Thursday, June 18, 1998, 6:11 AM

Hi, guess who? Yep me, like u didn’t know. I wanted to write last night but Pierre has this thing that when he goes to bed I gotta go to, no matter what time it is. For a long time I have done that. For the last few years he has worked weird hours and he goes to bed sometimes really early. He usually doesn’t mind if i watch t.v. (since there is a t.v. in the bedroom) or read but there are times when he needs to get to sleep and it bothers him that i am doing that. The problem with this whole thing is i really never have been much of a t.v. person and when i use to watch t.v. at night (when i was single) i would do other things too, mostly like cleaning (because i feel more like doing that in the evening too). Also, I have realized that is why my house is no longer clean. I am not cleaning in the evenings any more. I don’t particularly like housework and know i do not like to clean during the day. Anyway, last night was the same thing with Pierre, I watch t.v. for a bit but was bored so i got up went to the living room (just outside our bedroom) and was cutting out a pattern (making a maternity outfit for my sister) and after about 1/2 an hour Pierre calls out, “When you coming to bed?” I am really getting to hate hearing that. It was 10 PM sooooooooooo i said something like i wasn’t tired yet and i wish he could understand (but i know he doesn’t). Anywho...... we kinda have a tiff about that and i told him he was a baby (he he) and of course i got the i am so selfish thing and the whole of the damn thing is.........i think he is being selfish an self-centered cause my life has to revolve around his and it just pissed me off. He said whatever i want i get and i said noooooooo u just will bitch and argue until u get your own way (maybe that’s when i called him a baby) i don’t know cause when i get angry i kinda black out, in the sense i have an idea what i said and what he said but i can’t really remember it all clearly. But if i am not made and it’s an important conversation i can usually recall word for word what was said. But often than not i forget things all the time. lol (see 14.6.98) Of course i gave in and went to bed. Laid there for about an hour and then fell asleep.
Anyway, Pierre went to work this morning at 6 AM and like usually gave me a hug and kiss and told me i love u. I love him too. He is just so damn frustrating to me sometimes, which is why we should get married lmao.
At this point i want to change the subject. Last week, my son Josh had a track and field day at school. And he broke the records in running the 1000 m and the 200 m. I think he said there were two other ones too. I am soooooo proud of him. The thing is, he is in grade 5 he has 3 more years to improve even more before he leaves that school. Soo it is possible he could brake his own records and some of the other ones later on. He came home on the first day and had a medal and two first place ribbons. The second day he came home with two more first place ribbons for running and long jump. Of course it helps that the little monster has long legs. lol He is 10 gonna be 11 on the 27th and only about an inch shorter than me. I’m 5’2”. He has huge feet. Size 9 in men’s. And God love him if he grows into those feel. lol He is getting strong too. It is getting harder and harder for me to wrestle him to the ground. Yesterday he wanted to arm wrestle. I wasn’t sure if i really wanted to cause i was afraid he might really beat me. So i just kinda fooled around and quickly put him down the first time when he wasn’t really ready and then when he said that wasn’t fair and to do it again i just relaxed completely and let him win. lol Got to keep him guessing too. he he what a mother ehh? I also want to say how proud i am of his school work this year. Last year his teacher wanted to fail him but i said no, on principle he should fail because he wouldn’t do the work but he is so smart that he is capable of doing the work. This year he has done well but mid way through the year i decided to try the medication with him (for A.D.D.) the medication helps him focus his attention. Now instead of 90’s he gets 100’s. He has less problems paying attention, gets to his work quicker (rather than fooling around for 10 min. before he even gets his books open), and because he can think clearer he gets along socially better too. It is really amazing how much this stuff helps him directly and indirectly. Soooo I decided to have my youngest soon do some testing too to find out if he had A.D.D. and guess what? He does. So....he has been on the medication for about 3 weeks. He never was first to get anything done, now he is almost always first. Obviously, the medication helps him too. For two weeks in a row he has brought home awards for achievements, which he never brought home before either. Ohh, his name is Brandon. He is 7 and yesterday i wondered if he was gonna be bigger than Josh cause he has been growing a lot lately. He is almost the same size as his brother, Robert who is 8. Robert is a charismatic little boy who i am sure is gonna grow up to be some kinda politician. I will write more about these two later. Only cause this is getting so long.
Talk at u later.
Love Christine