(Copyright March 1999)
Kept his smiles to himself, but talking to himself became addictive
He was shy and scared inside, exploring the area that was new
Looked around hestistantly, a boy's heart has been broken in two
Never felt truly loved, because he imagines things to easily to take
Grapped a chance whenever he could, so oppurtunities are mistake
He sat up late in the dead of the night, looking at the moon once again
Talking to the sky, and apparantly the window to his room was a friend
Looking outside, and was always to afraid to look within his soul
Buried evidence of pain in a black heart, dark like a piece of charcoal
Laying in bed, felt like it was empty to live, but full to even breathe
Haunting thoughts in his head as he lay, to dream was to feel at ease
Knowing nightmares were safe than to stay awake than to let it cave in
So he stared at the stars and made many wishes every night of the pain
And he was neglected like the plague when it came love in his way
The boy was ashame to have a heartbroken so words was hard to say
Suddenly, one day his thoughts was doomed to roam the world all alone
Next to the pain, thinking that its incredible to never have love to own
Never come his way, a drop of constant tears of what was hard to believe
When he was younger, his sad innocent heart was tainted and decieved
He thinks he'll never be loved, his appearance is so far being attractive
Wish he was handsome, but he's average, so hats became an alternative
He thinks he's ugly and that he's afraid of what other thinks of him
Never dealing with reality, so his imaginary world becomes a problem
Staring at the mirror, hoping the image would channge but he cried
Instead he saw something he can't stand, he looks disgusting outside
He thinks his inside is more precious, but its a hard part to understand
Crowded house of other kids, youngest felt alone when its out of hand
Choas of unloved area, he saw things that was to realistic to deal with
Words of what became to hurt others, it hurts to feel something like this
Screams in the night, remember the monster was still around in his dreams
Knocking his heart down, loser's confident, and building low self-esteem
Then one day he felt something in his heart the feeling close to heaven
Love was so true, felt so pure, a wonderful feeling, it was so pleasant
To see his smile, to see the joy, you could always sense a warm embrace
He was at his best time to live, love almost erased the monster's face
It almost made his story seem so happy, and his past was almost forgot
Made his days and night worth living, but soon it was all for naught
So he was trapped in his own jungle, a mind that was ruin of temple
The lost gold treasure, lost marbles, his mind was going to be mental
Because finally, his heart was broken once again which he feared inside
The boy sat and kept asking God why's, no answers but hard he cried
So inside he died, soul committed suicide, and so hard he tried
To tied the lies beside his pride, but confide in pain, the heart fried
Burnt up to crisp, nothing left to feel but only time will comfort him
Was never about being loved, it was always about the pain, his own problem
THE END
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