20.June.2001

Warm days at last have come in Moscow.

Today I saw one couple kissing in Subway.

It’s absolutely usual picture seriously moved, (so I even decided to write about it).

It was as usual. Boy and girl who was lower than he about for a head. She was hugging him – really hang on his neck, and he languidly kissed her in lips.

She was young. I could see it from her back. (I didn’t see her face at first).

Every time when I see such scenes I talk to myself: “She is probably isn’t beatiful”, and it helps me to keep my mental balance.

And usually when I have a glimpse of her face it happens to be true – I am lucky to find some flaw, so she leaves me cold.

But this time –

At first I noted – she has not bad figure. I can’t say she had figure which existed me at once. Her figure just hadn’t visible faults.

And when I glanced in her face – it was perfect!!!!!!!

She had a beautiful face – absolutely. And she was happy and shined with happiness!

She was dressed in half-transparent chemise. She was 18 surely but she had good quaint breast!

Also she wore extremely short skirt with deep deep slts.

When I saw her first time – I saw typically young girl who typically hang on boy’s neck and typically kissed him. Also she wore typical skirt for such hanging-on-the-neck-and-kissing-in-Subway girls.

But such typical girl usually not even really pretty.

And she was … I tell you she had absolutely right features and all her poise and figure ….

Of course the fellow was dark haired.

Why I don’t like very beautiful girls?

- Because even after simple glance on them I am unable to look at other decent in many ways and even pretty girls.

I hate my craving for the best girl, and especially when I see that there are such girls and especially when I see them hugging and actively kissing other fellows.