UNTITLED
The eroticism of the sunset
Your presence warms me
-The rain fell sweetly softly
The raindrops fell
The trees had swayed
-The rain fell sweetly softly
I think of your touch
Every event-The rain as it clenses, refreshes,
-And the rain fell sweetly softly
Struck me with awe
And i had wished you
Were here to see it with me
Even though you're so
Far Away
The Grey clouds start to
Hover Over me
And yes, I called your name
To rescue me...
And still I thought of you-
As if to clense me of
My loss
And the thought of
Your Smile,
It warmed me.
And served as reassurance
Of the sickening reality
And I wish you could experience...
And still I thought of you-
And release
The tearful emotion
Falls like the rain,
They do.
The sunshine as it elates, invigorates,
The memory as it begins to fade...
And still i thought of you-
WIND
i stood on the shore
in the darkness of the night
and i let the summertime
breeze blow thru my mane of gold.
i looked up at the stars
and the reflection of the moon
on the keen water
and I could only wish
you were asleep & dreaming of me.
it's been so long
since i've been held
and told i'm loved and not betrayed
in a society of outcasts
indeed you are an inspiration.
i haven't seen you for a time
and i mustn't feel the need to apoligize
because soon time and money
will not be a factor
all will be forgiven and forgotten
in our lavish set of wishes & dreams.
i once saw a star that told of
a million wishes
and one of them was mine
[it hadn't come true.]
i stand alone in my decisions
and try to put the past behind
for once you are hurt
it is hard to believe again.
i stand swimming in your expectations
trying to understand
your grueling demands
fulfilling your aspirations.
the wind has stopped,
the waves have fallen,
and the clouds have helped
the moon and stars to disappear
and my mane so golden
flies wildly no longer...
but still i wish
[on that unseen star]
that you dream of me.
PRISONER OF LUST
Walk
Talk
Dance, Swing, Sway.
Laugh
Cry
Run, Eat, Lay.
I miss that...
I miss him.
Happy
Sad
Cheerful, Sleepy, Funny.
I felt that way when
I was with you.
And you left me
for her.
ASSHOLE.
Open your eyes!
Your five-foot
blue-eyed, blond
BITCH
is looking for you.
Go ahead,
run to her.
SLAVE.
I can't believe
you follow her lead.
Like being on a leash?
DOG.
My friends tell me to forget
about you, us.
And I will...
because even though
I miss
Laughing
Dancing
Singing
Laying
I hear the cries-
she's calling for you,
PRISONER.
AGAIN
I wish I could just
Figure you out.
As cliche as it sounds,
I just don't get it!
I miss our conversations-
As mindless as they were.
But they exsisted at least;
And now they no longer do.
Why do you do this to me?
I'm trying here...
Trying to move on &
Get over it.
But something holds me back.
You have this irresitable
Smile that gets me everytime.
And when you look into my eyes
I know something is there.
A spark, a flame.
I'm not just here to feed
Your ego, yknow...
What will it take for you
To be honest and sincere.
Am I dealing with a lost
Cause?
A cause I care too much,
About, a cause that I
fall for instantly when your
Stare melts away my
inner thoughts and feelings?
It hurts so much
To think you could care
Less about it all.
Once again- like all the
times before-
I am the one experiencing
the hurt and frustration.
The experience that drags
Me down and forces
Me to search once again.
To search for inner strength
So that I won't turn
Around & hurt you like
you chose to hurt me...
AGAIN.
UNTITLED
Maybe you wish you could feel w/her
There exsists such a LUST for hate,
When you look into her eyes,
I bet you can't see her soul...
I bet you can't feel complete.
I bet you don't know what you see in her.
[That's because I have the answer: NOTHING!]
What you did w/me-
Whatever that was...
What am I to think?
Your ice blues bore deep into my soul,
(searching for an answer?)
And I let the windows ajar,
Accepted you in,
And you LIED.
Trust unspoken shattered completely,
(forever?).
But I cannot find it inside me
To exhibit it-
Love helps me not to hate you.
Love will aid me in forgiveness,
(But) Love won't let me forget.
UNTITLED
Those are the memories I'll cherish
in my heart forever...
all of your smiles for that
period of time-
so gentle, so sweet, so
TRUE.
all of your embraces for that
period of time-
so tight, so comforting, so reassuring, so
TRUE.
Those are the moments I want to
look back upon in my
eternity
that will fill my heart with love
and security
even more than it is now.
Your kisses for that period of time-
so warm, so perfect, so
TRUE.
Your caresses for that period of time-
so tender, so careful, so
TRUE.
And the warmth in your heart
touched mine with such
a powerful enigma...
And those are the moments I'll cherish, so
TRUE.
I Wish I Knew Your Response
If it seems like I'm
But only if you could utter
Why is it you isolate
Yet there is no retort-
pulling away
at your soft suble touches,
it's because I am.
I have been doubting
something recently.
Questionable doubts...
Am I pondering irrationally
over a sickening reality?
(That reality makes me nauseous).
Am I contemplating rationally
over an actuality?
Am I speculating because
of my driveling thoughts?
me a comforting word or
justification...
You only produced more
dismay in my thoughts;
more consternation-
which makes me feel your
rationale confirms it.
yourself from me when
I thought we should be
pulling closer?
you chose to walk away again.
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