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All of these where written like four to five years ago... enjoy



These are my latest, I haven't been writing for about a year and I just started like 3 weeks ago with new material and new ideas. I just hope you enjoy the time and effort I put in these. So they're new and fresh out of the box. Sorry for the grammar in these poems *LOL* but I'm not ENGLISH *S* please enjoy....

"A Picture"

(( looked at someone's pic and falling head over heel ))

A picture of you, a smile that brighten the hold entire room when you walk in
God, only knows how I stare into your eyes and my heart slowly starts to begin
A fresh of breath air, when I start to inhale deep down into the depth of my lung
Exhaling a new person and a feeling in me, since the times my soul felt young,
The boxframe around you holds you, and I wish that I held you close and tight
I see you smiling in the picture, but I try my best but I guess I fail again tonight
Your beautiful eyes sees right through me, bringing a side of a gentleman in me
I plea to my heart to listen carefully, but my mind wants obviously to disagree
I know one is saying just hold on and go for the ride and don't give up hope
While the other knows what for the best, but how the feeling is hard to cope
It unavoidable for me to get hurt, I thought that maybe I'm afraid of the chance
But when she makes my heart do cartwheels that has to have some significance
You're so sweet like cappachino blasts when I see your picture I'm moonstruck
Get lost in her eyes so many times that, wouldn't you know it, its my bad luck
That I'm sitting here while she's far away like the horizan of beaches in Oregon
Thinking this feeling is wrong, I realize its too late because my heart isn't strong
Poner that thought, I think is it really worth giving up something for happiness
And throw away the crush aside for a second and its worth the pain of loneliness
But I could picture her laughs and her smiles at almost all my comment and joke
Micheal Angelo couldn't definitely paint a perfect picture with his brush stroke
Like I said could stare into her eyes for infinite, and beyond the hands of time
Giving me a feeling inside my soul that will last me for many smiles of lifetime
And my heart feels so soft and light as a feather when it comes to your beauty
Two personality that just click, almost a perfect match, cuz no one else suit me.
Only you has touch my heart this way since, well let's just say its been years,
When I look at your picture that I have, its just like a sunshine drying my tears.
I definitely look forward to hear from you, and just maybe a long letter of sort,
And as much as I hate pain, it will be worth the hurt so my feelings won't abort.


"She's sorry (I still miss her)"

((this is for all who notice that something that person don’t show up))

Says she's sorry, though I waited for her 2 hours 15 minutes of just relax'n
Doesn't make a different, I won't complain cuz to be with her is all I'm ask'n
Disorderly conduct was on her smile, charge with battery for tearing my heart
Seconds become longer than minutes time hurt cuz it was wast'n on my part
Ya know I would do it all over, wait longer if I have to, maybe next time I'll stay
Closing time or until I see the sunrise, I just wait for you if I have to wait a day
You were somewhere else and now you need to go to courtroom for your conduct,
I know that you have important things, but I'm charge for missing you so much.
How can I not think of you when I was there waiting for angel to appear on screen
Thinking of drives me crazy so that I become worry while I sit by my PC machine
I wish there was a better way to reach out and contact your heart, and take a listen
Beating with tha ounce of intensity, blood pumping in viens of someone I'm missing,
Its like niccotine, I'm addicted to, knowing I wish I was there in person to see you
She's sorry that she didn't get a hold of me, but I'll forgive her even if I'm still blue
But to me it doesn't matter, cuz at 12.35 a.m. I took the time to write a email letter
To let her know that I understand and to write something that would make me better
I was sweating bullets cuz I thought she forgot about me and I wasn't important
It was far from the truth cuz reading her note, realize that she's a special woman,
I'm sorry that I misjudge her and that I'm still missing her while writing this poem,
And I wish I could hear her voice now, but maybe later when she finally gets home.


"Three Words"

((Just figure out what the three words are.... a silly one ... there had of been one))

