March 26, 1999 9:00 P.M.

*sings* 6 days since i wrote to you
5 days since pierre left for work
4 days since i took a break
ya..........it was a Monday

Thank God Pierre will be back tonight.
Lots of things to do that i haven’t done yet.
Don’t feel like doing shit today. I know I should do something. Like clean the house. I hate that job. I folded laundry last night for about 2 hours. Guess what, there is more in the dryer now. It just never ends. I don’t know where in the hell it all comes from. I’m surprised I’m doing this since I am feeling crapy about doing things today. God, I actually have to move my fingers to type the letters.

All hell broke loose here last night. Kids being hellions again. Been like that for the last two weeks. Fighting and not listening. It was worse last night because I went to choir practice and they were being that way with the baby sitter. When I got home at ten, she had a list of things they did so....I called them down and rang them out. After she left, I had a heart to heart with Robert and then Josh.
I hope it helps. They were really good this morning, considering the last couple of mornings the same crap was going on in the mornings. Maybe the talk did help.
One thing I said to them was I loved them a lot but it seems they don’t love me. They said they did but then I said well I know you’s do but not enough I guess. Not enough to listen. Robert said he did but I reminded him of bath time. He complained to me about having a bath and tried to get out of it. He said ya but I did have a bath. I said ya but I had to argue with you before you did it and what about your chore? (Same thing except I ended up doing it. ~He puts the dishes in the dishwasher btw.) He got the point. So... this morning when I asked him to put his clothes away he didn’t do it after the third time I asked him I waited five minutes then... I went up to him gave him a big hug and said, “Robert I love you. In fact, I love you so much I’m going to make you a sandwich for your lunch. What kind would you like, ham?”
He he
He said yes. And ya know.....when I left the room he took his clothes upstairs right away.
I also thanked them all for not fighting too. I want them to know how much better I like it when they don’t fight and that I do notice when they are good.

On to new and better things. I am now keeping a prayer journal. Am writing to God and answers I think he might give me. It is fun and keeps things simple for me. Helps me keep things in perspective. I have no plans to write that stuff in here though. Not at this time. I really don’t think I will.

Well, Josh just called. Wants me to run something in to him at school. Guess, I’ll run.

Bye
Lots o’ love
Christine

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