Remorse

Listening to the sweet sounds of
voices, I've been inspired to
write another one of my poems,
to speak my mind and tell you
what it's like to live in regret,
to know you had something really
special but mistankenly you threw
it away, to think nothing would
ever come of it. Now what used
to be has been taken away from
me. Hell has once again become
my place, only memories of you
and me lay in front of my face,
I sadly remember what I can't
have, that once you throw something
away you can't have it back. What
was I thinking because I made one
hell of a mistake. Can any apology
of mine ever ease the tension we've
left behind? Could I ever make things
better? I'm not sure, but I know what
I feel, an emptyness inside me, because
I left you over my own mistakes. No one
could ever fill this hole that I've carved
in my sole. I've tried different packages
of kool-aid but none of them are all that
great. Maybe thats because the only one I
ever truly loved has been poured down the
drain, back into the sea. Now I see it's
impossible to ever retrieve that one special
flavor of kool-aid. I threw away that one
key that might have saved me, I threw away
everything because I didn't think you really
loved me. I thought that something really
great would come of it, but only a fool
would make such a mistake.

-Kristen Konopinski