7/8/99 overcoming inertia.

Things are going to get better-
A number of things lead me to believe that things are on the upswing. The breakthrough isn't in any of these events, but ratherjust the fact that I'm allowing myself to be optimistic. Pessimism is like inertia; tough to overcome.

Monica has suggested that she return to work...wow! I take for granted the care and attention my kids get by having their mother care for them in the home. That, and the perception that Monica didn't want to work, has kept us financially on the edge for years. The beauty of this job is it would start when I get home from work, and she would be home by midnight.... sounds difficult, but Monica is never asleep before 1:00am anyway.

I also found out that I am likely to get a bonus this year! (thank you to all of you who wear Nikes!) My bonus could be as much as $1200. For me, that is a life saving amount.

Work has been ultra-busy, the jobs are stacking up, deadlines are approaching, but I am calm and productive, and designing like a mad-man. I think I owe my change of inertia to a wake-up call I got at work... I feel the new momentum creeping into the other aspects of my life.

Finally, my 14 year-old neice. Tiffany is visiting for a week. I think having the company over will help Monica loosen the death-grip inertia has on her. With shared momentum we could be very productive.

Momentum is just as difficult to stop as inertia is to overcome, I know it's gonna take work to keep it going.

Hey, at least I'm rolling.