How are you this morning baby? Well my angel, it's been two months today since you passed away. My eyes have stopped crying as much, but the pain of losing you is still very strong. I promised you a letter so I'm making another promise. Every month on the day you died I will write you a new letter. It helps me to get through another month without your beautiful face not being here for me to see. Have you been singing angel songs for me, baby? I can hardly wait for the day we can sing together.
Well monkey'shine, your Mommie is getting married on the 11th of July. So I hope you don't mind if I write you a letter a day or two before the 11th. You see baby, Mommy needs and wants me at her wedding. It want be a happy day for me because you wont be with us. If you were here, it would be so much better. Although you will be in my thoughts and always in my heart. Mommy and I saw some beautiful little dresses the other day, that would look very pretty on you. None can add to your beauty though. Your beauty out shines everything!
Sweetie, do you remember Kitt? I think he has been missing you too. He keeps going into your room looking for you. He jumps up on your Mommies bed and meows loud for you. I know he was a little skiddish of you at first hun, but remember how he was starting to get used to you and would let you pull his tail? Oh baby, I would give anything for you to be here so you could do it again. And when you used to pull on my neckless and make me think it was broken? Sweetie, Grammy got the clasp fixed so it wont come off so easy now.
Baby, a lot of your flowers have died, guess I'm not to good at raising flowers. Some of them I didn't know what they were or how to care for them. I hope you will forgive me for them dying.
Papa Bryant sure misses you too. He doesn't talk much about it, but I can tell he's still hurting as we all are.
I still see your beautiful smile everywhere in this house. The rooms are darker now with you gone. Your sweet smile and the very presents of you made my world so much brighter.
I want to thank you sweetheart for being my guardian angel through these chemo treatments. The drugs seems to be helping me a lot. Time will tell if it will come back or not. Even if it does, that's ok. Because I know you'll be right here to help me through it again. Unless the good Lord wants me to come home to watch over you. Life here on this ole earth will never be the same without you here. But I know that one day we will be together again in God's house, where there are no tears, no pain and we can be together forever.
Well my love, I will end this letter for now. You're forever in my thoughts. Tell Grandma Rogers hello for me and that I still love her too. If Grandma Phillips is there, tell her I forgive her and I hope to see her too one day. Take care of yourself babygirl. Here are my kisses, hugs and all my love.
Love To You Baby,
Grammy
PS. I added a gaurdian angel to your page hun, to help care for you until I can get there to do it myself. I hope you like her. Her name is Danielle, so you be sweet for her. Okay?
You know what sweetie? I sure do miss your little fingerprints being all over the class table in my computer room. I started to take that table and pack it away with your finger prints all over it. But I guess that was a little silly of me. I can't help it though if I wanted to save everything you touched, just to feel near you. I had to make myself realize that you are implanted in my heart and no one can touch you, harm you or take you away from my heart. So I finially polished away your tiny finger prints from that table. But your heart prints are engraved in my heart forever.