When you said those three words my heart slowly start to break apart
Just cracking at the seams, knowing I could be losing a counterpart
Someone I can count on to be close to and just be by my lonely side
Shining brightly in the DARK like a candle she's my leading guide
I've search for a reason, and I always try to find a tiny measely excuse
To see her smile again but until then my happiness has been reduce
Don't say ya gotta go, and for a few minutes you can find a way to stay
Try to tell me you'll miss me or just tell me you'll be thinking of me
Instead of being in a hurry, don't leave, I don't want to make a plea
I'll beg, but if anything just hold me and just leave without a sound
Don't say words that hurts my sensitive soul 'cause it brings me down
And if you're in a rush and that you need to move and get things done
Just blow a kiss at me instead of saying ya gotta go and leave someone
And please don't look into my eyes, and say those ugly words that I fear
But tell me you'll see me sooner or later, or can't wait to see you dear
I rather you fade into the night like a ghost that vanish and disappear
And say I love you then make me cringe and say words that hurt my ear
Rather you tell me that you already miss me and how much meant to you
I'll contact you, get a hold of you instead blowing me off like a kazoo
So just be here for me, one second more won't hurt to just let you know
That you mean everything to me and I wish that you didn't have to go


"Bits and Parts"

(( Why I might like this person the little things ))

Your eyes dances like a silhoette of the moon on the water by a pier
A smile that breaks any concentration like when someone interfere
I'll treasure every moment I spent with you like you are a sovernir
Keep it close to my heart, and in my mind it will never disappear
Your laugh makes me smile like the fireworks of Fourth of July
Bomb bursting into the sky that when you're near me I get butterflies
Thanking God everyday and everynight that you have came into my life
I looked into the past, and every relationship I have scope and analyze
Nothing compares to you, when I glare at the sparkle of your blue eyes
You were probably customize, because I feel like you were made for me
And I always try to pay attention to every word and I never try oversee
The beauty that's inside your heart, and I'm so happy to be a witness
And your kiss melts my heart that the tingly feeling is hard to digest
Can't comprehend what you see in me, but that's why I'm so grateful
That I found a reason for looking in the future which I'm so thankful
Where before I was DARK, you are my light, I'm glad I've found you
To see who loves each other more is the only time that I like to agrue
Just can't wait to see you again for the next romantic rendezvous
But these bits and parts of you, is why I have fell in love with you
Never get tired of the time we share, in fact I wish it was like dejavu
Just holding your hands, looking into your eyes, it starts to be waterish
Cuz I'm just so happy to be in your life, that your love I've have cherish


"Love Poem Rap"

((ok so there two silly poems, wrote it on someone's guestbook - a freestyle - off the top of my head ))

You fill all my ectasy, To all of my fantasy,
Your smile daze me, And your beauty amaze me
There's allot things I'll like to say But I'm just kinda' shy,
With your style, How can I compete with another guy.
I get really nervous, butterflies, Body sweats, and my temperature rise,
Would be a wonderful surprise to have in you in my life,
I'll do everything in many ways,
Just to put a smile on your face,
I act stupid and go into a phase,
Been love but no one can take your place,
Do you feel tha' same as me, Do you really really blame me,
Trust me, it's not that hard falling in love with a girl that tame me,
She's so unbelievable, so pretty,
She just a has a great Personality,
When I look at her eyes, I get lost in her beauty,
And you have to understand, That's she's just a plain cutie,
Not to mention I act fruity, to make her feel safe is my duty.
But that's aight, I expect that from an angel,
She's a light of my tunnel, and the light of my candle,
Burning with fire of desire,
And tha' love have will never retire,
She's so gentle with her hugs and her embrace,
My past is left in tha' dust with no trace,
But I thank GOD, when I'm looking at tha' sky above,
Praying that I can't get enough of this angel dove.


"Imagining it is"

(( still feel like Love is far away from my heart basically ))

I'll never hurt you but to love you always is what I pledge
And to have you in my world and life is a priviledge
Is it Fate or Destiny, what drove me over tha' edge
But when I see you, helps me not go over tha' ledge
See I neva' thought that I would love fall in love again
And to have someone else in my life I couldn't imagine
But I'm stronger man to face and deal with tha' pain
Though tha' memories I had of her last longer than stain
But see I'm willing be at risk and sacrifice my feeling
And dealing with love, but the pain is not that appealing
Imagining to fall in love is so hard that I can't believe
That I found someone giving their love that I receive
It must be a wonderful mirage, pinch me to see if its real
I prayed at nights to be love, I'm glad this is how it feels
So for others that doubt their chance of finding love again
Raise that chin because I'm a result that we can all win
And find happiness in our life but all of sudden it seems
That I keep having this nightmare, and its just a dreams
I'm not in love, I'm searching but thought does is count,
I'm down but not out, to hard to imagine when I still frown.


