The Pain Within
Forever
is the touch of time
I'm
clinging to the state of mind
And
when the night falls under the skin
The
softness of the pain within
Diving
into the thoughts forgotten
I
feel the rain as the air smells rotten
The
breath I take, the clothes I wear
My
heart's so hard, it's hard to tear
I've
fallen once, I'll fall again
The
softness of the pain within
I
speak the words that have no end
And
the faith of forgotten souls will blend
All
I need is to be touched
By
the deepest red of love that's such
To
sting the insides full of sin
The
softness of the pain within
Finding
a shoulder, a shoulder to cry on
My
tears of virtue, the virtue I lye on
I
can't be happy, I just can't think
My
fingers won't bend and my eyes won't blink
I
turn to drugs and I turn to hate
I've
met death before at hell's gate
I'll
play a game with you and win
The
softness of the pain within
I've
told you once and I'll tell you again
The
softness of the pain is dead
- Jessica Erps
Torn Inside
Destruction of the mind slowly seeps
into my viens
Disinigrating faith on the virtue
side of pain
I'm torn! I'm torn away from
all the evil in this fucking place
I'm broken until my soul bleeds
on forever without a trace
Creation of the dead and dying move
to save this world
And in the eyes of sin, the undoubtful
truth is hurled
I'm torn! I'm torn away from
all the evil in this fucking place
I'm broken up inside without a
fucking trace
I'm torn! I'm torn!
I'm hateful, I'm deceiving, I'm lying, I'm stealing
Fuck you all, I hate you!
- Jessica Erps
I
am the stinging hand of fate
I
will make you bleed until there's no hate
I
will wrap you up and tie you down
Until
I feel the pain around
I'm
creating my image and lying to God's face
I'll
suffer forever while I kick at this fucking place
I'm
selling my soul to the world I betray
I'm
coming through the unbroken skin some way
Death
will warm over the scabs of broken wings
And
puppets will move without using strings
Don't
be afraid, to drench the sweat from your blood shot eyes
Heaven's
just a step away, but it will take a while for us to justify
The
lips that sting the broken glass, and make the thunders start to die
These
sores are mending this torn up heart, and it's hard for us to realize
-Jessica Erps
Creature
The evil inside is so far behind
It creeps and embeds far in the
mind
It's color is green and clover
shaped
Look all around, it loves to rape
It has no arms and has no legs
He'll be in the woods with millions
of kegs
He loves to get drunk and loves
to get high
He's under the realm and loves
to die
He steals the souls of destination
And walks the earth with discrimination
And sings a song to imply
His love for others to signify
This is the end of this poem
The rest of the creature is left
untold
-Jessica Erps
Sellind this box, full of my thoughts
I don't want to hear, the terror
I fear
Simple suggestions and feelings
unfurled
I hate the reminders of things
I've endured
Keep me away
fill me up with
unsevored dreams
I can not relate
I will not take
Cover me up and let me die
Never again will I say how I feel
You're breaking my heart and I'm
changing unreal
Fading expressions and faith unexplored
Do me a favor and get out the door
Keep me away
fill me up with
unsevored dreams
I can not relate
I will not take
Cover me up and let me die
Flying forever and destroying my
mind
Feeding the demons to the soul
I will bind
Creating your innosence and smoking
your dope
People will find you hanging, with
sin at your throat
Keep me away
fill me up with
unsevored dreams
I can not relate
I will not take
Cover me up and let me die
-Jessica Erps
I control the hurt inside your head
I control the death upon your bed
I control the anguish in your eyes
I control the pain that you despize
I want to take away your soul
I want to cash another bowl
I want to lay right here and never
die
I want forgiven thoughts to forget
all lies
I need to find a path to walk
I need a broom to sweep the chalk
I need the scared to get away
I need broken hearts to turn to
steel and clay
I know where we are going to go
I know all I need to know
I know exactly who you are
I know what you steal and what
you break apart
I care about the way that people
live
I care for all the strength that
souls have to give
I care because this world is a
darkened place
I care about the freedom and the
human race
I feel this weight upon my back
I feel all the pain, my heart is
turning black
I feel the hatred growing close
I feel the air beneath my toes
-Jessica Erps