April 22, 1999 10:15 A.M.

What a lovely way to avoid doing house work.........writing in my journal = )

Anyway......I did start to fold the laundry. Got about half of it done. I don’t know, I guess I thought of looking up a phone number on my trusty 411 directory (on the net) and of course it lead to checking my email......then surfing a bit and finally reading sarah’s journal. Now, to avoid going back to my house cleaning I successfully have found another distraction. = )

Also......just wanted to mention.....i posted the last entry as the 21st when it was really the 20th.....*shrug* oh well......i got my days mixed up.......i can’t remember what day it is half the time *lol*

Anywho...
br> I was also suppose to go finish up the dresses at Christine’s house with her but.......I called her last night to cancel and go Monday instead. Why did i do that.......so i could have a break from being so damn busy and maybe get this house cleaned up. I really will get to it after I’m done here. I guess I just wanted some time to myself and sit back and relax for a bit. *sat back and relaxed........am continuing on now* I’m so glad spring is here......spring and fall are my favorite times of year. I guess because it’s change. I love change. I hate stagnant old things. Change is good. Since it repeats every year you could argue it isn’t change. But you look out and you see the new flowers coming up and the leaves growing on the trees. That is change. The same in the fall, same pattern, but leaves turning colours, leaves that have never turned colour before. You see the newness of it......you see the change of it?
Yep.....just one wacky weird chick over here I guess.
Oh well.......I like me.
I like me just the way I am.
Life is good. Not always good but we try to make the most of it. What good is it just to go through the emotions and do what we think we should be doing.......that isn’t living is it? I need to live. I need to be full of joy as much as I can. I don’t like being depressed, there isn’t much fun in that is there? Not saying I never get depressed.....because I do. I just hate being depressed. If I sat and thought about negative things I suppose I could be very depressed. However, I like to think of the good things. I like to focus on the positive things. I try to live in reality.......but I am a dreamer. So... I dream of good things. Then I make them reality. Isn’t that much funner? What’s the sense of living in a reality that sucks? Why be so unhappy? I believe that life is and can be wonderful. So.....if it isn’t wonderful at the moment I need to dream about what it can be to make it wonderful.......then go out and make that dream a reality. Yes it is hard work but well worth it. And you know....if you dream it.......it can happen.

i guess i’m just the little engine that could today. I can clean my house.......I can clean my house......my house can sparkle.........choo.........choo.........off i go to clean my house.........off i go to clean my house.......choo.......choo...........

Have a great day
Lots o’ love
Christine

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