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Intro: A Thought of Him


What can I say about GOD? I believe in him. I believe that there must be a reason for all of this pain that the world feels and suffer. I’m going to write a page probably isnt going to be big but I’m going to just start typing what I feel..... and what I’ve learn through lesson in believing in GOD himself. I’m going to make parts like I did in LOVE and in PAIN. Section to break down how or why GOD has affected me and my life. Others might disagree but we can agree that its my opinion. I’m not better than you. I’m not better than anyone. God made us indivually special and unique in our ways. We’re all God’s children, so we can learn to love each other’s thoughts and feelings. So just try to read this in open minded and not realize that we are hopeless, though it seems like that.


Why God?: Questions, Prayers, the World


I believe that over the time period that I live, and even though its short, 23. But I think that many questions are ask to God, many prayers are prayed to get his attention, and many feelings are needing some answer to guide them. Many times I’ve ask God why I’m living. You know what I mean. Think why would God himself want to see someone in pain when his only begotten son was in great pain for all of us. Why can’t he stop my heart from feeling like it does. Help me get over the past memory and help my future to look atleast bright, instead of bleak. There’s so many question I’ve asked and wondered why.


Like I prayer so hard to him maybe that God’s heart would feel it. I know he knows what I’m going through but why can’t God just shine on my face and make my heart a little easy to live. I pray that I don’t suffer, I pray for others, and I pray for anything that needs it. So when you pray, its just a monolague that its happening. Cuz all you hear is your voice calling out to Him. Wondering if he’s really listening to my prayers. It hurts to pray sometimes cuz you feel like no one is there and its like talking to yourself when I was 8 years old. I still feel like God has a reason for anything that happens in this world.


The world (people) is so lost and I’m just a lost soul right now. I wonder after we die will heaven be a place where you just erase all the pain and hurt that you’ve felt. Coming into the world is like coming into a unfortunate family accident. You know you don’t want to see it, but you have to come. Why would God let the homeless starve, why would He just watch the world go up in smokes, and why is the world just a place for people to dwell in. I’ve learn the World turns but so does our heart. Turning over a new leaf, turning for someone to guide me, and turning to God for some answer. The world will be a better place if the Second Coming would arrive. Just stop the suffering and hurting that alot of people was brought into this life. The world still is missing the reason why God created it. To love each other yet there’s still voilence, killing, homeless people alone, and people with desease. Others turn their back on them when we should be taught to love and understand each other. The world needs to unite as a WHOLE not countries.


Heaven: Is there such a place and do you BELIEVE?


Heaven is suppose to be a place that is fill with joy, happiness, and NO PAIN. Now, people say why do you believe that there’s a heaven. Think about it. If you believe you’ll receive God’s kingdom. If you don’t then what will get if you don’t believe. As I grew up, so many thoughts were in my head and in my heart about if there is a heaven. No Desease, the soul from the past are waiting (families and friends), No hurting and wondering if it will ever stop. No worries about am I going to be loved. No thoughts about having an enemy. Nothing that will bring hurt to us. Everything is peaceful and calm. God’s kingdom is our reward for believing in Him. So as I grew, I believe in Him, but also realize that if there isn’t a GOD then I don’t lose but if I do believe in GOD I got alot to gain. So when someone ask me do you believe in God ... I say yes.

Thoughts on Jesus: He died for us


See, Jesus died for our sins. For we are born as a sinner. He died for are sins so that just make me think that well if he dies for our sins, we can sins all we want and he’ll understand. Jesus died for our sins, so how many sins is that. Infinite. I believe God has to understand that in this planet of confusion, it would be hard to live a life without a sin. We pray for our sins and we are forgive. So no matter how many sins we commit, if we ask for forgiveness then we are granted. Jesus feel alot of pain and yet alot didn’t believe his soul and heart. Jesus loved anyone unconditionally.... the blind, the deaf, and the dumb. He love each of the people of the world. He knew he had to die but he kept his head up and knew it was his mission. So are mission is to believe in him, the holy spirit, and GOD. Don’t get me wrong I’m not a regilious freak, but I think about GOD and thoughts on Jesus. I think and reading the bible few times that Jesus survive and maybe so can I.


Hell - Sorry.... there’s no way I’m going


I don’t want to go to hell. Bottom line. I hate to thought of being in hell. Some says that hell is where you feel pain, envy, sadness, and hurt, if so then I’m in my personal hell right now. I don’t want to be in a place where its going to torture my soul and heart. When I was younger the thought of being in hell, just drove my mind crazie and just couldn’t and wouldn’t want to picture that state of mind. It was one of the reason why I started believing in GOD, so that when I finally die, I can be happy in the after life. I think it would be worth all the hurt I felt to know that I can live with happiness and joy without feeling no more pain --- then I won’t to jump on Greyhound and ride to the sunset of His Kingdom. As I did grow up I learn more and I’m so glad because hell should be a place for those who deserve to rot in pain. There’s no way a person with a good heart should suffer that much hurt after they die. Sorry, but I think that God seeing his children in a place like hell would be painful. I think that’s just the reason that I have to believe. I just want no more pain. That’s it... nothing else, just so that I can live my life and wake up to a smile.


Personal Note to God:


Personally God has to have a reason for all of this suffering. I think what ALLOT of people should know is that TO ERROR IS TOO HUMAN... so allot of times we can’t blame God for everything. Car accident, plane crashed, and other unfortunate accident or deaths. If someone hurts my heart.... is it God’s fault. No its that person that decided that they don’t love me. If someone hits me, its not God’s fist. It the person that is wanting to pound you in. Human = actions. We tend to say God why don’t you stop this or how could this have happen to me. Though I think that God could of help the cause of hurting someone’s heart, but that’s selfish of humans to ask for the Happiness of everything. We take what we can get. But if I get a dark and scared soul then somehow I have to deal with that.


Searching for Peace:


No one wants pain, and everyone wants love. In life we want to feel safe and some peace to just make life a little easier. Searching for someone that can comfort and hold on to. I’ve search for peace in GOD and with that I’m a better man then I was before. Each time that I think of talking or prayingt to GOD, I feel a little peace because I BELIEVE that’s he listening and sometimes that’s all you need is someone to just listen without someone jumping in and giving you advice. To release the tention and stress that talking about it helps. So when I pray I search for peace and in the morning usually I’m better. Whether or not, I am better off not praying is ridiculous. I believe an angel watches over me, and in my heart I sense that I have to do the right thing. You become a better man. Without God and my mom.... I would be lost. If somehow I found that one person that will love me and understand this heart then I will to become a better man because she would bring a new life to me. Somewhat having heaven coming down because I search to be love but I just hope that love finds me.


I'll see you there:


In my heart and in my soul I will see you heaven, sounds corny but I just believe.