The 1st Time
Seeing you for the first time
I couldn't believe it was real
All this time you were just a voice
Or words on a screen
To look you in the eyes
To feel the strength of your arms
And the warmth of your kiss
The slightest touch would make me smile
I never dreamt it would be like it was
And now that I'm gone
I wish I would've stayed
I reach for you in my sleep
And though I was not there long
I miss you lying next to me
I miss you saying 'Good morning baby'
And ya know what...
I MISS U
Fears
Some of my fears I keep locked up inside
I share some of them, others I just hide
I'm scared of things not working out
Then again, I'm scared they will
Long distance relationships are the toughest of all
With the other half so far away
There's always the chance they will stray
These are some of my fears
To wake up alone for so long of a time
To wait for what seems to be an eternity
To see the face of the one you adore
To never know if you'll be together
For more than a week at a time
And to always wonder if they will ever be completely yours
These are some of my fears
War
I'm happy yet feel so alone
I want to scream out in happiness
Yet I want to cry in sadness
My feelings are at war
And I don't know which will surrender
It's been quite a battle the past few days
I'm hoping a sign will appear from somewhere
And make the sadness disappear
I'm waiting so patiently for the war to end
This Hurt Inside
This hurt inside is like no other I've felt
I can't believe I've set myself up for yet another fall
I feel like I'm all cried out over this
But still the tears keep on flowing
I don't know what to say , how to act, or how to feel
I know without a doubt that I have deep feelings for you
The deepest I've felt in a very long time
I wish someone could give me an answer as to what I should do
But no one can give me that answer, except maybe you
This hurt inside is killing me
The pain I feel is so confused
My heart doesn't know what to do
And my head never does
What I do know is I care for you immensely
And I don't want to lose you
I hope you can understand my feelings
I don't know how to overcome this
And I don't know if I can without promises, truths, & committments
If you want my love you will have to earn it
And cause me no more heartache
Because this hurt inside is like no other
Calming
Watching the waves roll in
Seeing the birds fly by
Smelling the salt in the air
Feeling the wind in my hair
The calming I feel as I sit here
The tension slipping away
My mind can think of nothing
Relaxing is my only thought
The sand through my toes
The cool water on my body
The hot sun on my face
The sun going down beyond the water's edge
Hiding behind the ocean
Disappearing into the next day
Another day of calmingLike always, all poems written by Peeps