April 5, 1999 10:45 P.M.

I finally am getting around to writing again. Well, it’s taken that long for Pierre to come around to listen to what I have to say and understand where I’m coming from. THANK GOD!!! I really think the man was going to drive me insane there for a bit. Anywho, all is good again. The thing is I really had just about enough and wrote in my prayer journal to God today that I needed help so that Pierre would see and understand. Ask and ye shall be answered? I guess I was. It was getting to the point I was wondering about us getting married and wondering if we might be making a mistake. But it seems just as I am giving up hope, there is an answer and then things are good again.
Pierre and I had a good chat tonight even though it was on the phone. I finally read that letter I wrote to him. He took it well. I think he is scared that I am going to be a holy roller (those are his words. he also says bible thumper). Anywho, my answer is no I don’t think so but if that is what you call a Christian then I guess that is what I am. I just want to be a good Christian and I told him I want to go to heaven.
Here’s the letter I wrote him. (might sound a little strong but it is truly how I feel)
->I want to correct my sons. I’d like you to help me. I think I need you to help me. If we are to be husband and wife we need to realize it is also a life time commitment to help each other in life and the most important thing in life is God. Without God what do we have? Material possessions? Death. I want eternal life and happiness. This is my complete goal in life. Never has it been so clear to me as it is now. I’m not going to change this. I am going to strive for this and if I change to a better person *insert Pierre saying holy roller here and me laughing etc.* and Christian then that will be me. I want that. I hope you understand and will be supportive.
I want everyone to have eternal life but they have free will just like you and I. So...I am doing what I can for myself to have this as it is my choice . I would like it to be your choice. I think I know it is but I now realize we must do these things I talk of. do stop our sins. Do things that would be for the glory of God. Not our own personal gains.
As I said I am working towards eternal life. Won’t you be there with me too?
I love you . With all my heart.
Christine
Of course he could tell I was starting to tear up (ya he could tell that over the phone) and told me to stop.
btw.......he was on his way to work because he couldn’t sleep due to the kids being noisy. (and I think do to the no sex frustration level he had) lol. maybe it IS true men can think better when they go without sex for a while. rofl
Anywho, Pierre expressed his thoughts and concerns to me about me never being home. He says he knows I have been trying but.......he is afraid that once the kids are grown up and gone that I might start to look for something else to fill my life when he is gone. I told him he shouldn’t worry. He said it is his turn to express himself. So, he did. I told him just that I wanted him to know, that when I marry him it is for life. I will never fool around on him and I take my commitment to him very seriously.

I guess that is it for tonight.
Lots o’ love
Christine

p.s. for those of you not in the notify list here is what is in the email i sent out


Hi

I'm posting again. Easter weekend was good. I was baptized, confirmed and got to take communion all during the Easter Vigil. It was awesome. It was a 2 hour mass but most people thought it was great. Another guy did the same. He was much older than I, maybe 60 or something. There was a party after and I got a few gifts which I didn't know I would be getting anything at all. First I started getting the cards and then a couple of gifts (bible, rosary, prayer book and a figurine of a girl doing communion. Of which I appreciated all of that but.... the best thing was this card that says for 2 years, ever day there will be someone praying for me...... and that I will share in one mass for every day of the year and in a special mass on Every First Friday and Every First Saturday of the month and on all Feast of Our Lord and our Blessed Mother: as well as a remembrance in a special way in all the Masses, Prayers and good Works of the Marian Fathers and Brothers.

I JUST THINK THAT IS THE BESTEST!!!!!


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