"Thank You's"

(( You know who you are, nameless but not forgotten ))

I was on one of the lowest part in my life
Need someone to talk to, need some advice
All though I heard them all, needed comfort
Someone to listen to the pain, and the hurt
Someone to smile at me, build my confidence
In my Alley, think it all made a little sense
I just saw you and took the time to just care
It was very special to me that I saw you there
There's not enough thank you's I say to you
Never I will fall in love which I still believe is true
You gave the effort of ya hugs, laugh, and smile
Though I don't know what to say its was worthwhile
Cuz I needed someone and you happen to be on Cue
If anythng, you know me better, a friendship grew
And even if I'm still sad, still down, or a little upset
You were there, came through like a evening sunset


"Its Even Hard"

(( missing someone so much it hurts to be in love ))

So there's been times where I clinch my fist and close my eyes with all my might
Trying not to think of you and me, its harder even though you're out of my sight
I try to count sheep jumping over a fence rather than count how many times I cried
Try to wish on a star that the pain go away, and I will no longer have to try to hide
Where I can be carefree, and that nothing in this world can take me from this cloud
So that I can be proud of who I am, but I always feel I'm a lost soul in a huge crowd
So I lay on my pillow, staring at the ceiling trying to picture peace and feel no harm
And I'm try not losing my composure, its harder even when you're not in my arm
I pray and try to keep my faith that I will survive, and that someone else will notice
Its like a monologue when no one listen, my prayer is not answer of the one I miss
Its even hard when your kiss doesn't touch my lips or your arms around my shoulder
I rather hold ya, but the night seems long and the pain seem to ache and I get colder
I freeze and get tense because I can't sleep so a half of an hour pass and I'm awake
I ponder the thought of what to do, and how long is this pain I face, deal, and take
This is really hurting me, my whole body is cold and soon the pain will start to rife
My heart only fears the sun coming out and realizing that you're still out of my life


"Dream Girl"

(( basically the one in my life is the dream girl or the one that you tend to love allot ))


The girl of my dreams, I don't believe there's such a thing of that work of art
A dream girl might be just to perfect and drive me up the wall and not my heart
It would be selfish of me asking God to send a perfect creature for me to love
Waking up to see her, I would envy what she has and what I start to think of
She has to have flaws, miscue, or mistakes that I can point out to her guidance
I have to have some affect on her, so that she will smile when being romanced
Not going to tear a masterpiece, wouldn't want to currupt that work of perfection
So I wouldn't want to damage goods, and so to me, it will end up as an rejection
But I also look at this, the one in my life would automatically be a dream of mine
If she can laugh and smile at me, then she got anyone beat that is standing line
If she can understand the pain I went through and that she can relate to my soul
Then she already has a part of me that no one else has, a better half of this whole
If she feels hurt as she reads my words when I write how much she means to me
That shows that I'm special to her and if love was blind then now you is all I see
She doesn't have to have all the qualities I wrote cuz it might be too the extreme
I figure if someone is in my life that I love then automatically she's my dream
I'm not going to sacrifice my happiness for a few flaws that even I might adore
I rather explore the field and find her and then realize she is that I can ask for
If she was perfect how do I stand a chance and compete with everything she has
Where as I'm an average joe, and making someone feel special is not much to ask


"I Rather Be With You"

(( one of the worst feeling you can feel - very akward ))

You know, one of the worst feeling I have and that others might find this untrue
Is I hate being with someone and being with them when all I think about is you
I hate being with her, holding her and touching her when its not your skin I feel
I shouldn't feel this way, and to tell you the truth, I wish this feeling wasn't real
I'm subsituting her for you when right now I can escape this live that I'm living
Its hard to leave when I promise to never break this trust that I claim I'm giving
When I should be giving you my whole undivided attention, you're my main focus
Why am I still with her and putting up with lies is making me weak and she notice
That my mind wandering and daydreams of being with you in an isolated place
Where its just us, and the world disappear and that all I see is your beautiful face
But I'm looking at her while you're in my thoughts but I rather kiss you than her
But I'm a rock stuck in a hard place, if you only understood my poor old manner
I know right now it doesn't mean that much but in my heart you have the space
While she has the outer experience of being with me, my love for you isn't erased
I know that is tough but just wait when the time for us to be together will be soon
When this is solved, you'll be the one to share a candlelight dinner under the moon
Just trust me, and paradise isn't out of reach, but right now I'm in a trapped island
Soon I'll be rescue and to always put a smile on ya face doing everything that I can
And I know that I being with her right now but in my heart I rather be in your life
Just so hard right now, the time is on our side, but for now my heart is being sacrifice
If I make you laugh, smile and feel special then you'll understand why I manipulate
Cuz I didn't realize I fallen in love with you, but I'll know you'll be worth the wait.


