midi: "My Heart Will Go On"

"Then and Now"

To my friend who you are now,
who you have been before,
and who you will become

Have you ever met someone for the first time, and yet you felt that you'd known him/her for years? Have you ever experienced deja vu?
Well this is how I felt when I first met this friend. Well he is not just a friend but perhaps was something to me in my past lives. Well whatever it was I hope to find an answer to it someday.
He has been a great help to me when I needed it. He was there for me when no one understood what I was going through. He gave me time to think my thoughts out. Told me to listen to my inner feelings and followed my gut feelings. I did just that and this is where it took me. My soul was hurting with so much pain and he'd help me heal part of that pain.The rest of the healing is up to me. But he sure got me on the right start.
Thank you "Steamer" for being my special guide. There was a purpose you were sent to me. And you were here at the time of my need. My special thanx to god for sending you to me.

My poem

My mine was a mess a few months ago
from all the pains and grievings I went through
I laid in the quietness of my room
The sweet smell of my soft musk fills my room
The softness of my pillow as I laid my head down
Closing my eyes and letting my mind wonder
Listening to my inner feelings
Listening to the pains my
soul is telling me
How much longer must I suffer?
The pain is so unbearable
The tears just rolls down my cheek
I open my heart to god
and asked "What shall I do?"
I can't fine no one and I can't deal with this alone
no one would understand me
Tears kept rolling down my cheek
as I waited for an answer
weeks went by with no answers
and as the months flew by so quickly
My heart felt so hurt and tears
filled my eyes
Just as I was giving up my last hope
A bright light shined before me
I focus my eyes on the brightness
A face I've seen before
but can't recall where
A tiny voice in me saying
"we've met before"
A strange feeling came before me
not sure where it came from
was this god's answer I asked myself
I was overwhelmed with the feelings I had

"Your Purpose"

Sometimes people come into your life
and you know right away
that they were meant to be there
to serve some sort of purpose
teach you a lesson or help figure out
who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may
be but when you lock eyes with them,
you know that every moment they
will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you at the time
that may seem horrible,
painful and unfair
but in reflection you realize that without
overcoming those obstacles you would have never
realized your potential,
strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason
Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck>
Illness, injury,love,lost moments of true greatness
and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul.
Without these small test, life would be like a smoothly paved,
straight,flat road to no where.
Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless
the people you meet affect your life.

The success and downfalls that you experience
can create who you are, and the bad experiences
can be learned from.
In fact, they are probably the most poignant
and important ones
If someone hurts you, betrays you or break your heart,
forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust
and the importance of being cautious to whomever
you open your heart

If someone loves you, love them back
unconditionally, not only because they love you,
but because they are teaching you to love and
open your heart and eyes to little things

Make every day count
Appreciate every moment and take from it
everything that you possibly can,
for you may never be able to experence it again
Talk to people you have never talked to before,
and actually listen

Let yourself fall in love,
break free and set our sights high.
Hold your head up becauses you have every right to.
Tell yourself you are a great individual
and believe in yourself,
for if you don't believe in yourself,
no one else will believe in you
Create your own life and then go out and live it

Past and Future

Beyond the glare I see a face
A face I've seen before
I can't recall where
But a feeling we have met somewhere
We've chatted for awhile
and enjoyed each others laughters
Through our times together here
a deja vu feeling
flashes across my mine
the thoughts of being there
or I've said this before
I look into your eyes
and I wonder if you were from my past
what were you to me
that I keep having this deja vu feeling
with you
Have we shared a life together?
The past is now gone
the future is here for all our tomorrows
Now that we're together in this life
we'll make the best of it