"Just So You Know" (Thought of You)
written by The Skarekrow
(Copyright August 2000)
Thought you would like to know that today you’ve crossed my mind,
Just a little thing to maybe get through the day while I’m wasting time,
But I’ve smile when the thought of you came to my lonely picture,
Its lonely because you’ve been gone, I just have to wait for the future,
When you come back and make my sad face turn into a smiling one,
Just seems like the days and nights aren’t the same, and its no fun,
Missing someone when you can’t do anything to change the situation,
I just thought you would like to know I hate this whole separation,
I understand the whole deal, and I know where my position stands,
You know I haven’t smile this much and I thank you for that chance,
My face gets sore from smiling like its easily growing out of style,
But to be honest, as usual, I’m not same since I haven’t seen you in awhile,
Its complicated and its hard for me to just say how I really feel,
So you know I put my barriers up and I act like I’m stronger than steel,
But then sometimes you make me feel so at easy with your comfort,
And when you’re there to understand me and there for some support,
You have grabbed a part of me that has token me by a surprise,
And that was that I never thought I would feel like this in my life,
Never expected to stumble over my barriers that I put up to protect,
But it seems when your words touch me, the joy I seem to accept,
Its so hard, just in case you wanted to know, I thought of you,
Missing and feeling upset to my stomach and I don’t know what to do,
I try to occupy my mind but to be honest again that’s the hardest part,
When my mind starts to keep busy, that’s when you pop in my heart,
Its a win or lose situation, but I feel like with you I’ve already won,
I feel like I’m special, but there’s nothing special in missing someone,
I keep thinking you’ll come back soon, come on, just a couple days,
Then a day turn to another day, while at night I dream of your face,
Then I bring myself down, because I dream to be with you again,
And to top it all off, today feels like its going to start to soon rain,
Bringing me down from the cloud I was on, I don’t want to let go,
My thought of missing you is just something I thought you like to know,
I’ve laugh so hard, tears ran a track down my face with your comments,
I’m sad a lot of times that thinking of being with you becomes a problem,
I’ve smile so much that upon my face, I felt I was frozen with a smile,
Then again, I’ve been depressed many times, I think I’m going senile...
So I lay my head on my pillow and I make a praying for you meanwhile,
I wish that you come back and be with me, but am I living in a denial,
Things could change and not be the same, or you might not come back at all,
Wish you knew how much you’ve affected me, I’m sad when I start to recall,
Remembering your words that broke right through the barriers,
How with one smile of yours seem like the answer to all my prayers,
The dark clouds and bad nightmare seem to disappear when I met you,
The memories before you left is the memories I will never regret too,
But you leaving me in this cold place, its wrong and the days seem so long,
Passing time is just thinking if you will come back and help me be strong,
I keep writing and writing and maybe this will reach you, just in time,
For you to realize how much you mean to me when you crossed my mind,
How many letters do I need to write, How many tears must I cry?
How many nights I can’t sleep, How many times I wish you would come by?
How many days have it been seen I last saw you and watch you go?
And how many times have I thought of you just so you would know?
You’ve crossed my mind, I’m trying to hold on for that day to come,
When I see you again, wait, I hope to see you so I won’t feel lonesome,
Is it wishful thinking that you’ll come back and tell me you missed me?
Could it be I’m just dreaming and that the past was just history?
I’m just thinking, I’m sorry, I know I have to think positive about this,
But when negative things comes to mind, is only because of you I’ve miss,
So when times come when I wake up and I know you’re are gone,
You know its just me, missing you so much, one day has been to long,
Maybe I’m just a fool for feeling and thinking this way, maybe I’m right,
But I could be wrong into judging your feelings whenever I start to write,
I’m not in a position to speak for you what your heart already knows,
When you once told me you missed is when spending time with me it shows,
Sometimes I just wish I knew how you really felt deep down inside,
But since you’re gone, I’m sitting here missing you with the tears I’ve cried,
Heart aches and yet it smiles upon me with the things we’ve been through,
Not a seconds goes by where I wish all my dreams could have come true,
And that would be having you come back as soon as possible to be here,
Close to me and next to me, where I can keep you close and so near,
I know I’m not wasting my time, maybe that came out wrong in that line,
So I just hope you would like to know that you have crossed my mind!!