"My Grandpa's Heart"
(dedication to my Granpa)
written by The Skarekrow
(Copyright August 2000)
All of the promises and lies confront our lives, and I’m here to clarify an important question,
So many unanswered, and so many are thoughtless, You know its hard and got me stress’n,
Its like inevitable for the truth to hurt others, and that’s what is honestly the hardest part,
You ask me if I think of you, well, I’m afraid to admit the whole truth so I keep it in the dark,
But honestly on my Grandpa’s heart, I would never ever break the promises that I made to you,
And I would never what to corrupt the feelings you have inside and break your heart in two,
I’m dead serious you do mean the world to me, hell, you revolve around my whole universe,
As much as you affect me like no one has, just losing you completely would be really worse,
Told you I have nothing to hide, I am an open book, just have to read between the chapters,
I know my life is not happily ever after, but you make me happy with the smiles and laughter's,
Can’t imagine a day go by that I don’t see you, I know I avoid questions thats hard to answer,
So when you ask me how I feel about you, our communication becomes hard to really transfer,
Mixed signals, and crossfires, its really hard to know what you want when you have barriers,
When you stack these bricks and form them around your soul, that is hard stacked by layers,
I know my grandpa is not in the best condition, and I don’t want NOTHING to happen to Gene,
But if you have to believe in me, On my granpa’s heart, please understand what I really mean,
Can’t come out and say it, Its not the best idea to just destroy something that’s already establish,
My feelings growing for you is integrity, to stop missing when you are gone is hard to accomplish,
You see I’m standing on deadly grounds, I’m in the trenches battling with the love in my heart,
I’m in danger of losing all emotions for you, but being honest with you is the best way to start,
I’m no better than anyone, I’ll be first to admit it, I will say that I just don’t want to be with anyone,
I just want someone who would make my mom and grandpa happy I feel like you are truly the one,
So while my grandpa is in my prayers to get better, and hoping GOD has him in his plans to survive,
I’m also think how GOD would understand that I want you to be happy whatever you do in your life,
But this is just how you know I’m telling the truth, and honestly that I wouldn’t never lie to your face,
So when I say on my grandpa’s heart I will always love you then I will be there for you for many days,
But I can’t answer everything you question, some of it, I’m embarrass to admit that I really feel inside,
Like how I wake up and the first thing in my mind is you, and how I wish you were still by my side,
How I can’t picture another night thinking of a cool breeze blowing through the window softly,
The warm air hovers the memories and it warms my heart, so believe me when I miss you honestly,
On my grandpa’s heart I wouldn’t never say something that would mislead you to something untrue,
When it comes to my soul and heart, I speak nothing but the truth, so believe me when I say I love you,
Nothing I want then my grandpa to feel better, nothing couldn’t compare, so I just hope that you are smart,
Believe me when I tell you how I feel and to be honest I hope GOD watches over my grandpa’s heart....