March 6, 1999 1:20 P.M.

Hiya

It’s funny how circumstances around us dictate our moods. I was feeling very normalish and I dug out my family tree file and found it wasn’t backed up soon enough before I fixed my computer. That means a lot of work down the tubes. Luckily, I do know most of the information is here on my web page and my chart on the wall. It won’t be back to normal but it’s not going to be where it was before. Which really depressed me. Not the dark kind of depression just a little disappointed kind. I have been slacking at doing my journal entries. I’m feeling frustrated at that because I do want to write but I am very busy. There are other things that frustrate me......like not being able to but my thoughts into words......also......people. People think a certain way and they think they are right no matter what. Some people who I think are bright and would be able to look at something open mindedly do not. THAT is frustration.

The boys. That’s another topic of frustration. Getting through their thick skulls some days is worth a week of frustrations. They are outside right now. I didn’t think the roads were worthy of travel today due to snow and ice. A few of the roads are closed. We were suppose to go to Brockville for hair cuts. It would have given me a bit of a break. When we are home all day long and there isn’t much to do, they tend to work on my nerves. Brandon came up with a plan to motivate them into behaving. I refined it a bit and then discussed it with the boys. It is a reward system that they can earn things like computer time or stickers or even money. Some days it seems that I am constantly chasing after them, that they are doing one thing or another that they aren’t suppose to be doing. Snowing and blowing what do they do? Get a bike out. I had to tell them to put it back. Gggggggrrrrrr. Half the day is getting along with each other, the other half of the day is fighting with each other and frustrating the heck out of me.

I can’t wait till Pierre gets home!! He had to work today. And he is leaving again tomorrow. Single parenting sucks. *shrugs* oh well only the strong survive

lots o’ love
Christine

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