March 3rd 2000

Steve and Lilly are back together once again. Wonder if it will last this time? i feel so strange since we got back together. almost as if i have made amistake asking him. i dont know if this is right anymore. right for me or him. the distance is going to k ill this relationship. i can just feel it and it is eating me up inside. i dont say anything to him because i know he hates the distance also. i have accepted the 5 hours between us but it is still hard to accept that you cant be with the one you love when you need or want to be. anyways letting things be and seeing what the futur brings us. well i have lost 8 lbs on this diet i am doing. i am happy about that because my jeans are loose and it feels good to look at my stomach and be able to see my feet. i cant wait to show steve how thin i have gotten. i will be even thinner the next time i see him and can't wait to wear a bikini this summer. anyways i got to go re-do the section for steve again. hehehe hope this is the last time i have to change it for a very long time! ^_^ anyways got to go later xoxo