"Trying to Dream"
written by
Amber (yellow) and DV (white)
*Copyright FEB 7 1999*
In life i live in a state of a dream.
To busy the world is to hear my scream
As the world walk around all my depression
I found my lifes work is not perfection
Close my eyes tightly, silence is far away
Close my heart tonight, and the pain stay
Vision of peace in a distance that I can't see
A clear picture in mind, take this pain away from me
As the dream grow fearce as reality cave way
Im uncertain of the pain uncertain to give away
Closing my eyes tightly finding this maze
My dreams lost reality..misplaced in the haze
Will this nightmare ever end? I just want to know
Will this dream ever be awaken from? I can't let go
Will this night ever see the daylight? I hope so!
Will I just be thinking to much of the pain, I think it shows
My weary heart of silence has driven by force of dark
For every dark impression left, is my understood remark
For words fight with anguish of a dream to lie enough
I know my dream endless sarrow, I will never wake up
Twitching and nervously, tears fall from my eye tonight
Can't sleep for a second, knowing you're out of my sight
Always keep my mind busy, working with the struggle
Will I ever find the piece to fix this brokenheart puzzle
With pain as my blanket, and fear as my pillow i lay
My loves heart is unawakend by the love that will stay....
Within my empty hands and empty headed memories
I have lost you for good in a cave of Dreams of miseries
My heart is aching with the intensity of calling out your name
Shaking, and turning in my bed, because the dream's the same
Demons upon my shadows, following my footprints of memory
Listen to the aching beat, calling for you, but you still ignore me
Forever flame of love i was burned inside my heart
For every time your image appears it rips my soul apart
For time will lent my pain, as an endless grief
starving me of love of a joy...taken by an unfeeling thief
Crying with the fear of insanity, yes I feel the little pity
Sighing with hopeless wonder of why I have to face reality
Noticing my life is nothing, no ambition, low case personality
Scared to be alone tonight, pain's tart strikes my heart and hit me
As one tear drip from my eye to the pillow my head rest
The burning and aching of love is beating upon my chest
my heart has shallow life within and burns with the desire of fear
For I'll be alone for the reast of my life, living without my dream near
Vision fading away as I approach this mirage of true love
Distracting pictures of being hurt, I cried to God, above
Is this a good reason to live, when my dream has come to an end?
Would I be safer from love, instead I just lost a close friend
Cryptic words i read through my need of a translation
a forbidden love of livelyhood and a lifetime complication
So pain i greeve on love, remending my open wounds astounds
Amazing my every breath be my last with hurtful gaping sounds
Torturing the days with my sad sorrow, and the nights with my screams
Reeling in the drowned memories, my heart is bleeding is how its seems
This dream has come to its closer, no feeling of getting better by any means
Though you say you missed me, I have yet to wake up from these bad dreams
