April 21, 1999 10:20 P.M.

Am getting around to write again today.
I hate it that I don't get time to write sometimes. On the other hand I hate it more when I do write and I can't get in to post it. I had problems getting into geocities to post. Then i had another problem with staying connected to my server. So....now I am finally able to get here and post. In the process, I thought i would write again.

My Matron of Honour threw me a bridal shower on Sunday. I had a lot of fun and everyone that I talked to since then said they enjoyed it too.

Big talks at my bible study group. Getting into some very deep subjects. Dealing with the issue of death today. So you know it is deep. However, this group has gotten very close and we can talk about this stuff. And it is really nice that we can. I really am enjoying this group. We are using a bible called Serendipity.

You know I’ve been doing the wedding stuff and I know you prolly don’t want to hear of that again. Got my engagement ring re-sized (was wrong the first time), will be picking it up tomorrow. Pretty busy with other stuff like that. And I am going to the Alpha Course again. Just because I really enjoyed it the first time around and I’d like to help out if I could. Got to go to Dad’s tomorrow too and help him put some games or something on his system.

You know, I realized this weekend how much I really do love Pierre. I love him more now than ever. After 8 years together that has got to be awesome. Finally my wall is completely down. And it feels good. It is a difficult thing to let someone into your life and have that complete and utter trust, to have that oneness. I think Pierre and I have that. Not that every thing is perfect or that we never fight because you would be sadly mistaken. Just knowing that he loves me even if we fight or even if things are not so perfect. Unconditional love. I know that’s how I love him. And I have come to understand that is how he loves me. It is giving over to that unconditional love that is so difficult. Accepting each other for the way they are and not trying to change who they are but to help each other grow and develop as individuals and as a couple.

I feel oneness with Pierre

Good night
Lots o’ love
Christine

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