Traitor
What made you strike me
When I said I loved you?
I wanted to cry, but I couldn't.
I knew that would only lead to more pain.
A pain only you could inflict.
As you throw me down on the bed,
You wrap your cold hands around my neck.
Gasping for air, clutching your arms,
I try to slither out of your grasp.
Your lips were saying you loved me.
But as I look into your eyes,
I see nothing but pure hatred.
How could you lie to me like that?
I only wanted to love you.
I lay there, gasping for air,
Not knowing if it would be my last.
You squeeze my neck tighter
And spit it in my bruised face.
You laugh and tell me
That I'm stupid and weak.
You pull me towards you,
Lifting me by my neck
Hurling me to the floor.
I feel a burning sensation,
As if something had pierced my leg.
I look downward as you attack me
Only to see the glass from your beer bottle
Protruding through my skin.
I can't show my true pain
You'll only make it worse.
I scream for you to stop.
What have I done so bad?
You loosen your grip,
And begin to cry....
You say you are sorry.
You said that before.
I lay there, speechless...
Still looking for the right words.
I blame you for my pain
Still I have to suffer alone...
I can't trust anymore..
You took it all away from me.
.
But I am worth much more
I can be strong without you,
Stronger then you will ever be!!
.
No need for apologies, really.
I'm just fine now.
The nightmares are fading.
So are your drunken eyes...
I have the scars to remind me,
That you are evil in the truest form.
And now, I am the one laughing,
I have prevailed.
You have only sunk further,
Deeper into your own hell.
There, you will burn..
Then you will learn.
I know this is
a bit differen't than how I usually write. But, I felt like expressing
a different part of me. One, not too many people know about.
Copyright.1997
