email: crtait@hotmail.com
Confession
My tears rolled down,
like summer rain.
I stand here broken,
alone again.
My pride I thought,
I might have saved.
But I know it's myself,
that I've betrayed.
I should have learned,
form times gone by.
Then bitter tears,
I would not have cried.
My friends they said,
that I was mad.
If I had listened,
I would not be sad.
Their council I know,
was wise and just.
But I just did,
as I thought I must!
C.TAIT
I'm Here
When the darkness closes around
I'll be your light
When you need someone to hide you
I'll be your shelter
When the spectre of the past rises
I'll be there beside you
When you need someone to cry to
I'll lend you my shoulder
When you need someone to talk to
I'll give you my ear
When you need omeone to hold you
I'll wrap you in my arms
When you need someone to love you
I'll enfold you in my love
Whenever you need me
Never doubt
Never fear
I'm here
C.TAIT
Johannesburg Nights
As darkness decends,
a strange peace, covers the land.
Soft moonlight, bathes the earth,
in silver light.
Nocturnal pleasures entice,
in darkened doorways, and shady alleys.
A young couple, dance in exstacy,
to rythmic beats.
A lone policeman,
walks his beat,
in controlled ignorance.
The street vendors,
scattered on pavements,
peddle their wares.
The shops closed,
Their windows barred,
against the wicked.
The clubs open,
nightlife teems, i
n the city.
Bodies crushed passionately,
on dark dance floors,
in darker cellars.
The city sweats,
in the heat,
of african night.
The dark shadows,
of the lawless,
stalk the unwary.
Yet life still continues,
in the sinister,
city of gold.
C.TAIT 18/02/97
Just A Lie
I don't believe What is happening to me
I can't take this anymore
Why can't you see
What is happening to me
I'm about to lose control
Take me on a wild ride
Through the dreams We once held true
Take me on a wild ride
To the place I still loved you
I've got nothing to hide
I've lost my pride
'Cause deep inside
I can't deny
That what we had
Was just a lie
No-one said
That youd be my death
So how was I to know
Love is free
But I've been deceived
And you've cut me to the bone
Am I right
Or am I wrong
To put these words to song
In the night
Why am I so weak
When I should be so strong
Take me on a wild ride
Through the dreams
We once held true
Take me on a wild ride
To the place
I still loved you
I've got nothing to hide
I've lost my pride
'Cause deep inside
I can't deny
That what we had
Was just a lie
C.Tait
1 MAY 1997
Light In The Darkness
The life ebbs out of the day,
but the light still lingers,
as if discontent with its end
The night battles to gain hold,
yet the light still shines,
from the glistening moon,
reflecting the suns glow,
on earths brown dust.
So that even in the darkness,
The light shines
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Memory
The lonely sounds of hurried farewells ring in the chill autumn air. Stars glisten in the clear cold sky. The night closes in around the lone figure who, waving, slowly turns and trudges the long road back to his empty life.
Tears from in his eyes for a moment as memories of her cloud his mind. his heart still torn by her deceit cries out for her and breaks anew. The cold air closes in around his huddled form and leaves him gasping for breath.
He remembers the good times and memories of laughter cloud his mind with joy. Bitterness floods his heart . What ifs and whys' chase around, as if mocking him . Self recriminations pierce him like arrows and agony floods from his chest as he collapses beside the path.
In the cold light of morning his frost shrouded figure lies beneath the ancient gnarled oak and looking up beyond the twisted branches at the clear light of dawn he asks once more the only word he can gasp," why?" Then staring through sightless eyes he gasps no more.....
C.TAIT
OBSERVATION
I don't know how to tell you
All the thingsI feel
And sometimes I wonder
If you are real
Somehow you notice
Little things about me
And make me take note
of The little things you see
I know how I'm feeling
But I don't know about you
And if I asked you
Would you tell the truth
I don't know you that well
And you know very little about me
But give me a chance
And I will let you see
....me
C.TAIT
Reflection
Walking in a medow surrounded by visions surrounded by memories of a time long forgotten
Her long gown sweeps across the stars and leaves a trail of mist in her wake
Her golden hair flowing out from her like sunbeams from her golden face
Pausing beside a lake she gazes into the deapths and ponders, lingers on her cool reflection
Wanted by many wanting none adrift in a world of chaos and wonder
Letting her gown fall she dives into the crystal deapths and loses herself in exstacy
Allowing herself a moment of unguarded freedom she cleaves the water and glides in exultant joy
Regaining the bank again she gazes into the deapths and ponders, lingers on her cool reflection
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Search
Stars hang in the sky,
like fiery haloes.
A gentle breeze,
stirs the leaves,
and brings the gentle,
warm scent of flowers.
She lies in my arms,
her hair brushing my cheek,
like a cool soft kiss.
Gentle clouds sift the moonlight.
A lone owl,
sails on in search of prey,
in search of meaning.
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Still Alone
Dark clouds encircle my heart
As the pain of desolation
Flashes like lightning
Across my soul
Darkness engulfs me
Like a black cloak
Shielding my brittle senses
From harsh realities
As the darkness decends
My heart beats faster
fear holds me in its grip
As once more I sleep
Dreams like razors
Rip open my mind
leaving me defenceless
Against the deadly truth
She stands with pride
Soulders thrown back
And gripped in her fist
The remenants of my pride
I lie at her feet
Bloody and broken
With my shattered heart
laying in pieces around me
Another figure approaches
Dressed in white
With a sword in her hand
And love in her heart
The howling winds die
And I am lifted up
To gaze upon the face
Of the future
Once more I am rescued
And new pride fills my soul
But the fear remains
Dark and cold
I throw off the cloak of
And run for the light
My dark fears pursue me
Deep into the night
I burst into the light
I rise into reality
And wake to discover
I am still alone
C.TAIT
26/01/96
Why?
Why do I continue living,
when My lonely heart breaks?
Why do I continue giving,
when I don't have what it takes?
Why do people look away in shame,
When they hear the truth?
Why do we always share the blame,
When we don't have all the proof?
Why do I cry at night,
when I look at this world of dispair?
Why does my heart take flight,
when I find someone who cares?
Why do I blame myself
for love that always fails?
Why don't we ever learn,
from other peoples' tales?
Why do I push away,
when someone gets close
Why does life bring heartache,
but never regulates the dose?
Why do I feel alone,
when othersare so glad?
Why are some people happy,
while others are so sad?
Why do I lie awake at night,
while others are asleep?
Why are so mant people shallow,
while others are so deep?
Why is love considered special,
when it always brings you pain?
Why is it out of sorrow,
we receive the greatest gain?
Why is it from history,
nothing is ever learned?
Why is it from misery,
that the great rewards are earned?
Why do I still question,
all things as they are?
Why do I continue searching,
when the answers seem so far?
C.TAIT
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