Hi there. Well lets just start with the basics, My name is Scott Barrie*Yes that's me in the pic*Smiles*, I am 30 years old and I stand 5'11" , I have short dark blonde hair with Sea Blue Eyes, as there really not much to say about me, I will do my very best to give you as much information as I can.

I was born on June 6th, 1970 and was adopted at a very early of my life; I was given to 2 great people that have made the biggest impact on my life. I was given to John Andrew and Patricia Anne Barrie.

The one person that was probley the most important to me was my Mom, she was a very unique and caring and oh so loving that she would not let you down if you needed anything. Her support for me was something that alot of people cant see or feel. She was always there for me when I needed someone the most, she hated seeing me hurt all the time, her caring nature made all the problems I had seem so small after we would talk until the wee hours of the morning some nights when I came home late. She was always waiting up for me and just wanted to see that I made it home ok weather it was a goodnight or a bad night.

My mom was always the one person who always taught me that if you try your best and do what you can to succeed everything would fall into place for you. She taught me that if you need anything at all that all you had to do was ask and don't be afraid to lean on me for anything.

I was always so very proud of my mom, but one thing I never did was show her that, I always thought she just knew that I loved her with my heart and that she ran very deep with me, but until one day when it all hit home was the day she died. She died on Feb 4 1994 of a heart attack and to me in a way she died of a broken heart. I know now what she wanted to see in me, but never showed her enough. Its hard to understand for me to ask why she left us and how come she could not see just how much I loved her. but one thing that she always knew that I was *HER ONE AND ONLY SON* and that I did and always will love her no matter where I am or when I do it and why.

I know now that you are in a save place and in gods hands now Mom but always remember that I know that I did not show you enough times that I loved you and I was so very proud of you. but one thing I want you to know, I am so very proud to call you my Mother and I am so very proud to be Your Son, I know you are watching over me and staring me in a right direction and there is nothing that I would not want more then to tell you that I Love You. May god bless you and keep you save and may god tell you that I do love you and that I always will.

My Father John Andrew, well what can I say about him...Just that he was the one who knew I had it in me to succeed and drive for what I wanted, he was a very out spoken person and was never afraid to voice his opinions and say it like it is.

I was really not that close to my dad as I was with my mom, because if some problems that he had and I just didn't want to see him destroy his life.

But as it was he never let me or wanted to see me fail at something that I wanted so bad in life, no matter what his problems where he always made it a promise that he would do what he could do so that I could lead a better life. And he was so right and did keep his promises.

I took it upon myself to get to know my father for who is, and I was so amazed at the drive and heart that he has right now.because at the teneder age of 65 he is working full time as a chef and he just never seems to tire out and get worn out.he has got the heart of bull, Never say give up attitude.and he just works so very hard to make it where he is today.

And I could not be more proud of him and its safe to say that I love my father and has become my best friend aswell as being my father.

I do have a sister Lynn Dawn Barrie Clowes, and she is propley the one person who always understood me the most, sure we had are fights and differences of a opinions, but she was always willing to drop that part and find out what was wrong with me and if there was something she could do to help ease the pain.

I think Lynn never knew how much I did and do love her. I would never admit to it, nor would I say it to her.but she is a smart lady and I know she knows that I do love and respect her for who she is and that she will always have a place in my heart.

As you read this page there is so much that I could say but there is not enough time in this world to even know where to start or end. I lead a pretty good life I have shared alot of things with people from all walks of life and around the world, but there are so many things that I have had to endure to get where I am today.

In the past I have never understood alot, in fact used to be someone who took things way to seriously and took things to the limit. I ended not only hurting people I knew and trusted with my life but hurt me aswell, I did something that would just make people's head spin, and yes I did loose them and that was the hardest pill that I have ever had to swallow.

Now that I look back on things and realize just what I did to make it to this point, I know that I am a much better person for it. I would go for walks and wonder why I did things that only I knew why. I never planned any of it but it just came out and I had no way of handling the truth to myself. I was what they call an uncontrollable person who looked out for himself and himself only. And did not care who he hurt in his way. And yes I have hurt alot of people in my days. And have come to understand now that I cant do that nor can I afford to loose who I have as friends now.

If anyone can relate to being what I just said, Please stop and take a long hard look at yourself, its is not worth it anymore, and if you want to stop the hurting in yourself and aswell as others then come clean with them, tell them who you really are. This is not a make believe world we live in, in fact its more real then I use to think. You have to cherish your friends and respect them for who they are and not what you want them to be, You have to learn just as they have to learn that all you need to do is be yourself and not be someone you are not, I learned that the hard way, and its a very painful and lonely experience to go through. But I did something about it, I took it into my own hands and get the help I needed to know who I really was, I gained alot more respect and alot more caring friends who want to know me for me and not who they wanted to believe I was.

It took 2 people to make me realize what I did and I am not going to name them nor tell you about them, and if they read this page they will know who they are when they read what they are seeing, and to them I cant thank them enough. Yes they did come back to me and now we are better friends then you could even imagine. But it took me to do it, and I know I did the best job I could. I faced my own problems and let others see the pain I was in. And as you have read this, take time to think about who you have in your life, weather it be your wife/husband, girlfriend/boyfriend or anyone, think what they mean to you, tell them how you feel and dont cover it up, open yourself and see that you are not what others see you as, after all we are all human in Internet life and in Real life. We have no way of saying that the Internet is just a bunch of fakes and liars and cheats. We are all human and we all have feelings that we take for granted, but by no means are we to blame anyone else for the pain we cause, because we only have are self's to blame.

So please if you think you are a person that is doing things that are just trying to impress someone or just saying what you want them to hear, please stop and think who you are hurting, because in each of us, we just want to be happy and respected for who we are and not what we want to be.

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