I am part of the "Fellowship of the Unshamed". I have Holy Spirit Power. The dye has been cast. I've stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of His. I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away or be still. My past is redemmed, my present makes sense and my future is secured. I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tame visions, mudane talking, chincy giving and dwarfed goals!
I no longer need pre-eminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded or rewarded. I now live by presence, lean by faith, love by patience, lift by prayer and labor by power.
My face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few, my guide reliable, my mission clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, diluted or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity or meander in the maze of mediocrity.
I won't give up, shut up, let up or burn up till I've preached up, prayed up, paid up, stored up and stayed up for the crown of Christ.
I am a disciple of Jesus. I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till I know and work till He stops. And when He comes to get His crown, He'll have no problems recognizing me. My colors will be clear.
Signed: HBK - April 23, 1997
Dear God,
There is just so many things to thank you for. No time, no day can complete a list of things to thank for. You have done so much in my life. You are my life. And I give it back to You. I don't know how I could love You the way You have loved me and will continue to love me. From Day one, You were there by my every side and every moment - the times when life gave me a deck of bad cards, times when others would let me down, even the times I forget You are there. The time that mom and dad seperated - family into half. The time I learned a lesson which I call now the "Love of A Father Seen Through the Story of 'The Prodigal Son'". Time when everything dropped for a call and made the big comeback. Time when 'those' idiots and 'those' mediocrity people kept giving me their all about how I can't make it, how I was just 'unfit' but once again YOU and I are the best team and in a way we showed them that once again with YOU, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! Times when the Kliq went through so much and we are all still together through all our differences and beliefs. Times when problems took its toll on me with my acting and the time that Shae died and the times I felt weak and bad in coping with Shae's death. But of course You must have known how I felt losing Shae that day and that year, for You gave your only Son Jesus Christ to this world and to me. And the reason was because You loved me and the world.
It was just last summer that I completely knew why (or at least I did) You took Shae back to you. You see I was in the beach with Jessica one night, and we were just talking about life and stuff and she told me something about reasons why You may have taken Shae away. You know what she said..."why she's (Shae) gone, God only knows...but maybe God loved her too much and wanted her to be with Him already...". That was sweet to hear. And I truly believe that is the reason though I know You have an ultimate plan. And I don't blame You for wanting Shae by your side...she must be the most beautiful angel in heaven now. An angel here on earth, and and angel up in heaven too. You really work things in a mysterious way Lord...sometimes - too mysterious.
I thank you for my family you have placed me in...they are the greatest (though maybe you can help them with their "dare-not-to-dream-attitude"). For my friends all over - and I believe in the saying.... "When God wants to bless us...He sends friends to be in our life.." and now I can see that You have truly blessed me so much. I love my friends and thank You for giving them to me. Thank You for my every talent You have bestowed upon me and every desire I lift them up to You for You only know how to make it reality like You always done. Thank You for my REALE LYFE...it's been getting a lot of support while I thought it will never be...thank you for the animals - sea animals and land and air... and thank you for using me to help the dolphins...I just love them. Thank You for what You are to do in my life... sometimes I do question.. but I realize soon after that You have a plan for me... that's all I have to know. You have my Life in Your Hands, Father. I love You with all that I am.
Yours,
Jersey aka HBK
This I dedicated to You...
For all You've done, for all You're going to do. I give You thanks and I lift my praise to You
I give thanks, I give praise. For I know that all things work together for my good
I give You thanks. I give You praise.For by faith, I know by Your grace will see me through.
For all those things that I do not understand. I come by faith and place them in Your hands.
Even if I stumble, even if I fall. You will not forsake me. You are my King and Lord of all.
More of You. And less of me. Lord I pray that there might be more of You and less of me.
Like a grain of wheat that falls to the earth. And dies to live anew.
All my plans and earthly desires, I lay them down to follow You.
If Your presence doesn't go with me. Lord I don't want to leave this place.
Lord I need You near as I go from here to lead me by Your love and grace.
May Your presence fill me everyday. May Your spirit lead the way.
Lord to You I call, let Your glory fall.
And may Your presence go with me.
If I have found favor in Your sight.
Show me Your ways Lord because I want to know You and live in Your light.
For all the days, show me Your ways.
I have my hopes. And I have my dreams.
But I cannot go where You will not lead.
