062301
3:53 PM
I have a headache. I’m sitting in my hot house, and wishing time would hurry up. It doesn’t get dark till almost 10:00 now, and it won’t take me 6 hours to walk down the mountain and back... I wanted to walk down to the father-south trail (which actually has a name that I don’t remember) and see where it leads, but right now it’s too hot outside, and I feel light-headed just sitting here. Sometimes the sun doesn’t agree with me. Leos are supposed to love sun. *hehe* I wonder who thought that up. I don’t mind the sun, I guess, I just hate being hot and sweaty. So in the meantime, I’m sitting here doing nothing. I’m tired and keep watching storm clouds roll over and then run away.
I’m thinking about the Ani concert. I wonder if I should still insist on going. Jay has been in Florida for almost 2 weeks, and I got a postcard from him yesterday. He was going to go buy me a ticket the day he got back, but I’m concerned about how much money he has. I know he probably wasted a shitload of money in Florida, and he still has to buy two tickets for Everclear. Rie also cannot go to the Ani concert now, so I would be going alone. I don’t mind going alone, but I don’t want to waste Jay’s money. He is going to end up going home early if he doesn’t have the money to stay here...
On another note, Jen is talking about leaving this house before Amber starts school. She says she doesn’t want her to switch schools in the middle of the school year, but she’s only going to be in kindergarten. It’s not like she’s leaving all of her teenage friends. Anyway, Amber starts school in August or September, and I seriously doubt that Jen is going to have the money to move by then. We don’t even know where next month’s rent is coming from at this point. Jen borrowed all the money for this month’s rent from her grandma. I had the money to pay for my part, but couldn’t find a job for this week, and had to spend some of it, so I’m like 50 bucks short. I just really need to find a job, and this is getting really old really fast never having any money. I need money for all kinds of shit. It just seems like things have to get really low before they start looking up again. At least that’s how it usually works with me. As soon as I don’t know what the fuck I’m going to do, something turns up... Like this Jef thing possibly?
My sister is supposed to be coming out to SLC soon, and we are going to go get her a tank for her stupid cichlids so I can have my tank back. Hopefully she will buy some of my guppies from me while she is out here. They won’t be old enough (pretty enough) to sell to the stores for about another 2 months, but Kristy wants some of them, and called asking me about them last week. I told her I would sell them to her for a buck each and she acted like that was going to break her. They will cost her 3-5 bucks apiece at the pet store, so I don’t know what she was flipping out about. She said she thought they were like 10 cents. I don’t know what kind of crack she’s smoking...
My mom wants to come get me for the family reunion in 2 weeks. She wanted my uncle to pick me up on the way, because he’s coming in from Cali with his two sons, but there’s no way in hell. I’m surprised he’s still alive with how fucking reckless he is. I wonder how the reunion will be this year. It’s always full of hundreds of people that nobody knows who they are. I don’t know what the point of a reunion is. We see each other, say hi, and that’s it. Nobody ever keeps contact with the people they meet. It’s not like we get new, cool friends at them or anything (but hey, it’s Utah, I guess you can get a new spouse *lol*). I don’t know what’s going on for the 4th of July. I think my mom may have mentioned something about it... Maybe I can con Jay into walking downtown with me and we can sit on the mountain and watch the fireworks or something. My dog loves fireworks.
So the sisters just showed up, and have left (they come by just to bullshit with us) and now there is a storm cloud coming over. I just can’t win! :) Hopefully it doesn’t last long, because as much as I love the rain, I don’t want to get caught in a lightning storm on the mountain... I think I’m going to do some homework while I wait to see what happens. :)
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