January 8, 1999

Starting off the new year great. Not that busy, yet busy enough. I am starting to freak myself out about this damn wedding and what I am going to do about the cost. All of a sudden it’s looming before me. I’m thinking wtf.....am i nuts here. Yet that is what I want.....a nice wedding with all my family and friends there. I’m usually not a worrier. I’m sure it will all work out but the last couple of days it’s just seeming very overwhelming. All the stuff that needs to be done. Called the DJ friend of Pierre’s last night....he was already booked. Damn. Called another one that he referred me to, got her now. Called the organist, got her. I need to order invitations soon and I haven’t even figured out what i’m gonna have on them, let alone what i’m doing for the time of the wedding, dinner and reception!!
I think it will be at 3:30 p.m. then i have to decide on the dinner.....i think it’s just gonna be a cold buffet style one. ACK!! What are we gonna have with that? Potato salad, Macaroni salad, maybe a nice thick juicy ham? I’m gonna drive myself insane!! That I am sure of!!!!!

Ok...enough of driving meself insane. Been reading in Sarah’s and Cy’s journal. What a pair they are. I think they r gonna drive each other insane. he he That’s what Pierre and I do. That’s why we are gonna get married. Actually, Pierre is driving me insane at the moment and he’s not even here. He asks me to go get something then goes with his uncle somewhere. I figure they will be back in 10 minutes, 20 tops. Almost an hour later they still aren’t here. I don’t know if he thinks I got magic beans to pay for the damn alternator or what? I need to get money out of his account and who’s got the card? Yep, he does. He better not get grumpy about me still being here when he gets in. It’s 2:00 in the afternoon. If I’m not out before that i just rather not go cause then i end up being too hurried to get home again. Arrrgggh. I could just smack him silly right now. Oh ya....back to Sarah...she wrote back to me yesterday. A nice lil’ letter. Says she will try to get here too....for the wedding that is. That reminds me I need to make another phone call ‘bout that. (The bar part of it that is. Need to have lots of folks drunk now, don’t we? *laughs* Pierre’s mom and step-dad go to AA an so does my brother. Gonna make lots of $ from them. NOT)

Would also like to mention I had a great Christmas this year. Kids went to their Dad’s place but we went out to dinner on the 24th with them, my x’s mom, grandparents an sister’s family. Went well, even pierre went. Then we celebrated Christmas with the boys when they got back home on the 28th. That went well. Had my dad, his wife, grandmother, pierre’s mom, step-dad and brother here for Christmas dinner. Did i write this already? I hope not. I really need to write every day or close to it. Am gonna try to write more......we’ll see.

Called the guy from the union today. Big song an dance about how it’s slow and that i prolly will get out this summer. In the meantime, I’m still not working!! Gotta do something soon.

*runs around in a circle like a dog chasing it’s tail*
gotta go
c ya
lots o’ love
christine