you if you've never felt the constant nagging voice inside of you saying, "you aren't good enough; you can't do it; you have no worth; your opinions don't matter..." It wasn't that my family and friends weren't supportive or encouraging, because they were and still are. But for some reason I just felt like I wasn't good at anything...like I didn't measure up...like I was so worthless. It's important that I point out somewhere in this testimony that this was not the way I ALWAYS felt, just sometimes. For the most part, I was content and happy...and I did have a great relationship with the Lord. But sometimes I allowed myself to believe those claims that seeked to destroy my foundation... I based my thoughts on the way I felt. Yes, I read my Bible every day; I knew what the scriptures said. I knew God loved me and I did believe it. But I just wasn't ready to fully give Him this part of my life, this struggle. I guess I felt like it was something I had to deal with on my own.

If you are struggling with feelings of unconfidence or unimportance, please don't make that same mistake. Don't tell yourself that God can't help you, or that He is too busy or too important to care. It's a lie...the devil would love to have you believe that. But God cares so much about you, I know he does! And He loves you (and me), enough to die a horrible death to save us from our sins and give us eternal life in Heaven someday. I'd heard this all my life and yet the words didn't really hit me until I allowed God to open my eyes.

I'm not worthless; I'm a child of the King. No, not an earthly king, but the King of Kings! I'm His creation, and He knew me before I was born. He knew what I'd look like, what I'd be like, what I'd be good at, and what I'd do for His Kingdom.

By feeling like I was a failure, I was writing off all of God's work on me as a failure as well. He made me exactly how I am, and that's exactly how He wanted me to be. But I can't do His perfect will for my life if I am too busy feeling unworthy. I've missed my share of great opportunities, as well as some great ministerial opportunities, because I didn't give ALL to God and trust Him to be my strength.

I'm learning now to trust God fully and give Him my struggles and difficulties. I'm learning to try new things instead of just deciding that I can't do them before even trying. I'm learning to appreciate that God made me how I am for a reason. I'm not there yet, I still have some moments where I feel completely unconfident. But I'm learning to believe that God has me in His hands, just like the sparrow. And I'm finding that my own attitude can determine alot of how I feel and what I do. But mostly I am learning to go by what I know and not by what I feel...and one thing I KNOW is that I am a child of the King. :)
~HK

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