March 9th 2000

I actually got out of the apartment today. dont know where i got the motivation to do that but i got up from the computer packed my bag and left for the mall. went and cashed in 17 dollars worth of rolled pennies and i also returned my library books and got a few more. got some good ones this time, got a few self help ones one about human psychoogy and umm cant remember the others but they all seem very interesting. anyways, wated beverly hills 90210 last night. wow what a shokck that must hav ebeen for dylan seeing his father again after so many years. i think i would have shit my pants if i would hav ebeen him and seen my father on tv after like seven years. anyways, hmm..... i didnt come on the internet last night which is a shock to many i know. lol i am addicted to this damn thing. well anyways i dont think i will be coking on tonight either but because i said that know i probably will have this sudden urge to come and sit here and be bored like i am most of the time. even talking to the most intereseting people sometimes can get boring after a while. well anyways got some more lyrics put up, that takes forever to do so dont be expecting me to get like a ton of them up really soon. i also put in some more of my writing. hope you like it. wasnt sure if i should put it up here because some people might laugh or something but the way i see it if they laugh then they dont understand the meaning behind all the words. anyways... hmmm... i dont know what else to say except that i have been sleeping really wierd lately like not being able to fall asleep until like 2 am then tossing and turning until like 6 am then having trouble getting back to sleep so like around 11 i end up getting up and watching tv. bleh i dont like this feeling but it will pass i am sure. i have also been eating normally and well i am sure i will gain the weight back that i lost from starving myself but that is alright because once i start school i will take the bus in the morning to get there but will walk back because it isnt that far maybe a half hour walk or so maybe 45 minutes but that isnt too bad at all. well anyways, got to go do i dont know what now but i have said all i have to say. bubye, until next time. xoxo Love you Teddy*licks all over*