"Mending a Broken Heart"

(( just feeling happy in ya heart again ))

Listen closely, can you hear my heart slowly breaking when I'm waiting
And thinking that if I'm taking the hurt, the pain inside will be circulating
When something that you are appreciating leaves your life its just fustrating
Want to be happy debating love but the truth leave our heart to be hesitating
So I'm broken into, cracks on my heart, finally put some fears in my life I live
So we forgive for hurting each other, but needing time is our only alternative
Maybe its me that so sensitve that when I get close to someone I think negative
But past relationship has a definitive effect on when and how I choose to live
This subject can be agruemenative, but honesty is always known as appreciative
Cuz I can only ask for the truth, my heart can't take another lie which I fear
Mending my heart sound so unrealistic when I should leave and just disappear
I have nothing to offer you just my heart and I don't know if that's enough
But I'm willing to try and take a chance if it means again I can fall in love
I want to feel like noone can hurt me but everytime I get close I'm still lost
And if I ponder that thought of trust, losing someone special might be the cost
Even though my heart is breaking, it doesn't mean that I don't care about you
Cuz that's further from the truth, but I need time cuz I don't know what to do


"Last Night"

((( one of my worst night I've been through )))

Last night I saw you and I didn't know what to say, but I felt so so bad
That I couldn't talked to you and say how much I feel and that I'm sad
I start praying that this pain will stop but I had to leave and couldn't stay
So I left with a tear running down my face becuz I just had to get away
It sounds so stupid and that I might be over exagerrating this whole thing
But I can't see you and act like nothing bothers me so I just don't think
What am I suppose to do, waiting just makes this heart of mine hurt more
Not talking to you makes me hurt like I'm suffering from a wounded sore
Well then last night, went to bed with a tear falling from my big brown eye
It was hard because the space I was getting realized it hurts to say good bye
So I thought about how ya kiss me and how I couldn't let go of the memory
But to me history is just repeating all over and I'm reading the same ol story
And I ache to be with you, longing to tell you and how much you mean to me
But I act like a fool in here and runaway when you're trying to make me see
That its for the better and the better times lies ahead and the future is bright
Well if you could see my eyes become watery, you'll realize I feel pain tonight
So last night I went to my room, and cried my heart out and got a headache
Thinking how much of this feeling do I have to take, and if it was a mistake
That I let my heart get blindside and hit ya feeling so I still cry on my pillow
I hear my heart break so I try wish for the pain to stop looking out my window
Last night was the turning point of my life, where I decided I'm better off alone
Holding pain inside of me is just too much, I've decided I need to be on my own
I'm not ready and last night was the moment of truth, and my heart just broke into,
So I know what to do, and that I'm letting go, and just hope that I can get over you.


"Nothing"

(( just a heart to give to someone cuz I don't own nothing ))

I have nothing to give you, I have nothing that precious for me to give
My life is so empty and spotless that I don't know how I manage to live
Surprise that I'm breathing cuz I can't afford to give you the world to you
I wish I could give grant all ya wishes and dream so they will come true
I can't take you to a hideaway like as an island thats isolated from the rest
I have nothing to let you have cuz I know that you deserve the very best
I can't offer to give you that so you won't get the house with the picket fence
And a doghouse in the front, would be hard to love, I'm pretty much convince
I can't buy you a jewerly so I can spoil you to death to make you feel special
Feeling depressed, cuz can't give you a lifetime of happiness, just a sad facial
Just torturing my soul, but it makes me a better man cuz I got nothing to give
I have nothing up my sleeve, no tricks to surprise you, there's other alternative
But I know that it isn't much and that I love for us to be together and never part
Its kinda hard for me to understand cuz all I got to give you is my lonely heart


"(GOD) - If You're Listening"

(( asking GOD to not take someone I love away by death - don’t want picture it so its a twist ))

