August 18, 1999 9:37 P.M.

last night and the night before i had visions of writing
but it was not so
i realized it was late and thought it would be a good idea to get some sleep instead
at least it is early tonight and i will be able to get to sleep early
as long is i don’t waste a lot of time on the internet when i post this
hopefully on then off

damn mosquito bugging me......i just killed one.......i hope there isn’t another
am watching, Gone in the Night.
is a parent’s hell
i missed the first of it
but basically it’s about a child taken in the night and killed
then they turn around and say it was the parents
the movie is giving me the impression it wasn’t the parents and they are fighting like hell
as well the court took their other children
the mother’s trial was thrown out due to lack of evidence but not the fathers
the jury is deliberating now
now the father was found guilty
but it’s not over yet

well, things are going good at the shop
i’m getting somewhat organized
making a little bit of money
and....... mostly enjoying what i’m doing

damn the mosquito got me on the bottom of the foot.........i’ve got my feet up while i’m typing this.......and i just killed another two

not much to say tonight really

i’m missing pierre immensely
but he is taking next week off......so we can get more time together even though i will have to be at the shop tue-fri

not much for deep thoughts tonight.........sometimes i feel like a blonde.......that i don’t have much to say is because i’m just not that smart or maybe i’m just not a thinker.....ya that’s gotta be it......i need to be intellectually stimulated by something to get me to really think about something

i don’t know but i think people find me boring
am i really a boring, non-thinking person?
why is it my children fight so much?
why is it they just gotta push and push and push till the push me over the edge and i feel like pulling my hair out
drives me insane some days
anyway........i think i better go to bed
my brain is starved for oxygen

night
lot’s o’ love
christine