K'cire: "Conversation" continues

***** reposting of scrolled post *****

From: (Kcire)
Date: 30 Apr 1998 11:10:27

(Ciekan) writes:
> (Kcire) writes:
> >
> > Relax Ciekan! If this is the not what is going on, nothing bad will
> > happen due to the training. The only thing that will happen is that your
> > mind will be more focussed, and you should have an easier time concentrating.
> >
> ##### Okay, let's try it. When do we start? #####
>
> We can begin right now. The first step is to try to reach a meditative
> > state. Try to raise yourself onto a higher plane of consciousness. Let
> > the rest of the world slip away.
>
> ##### [BFC Ciekan closes her eyes and tries to relax.]#####
>
> You should see a white light. Focus
> > all of your attention on that light. Try to control it. Make it turn
> > from white to red to blue and back again. Now change it into a rainbow
> > of color. Follow the rainbow. It will lead you to some destination.
> > Somewhere beautiful that you have been before, and have fond memories of.
> > Don't describe it to me, just soak it all in.
>
> ##### [As K'cire speaks, BFC Ciekan visibly begins to relax. Her
> breathing slows. The lines of tension in her face begin to fade.
> Her body, rigid with stress, now eases. She sees the light, the
> rainbow and follows it to...to... It's the crowsnest on The Krovye,
> the Russian trawler she served on before coming to the B O'B. It's
> a beautiful day. Just a smattering of clouds beginning to form on
> the horizon, a storm is approaching. The wind is blowing in her
> face. It's her favourite place--the peace, the solitude, the oneness
> with the wind and sea. But wait...there's something else....NO!!!!
>
> Now you must leave. Go
> > back up the rainbow, through the white light, and awaken.
> >
> > So how was the trip? Did you succeed in everything. This is your first
> > lesson. Rest now. Next we will try something even more challenging.
> >
> > K'cire
> >
>
> ##### [Ciekan comes back with a start, a look of fear in her eyes.]
> K'cire....I...it worked...but...THERE WAS A FACE, K'cire. A face
> staring at me. Trying to talk to me...What was it?
>
> BFC Ciekan, CO

Calm down Ciekan. Ciekan, calm down! Now, describe this face to me.
Was it someone you know or knew?

#### Yes...No...I..don't know. I think I was *supposed* to know who
or what it was. [Ciekan closes her eyes trying to recapture the
image in her mind. ] #####

Did you understand what it was trying
to say to you?

##### I could see the lips moving...and I knew it was trying to tell
me something, something important. But I couldn't hear it. I think
maybe if I'd stayed under for little longer the voice would have
become audible. #####

I didn't have the vision, so you are going to have to
tell me what you saw that was so frightening.

K'cire

##### I can't explain this. The face itself wasn't frightening.
I know this sounds strange...There was a feeling of panic and fear
all around me, but *it* was ...reassuring, comforting, in a way.

Is this supposed to happen, K'cire?

BFC Ciekan, CO