DONA-TELL-U'S WORLD OF TEMPTATIONS

JEWELRY..jewelry..and more jewelry! MEN... Believe me when I tell you "A DIAMOND IS A GIRL'S BEST FRIEND" and "PEARLS ARE A WOMANS!"

But why seperate, especially when there is a bit of "girl" in all women and a "woman" in every girl. Any woman who says she doesn't like jewels, has never had a man who lavished them upon her. I was enlightened by my ex, who decided I was his "Hungarian gypsy queen," and made it his quest to adorn me with a VERY NICE new peice every year or so. I am trying hard to realize that now-a-days..(men in my family exempt) few men are that giving or appreciative of the woman in their lives. But in defense of men...(women in my family exempt) maybe there aren't that many deserving women now-a-days!

MEN..Damn I love men. I love a man to look like a "man." I love to see men in flannel and jeans, or in a uniform. I love watching men doing the things men like to do.

Unlike men's expectations of how woman should physically look.. (and each man has a desired concept of what "their" woman will look like)... I don't much care about the physical make-up of a man. I would be remiss if I didn't admit that a shorter man will catch my eye quicker than a taller one..however, it wouldn't be a relationship factor anymore than body shape, or hair-eye color.

What trips my trigger is if he smiles genuinely, and actually "listens" and "remembers" what is important to me. My likes, dislikes, aspirations...OR does some unexpected kind act to ease or enlighten my day. OR makes me laugh and smile.

Although emotionally, most men are big bundles of insecurity with the frailist of egos, hiding themselves behind masks of machismo, I still find myself fascinated by them. I also tend to get along better with men than woman. Maybe because I have two brothers and no sisters. Or maybe because where ever we lived there were more boys and they did fun and exciting things. Like baseball and football, ice fishing, hockey, making forts, collecting bugs, making model rockets and shooting them off. Don't get me wrong..I loved my Barbies..but there were only so many scenarios to play out. Even adding G.I. Joe to the picture got boring after awhile.

My pure Irish Grandma told me "you don't need a man..you'll go further without one," and she had a point. A man can really screw up a woman's life if she's with the wrong one (works both ways of course). I am stretched to the hilt tending to my daughter's emotional, mental, and physical needs, dealing with her school issues as well as mine, daily household responsibilities, and finding time to tend to a few of my own personal needs. Also, a lot of men have no reservations of a woman giving up her dreams to fit their dreams or needs. But I have stumbled upon men that encourage woman to follow their dreams (such are my brothers), and are more nurturing than some of my women friends. And it is because of those WONDERFUL MEN, that I keep my faith in men burning. I know that once I am right with "ME" and on the right path of my journey, my male 1/2 will not only come into my life..but fit into it like a glove...and I truly look forward to that day...we both will have earned it.

CRUCIFYING MY DREAMS...How tempting it is to sacrifice my dreams, especially when the spector of loneliness creeps into my waterbed and nestles in beside me at night.

Unfortunately, I cannot juggle a live-in relationship right now and follow my dream of teaching art. I can't handle one more demand placed upon me. No matter how lonely I get at times, I try to concentrate on my dream. Yes, I think about having just a companion in my life until I CAN settle down..but they also need to fit my odd lifestyle (as I need to fit theirs)..and that isn't such an easy thing to find. Especially if your life revolves around parenting and school.

I often wonder "What the Hell am I doing?" and the answer comes clearly back "Exactly what you NEED to do if you want to be happy." Sometimes I find myself worrying about things that can't be any other way. I am doing exactly what my instincts know I need to do to have a future I will be happy with. It can't be any other way right now. If I were to give up my dreams right now for a relationship, I would make a mess of it, becoming resentful for giving up, and taking it out on the fellow in my life. GENTLEMAN LISTEN UP! Let me give you some smart advice. All the natural disasters in the world cannot deliver the amount of destruction and misery unto your life as ONE UNHAPPY WOMAN!So if you are in love with a woman who has a "dream" she'd like to try and follow..encourage her all you can.It will pay off in the long run!