October 17, 1998  11:11P.M.

I have a new nephew, he was born last night at 8:50 P.M.  My sister, Karen was expecting a girl.  Anyway, he was a suprise but as cute as a button.  Hopefully, he won't be a holy terror like his brother.  Actually, when Jacobb is with me (and his mother isn't with me) I find he isn't too bad and I actually enjoy him being around.   I know my kids can be holy terrors too so I guess I can't critisize all that much.

Anyway, on with me, I was feeling quite shitty this morning, didn't do much at all.   After giving the kids lunch, I took a shower and got dressed.  Pierre and the boys were outside for a few hours doing stuff like piling the wood.  After my shower, I made some lunch for Pierre and then felt a little more energetic.  Thus, I too went out to help pile the wood.  By the time it started to rain and be close to dinner time it was almost done.  I felt better too.  (Note to self.  Must remember to keep exercise in my routine.....*sighs exasperatily*......somehow.)  I donno why but i kinda had the blues and was depressed.  (If you can have them both at the same time.)  Must be that time of year again.  *sighs*  I do beleive it's the winter blues.  I hear more light in the morning helps.  (Maybe I should try that.)  I would very much like to get to work again.  I hate being out of work.   I hate being in debt.  I get overwhelmed by the fact I have these large bills.   Yes, Pierre does a good job making money to pay them but I guess it is also the fact that I would like to get out of debt and pay for our wedding which I know is gonna make more debt.  And since I am not working at the moment, it makes it that much more frustrating to me.

Anywho, I am busted.  Pierre did the honey come to bed.  I told him in 5 minutes.  So I best get going before the 5 minutes is up.  Cause he kinda gets cranky.  I hope I will be able to sleep.

Maybe I will have more to write next time.
See ya.
Lots of love
Chrissy phooh