12/15/99 A rare opportunity

Monica is still sick. She had an appointment to see her doctor, but she cancelled it, saying she doesn't have time to go to the doctor.

Maybe tommorrow will be my opportunity to get somewhat caught up on this the most comercial of holidays. I have an appointment with some guy with the state of Washington, where I basically have to go in and swear on a stack of bibles that Holly abandoned her kids, and shouldn't be recieving monitary aid from the government. The upswing of the situation is, I may get money and other benefits for stepping in and caring for my niece. I would rather be getting the Money from Holly.... or David; Shelby's parents If for no other reason than to make them somehow culpable for the mess they have made. But as it stands they seem to have walked away with a clear conscience, and the extra spending money. Holly has been gone since before Halloween this time, and I saw David a couple of days ago with his new boyfriend....ignoring his kids.

I'm gonna try and squeeze an entire day off from this appointment, and if I'm good and lucky, and I work my ass off, maybe things will begin to look a little brighter.

I called my Dad last night and made it pretty clear that coming to visit us this weekend wouldn't be a good idea. It kinda broke my heart. I haven't seen them for a while, but Monica's illness makes a get-to-gether pretty much out of the question. and frankly, nobody would have fun. My tommorrow begins today, so I better go home and see what I might get done.

ten days and counting