God if you're listening, I'm about to pray for something that I'm not capable of
Please watch, take of care of someone I care tonight don't want to lose her love
Don't want to wake up in the morning first thing, find out that theres bad news
Don't want to read it in the papers or a phone call about someone I could lose
I just hope and pray to you that I rather lose her to another guy then to Mr Death
I've given her all of me, and if she's gone into the heavens you're taking my breath
The reason why my heart beat, the reason I wake up and look forward to a sunny day
The reason why I'm in the happiest moment of my life, so don't let her get away
Don't want to cry and never see her again, never hear a laughter that sooth my soul
Don't want to tell my friends that I'm ok when really my life will be out of control
I just want her to be in my life, instead of paying respect cuz I no longer can see her
I know I don't make sense right now but I pray that breaking up would be allot better
I rather suffer with this heartache and ruin my chance to love then never see her again
If you're listening she's the reason why I'm a better man, and someone who's in love
She's the one that comforts and heal my wound when my life seem so down and rough
Pray harder for her to not escape my life in that way a fashion, I'll die before she does
Don't take the reason why the world turns for me, and I know deep down its just becuz
She means everything to me, and I can't picture my life witnessing her going to heaven
Leaving me here all by myself, and to feel about this way about someone else I haven't
I rather she leaves me and run off for a better life, or she stop loving me stone cold
I think I can handle that better rather her dying me and missing her love and her soul
I couldn't take it if she passed away, but I can love her even if she's out of my life still
The reason is she won my heart and every night I will pray to you GOD, you know I will
For her to be safe and out of danger is all I'm asking of you, no pain on her or sadness
And if you're listening to me pray, and I trust you that you'll know how to handle this


"She says"

(( about a good conversation I had ))

Here's another chapter of my life, the love part of many of my stories
She says she loves crying becuz it cleans her tension from her worries
I cry to make me a better man and when its over I'm a stronger person
My heart hardened, I'm week sometimes but I just happen to carry on
Says she loves crying because in away for her its a bath for her spirits
While I cry to just endure the hurt so the pain I face easily I will forget
So she's confined in me, and open my eyes, showed me she's sensitive
She's so caustious about trusting me with her feelings, a little tentitive
But I'm just wanting to be a friend and listen to explain her emotion
And I trust her with all my feelings, but for now its just a small portion
I tell her that I'm just a sad loner and I will be for sometime in my life
She says some lucky girl passed you up, or love was blind for her eyes
I tell her that I appreciate her taking the time to listen to my poor heart
And telling her that I scare people away from me is the really sad part
Emotionally I'm so helpless, she comforts me with her laugh and hope
She understand me just a little so that this pain I feel is easier to cope
But she's so genuine and so sweet as flowers in bouquet of red Roses
I understand that I'm just a friend and I just hope that she knows this
Anytime that she takes the time to help me deal with a certain pain
I'm willing to take her assistance hand so that the sadness won’t remain
She says that soon I'll get by and get over it but I'm just dragging along
But she has my attention to listen and in my life, is where she belongs
A friend telling me that it will all be ok, she says that she don't mind
But I'm just happy she's there to help, I'm thankful that's the bottom line


"My Precious Belljar"

(( Belljar is a glass cover to protect the cake so that is won’t spoil or ruin the beautiful cake, this way the belljar will keep the cake safe and not damaged - and I thought that about someone and how that she is so beautiful but she keeps a belljar over her so she won’t get hurt again - which means her love would be special to receive ))

I understand what you're going through and its hard for me to know what it feels like
So I'm out side looking in of this crystal glass belljar with a smile that's very fairylike
Covers your heart, so it protects from other entering and loving others to let it open
So this person that's trapped and afraid to let someone to pick her heart up is just hope'n
She has a shield that covers her so that you look and notice the beauty within her world
And you want a piece of this, but its no icing on the cake, because love bothers this girl
I understand because loving people is hard and putting your faith in someone's hand
But she’s so precious that I want to handle her with care so in my mind I have a plan
To just by being me, and one day she’ll let me open the belljar and let me be a witness
To what I’ve already seen but want to experience her because her love is a precious gift
Protecting herself, she scared to admit that she has feelings so maybe she’s not ready
Scare to love another soul and I understand that so my composure is rock and steady
Taking it one day at a time but to make her understand that I wouldn’t break my belljar
So I’ll wait for the moment when she’ll admit that she’s want to be that wish on my star
Of wishing that someone would love me, and she’s so precious with her smile and eyes
I’m hypnotize by the beauty inside of her and grateful that she has came into my life
I’ll back off, just be a friend but let her know that my heart hasn’t felt like this in awhile
When I tell her I miss her, I’m serious cuz I wouldn’t want my heart to not have a smile
That’s what she brought my world, looking at her and seeing the clear glass around her
Wanting her love me when for her its asking alot, I know the future will soon be better
And I wouldn’t never hurt her and I’m going to be honest and tell the truth in what I say
She’s precious and special that to have that belljar lifted off her, I can only pray


Thank You =)