This first one is a song:

*Why Suicide?*

She Took Her Own Life

They Blamed It On Him

He Loved Her So Deeply

They Didn't Understand

They Ruled It A Homocide

They Didn't Listen When He Cried

She Loved Him More Than Life It's self

She Didn't Think He Felt The Same

She Took His Knife And Took Her Life

She Didn't Know He Wanted Her To Be His Wife

When He Found Her He Went Insane

He Took The Knife In A Fit Of Rage

And Threw It In The Flame

He Felt Weak And Helpless And Just Laid Down And Cried

He Held Her In His Arms And Screamed:

WHY SUICIDE?!

When People Asked Him Why He Killed HerHe Said That She

Killed Him When She Killed Herself

And He Said He Only Tried To Love Her

And Then He'd Start To Cry

WHY SUICIDE?!

The Homocide Was On TV

Everywhere He Looked They Asked

Why'd He...Why'd He Do It?!

They Sentenced Him To Death

They Offered Him A Release From This Horror

He Didn't Cry When They Strapped Him Down

They Would Finally Ease His Pain

Once They Put In The Needle

Before They Flipped The Switch

His Eyes Filled Up With Tears

And In A Voice Barely Above A Whisper

He Asked One More Time

Why Suicide?!

*No Name For This One,Never Finished It Either*

World Is Grey When Thoughts Of Depth Go Unperceived From Loss Of Explaination

When Words That Flow Like Wine Are Lost Through Bad Translation

From One Soul To Another

Thoughts Can Not Be Described

Building Up Frustration Then Hiding It Deep Inside

To Be Understood By Other Souls

One Must Understand Ones Self

Without Words To Understand

Confusion's All That's Felt

Left Wondering With Misery

Loved Souls Become Quite Lost

Lost Souls Can't Let Their Thoughts Flow Free Until They Are Explained

And Therefore Tend To Dwell On Thoughts While Blocking Out The Pain

The Pain Is Unlike Any Other

More Intense If Nothing Else...

When I Get In The Same State Of Mind I Was In When I Wrote This Ages Ago,I'll Continue It Perhaps..

*LOVE*

I Thought

I Wished

I Hoped

I Had

I Fucked It Up

Now I'm Back To Square One

*Freedom Has A Price*

I Am Trapped

I Try To Break Free

All Alone

It Cannot Be

So I Ponder

My Thoughts Run Wild

I Break The Lock

I Kill The Child

Little Did I Know

That Child Was Me

Well I Fucked It Up

But Atleast I'm Fee

But Then...That's All That Matters...Right?

I Guess We'll See

*Up-Down-It's Over-The End*

You're Hell Bent On Fucking Up My Mind

But I Love You Still

I Feel This Torture Of Every Kind

God I Wish I Had More Will

You Beat Me Up

You Beat Me Down

You Screw Me Up

You Screw Me All Around

Now It's My Choice

What Do I Do?

Why Couldn't You Just Love Me Too?

You Fucked Me Up

You Fucked Me Down

Why Did I Take It?

Why Did I Take Your Fucking Shit?

Damned If I Know...

You Tore Me up

You Tore Me Down

Never Again

My Pain Must End

I Load The Gun

I Take My Aim

I Shoot You Dead

I Walk Away

*You Are Insane*

You Are Insane

You Jump On A Train

Out In The Rain

You Say To Pray

That You Will Not Die This Very Day

20 Years Later You Stand In The Rain

Here Comes A Train

It Hits You Flat

You Die In Vain

You Stand In The Rain Never Again

(I Wrote That One Like 3 Years Ago)

*Slight Case Of P.M.S.*

I Told You Not To Take My Cookie

And What Do You Do?

You Take The Fucking Cookie

Now You're Dead

It's Your Own Fault

That Should Teach You To Stay Away From My GodDamned Cookies!

*Last Thoughts Rarely Written*

Lying Here Soaking My Pillows

Tears Flowing Like Streams

Weeping More Than The Weeping Willows

Why Can't Reality Be More Like Ones Dreams?

Why Does Bliss Seem Only A Far Off Illusion?

Why Must It All Be So Hard?

Why, To Be Happy Must One Be Filled With Delusion?

And Why Must The Treasure Of Delerious Glee Be Kept Away With Such Guard?

Confusion Brought Into The Depths Of Depression

For The Source Of My Pain Is Unclear

Questions Asked But Thy Soul Brings No Confession

The Feeling Of A Warriors Sword Stabbed Into My Soul With Each Single Tear

So With Knife In Hand I Digress No More

For The End I Seek Is Finally Near

With One Flick Of My Wrist All Changes To Red Shade Of Lips Of A Whore

As It Turns From Red To Black My last Dying Breath Is All That I Hear

**New-November 16th**

*Somebody Get The FireHose*

I've Had No Sleep

Been Thinking So Very Deep

Almost Tok That Leap

Realised It's Oh So Steep

Thinking About You

Thinking About What To Do

I'm Thinking It's Just Too Much Trouble

As My Heart Beats On The Double

Thinking I Should Simply Quit

But The Flame In My Heart's Already Been Lit

Confusion, Angst, Loneliness

I Wish It Could All Be Laid To Rest

The Hope Disappears As Out Goes The Fire

But A Flicker Remains Of My Desire

Somebody Get The FireHose

**New-November 16th**

*Life At This Moment*

Things Are Changing At Lightning Fast Speed

Heart Breaking

Family Meshing

Things To Move

Got That Groove

Happy? Sad? Giddy? Mad?

Change From Second To Second

Waiting For The Calm

No Time To Smell The Roses?

Sit Down, Shut Up, And Smell The Fucking Roses!

While You're At It

Count The Kitties Toeses

That's Enough Liquor

It's Time To Sleep So Start Counting Sheep

Don't Ask Questions Damnit!