October 28, 1998  5:10A.M.

Ok. Let me see.  I guess it's catch up time.  My sister, Karen had a baby boy on the 16th of October.  She named him Lucuis Collin (not sure if i spelled Luke right *shrugs*).  I haven't talked to Grant for a while.  Kinda miss talking to him.  I wonder when Pierre talked to him last?  I hope he is ok.  I got this message from Joti to go see what she wrote on Bronte's Forum page.  I have to tell ya, it sucks big time.  All about Cyran and what a jerk he is and messed with her head and now she is going off the internet.  (I don't know why we have to have freaks that are idiots.  Ya know the saying, one bad egg in the bunch ruins it for everyone, or something like that.)  I will miss Joti.  I am glad thought that she and Bruce are gonna try and make things work.  *Cross my fingers for ya girl*   I have been watching Oprah.  Pierre hates it's and I am sure some cyber friends are making funny grunting noises as they read this.  Anywho, it's been pretty good.  They really are doing a lot on how to make life happy and the reality of things.  It's been pretty cool.  I try to catch her show when I am home.   Lemme see, what else, I am running myself ragged trying to keep up with my hobbies.   lol  Family Tree is doing well, I have about 600 names in it now.  I only been working on it since March and probably put about a week of work into it, minus the internet time I used to search, cause ya know it was just a way to be on the net doing something.  *laughs*  Been thinking of opening a ceramics shop in the big city of Brockville.  (We'll see......in the just thinking about it phase......that should pass though.)   Been on a great mouse hunt.  Damn those little suckers!   Bought traps and poison yesterday, caught 2 last night, 3rd one got away.   Little shit!!!!  I told Pierre as he left for work at 3 or so, that's 2 just 28 more to go.  (Was a joke.....kinda......they say for every one you see there are 10 mice.)  Stupid neighbour and his cows......every year since he put the cows in the barn.....which is about 100 feet off the back of my house.......the mice start coming here around this time.....too cold to stay in the stupid barn.....so they come to torment me!!!!!

Well.......now to get deep and personal.  I love Pierre and I am pretty sure we are making the right decision to get married.  Yes, I admit after 6 1/2 years (that have been pretty good) and after all the pushing I did to get to this point.......I am a bit nervous about getting married.  I was really happy and excited at first.   But now the nervousness has set in.  I think it is normal though.  But still, I ask myself,  am i doing the right thing?  Will we be happy together?   Will he change?  Sometimes, I think I am being silly.  Other times I think these are legitimate questions.  (Probably a bit o' both.....silly and legitimate.  Could that be?  jeesh!!?!!)

Oh also want to mention my cyber dad, Luvfrop23.  I miss you!!!  Mom too!!!   Glad to hear dad is *cross my fingers* doing ok.  I wrote him a letter.   I hope he writes back.  I am so proud of him going to get the help he needs and realizing he needs help with his drug problem.  I am also glad that he has opened his heart to God.  That empty feeling we get is telling us we are missing something.   No matter how well we are doing or how much money, fame, etc. we achieve, if we don't have God in us then we will feel like something is missing, if we are honest with ourselves.  But when we realize God is the answer, then our lives will change, whether it is gradual or sudden, it will change.  And we will be much happier creatures of God's.  He has given us the free will to accept or reject him but whatever your decision is, make sure it is one made with knowledge.  Again, I would stress the book, "Mere Christianity" by C.L.Lewis, or just reading your bible.

Some quick facts about the bible:
Time lapse between when it was written and the first know copy is 30 years and 310 years for the full manuscript.  Caesar's Gaelic War was 950 year time lapse!!!
Number of copies made at that time was 5000 Greek, 10000 Latin, 9300 others.   Compared to Caesar's which was only 9-10 copies.  (Which would be more accurate?)

The bible is the #1 best seller and has been for years!
44,000,000 sold every year!
One more thing before I close:
God loves you! And Jesus died to prove it!  (John 3v16)

God bless you all!
Lots of love!
Christine