a page of thoughts and emotions


This is a bunch of stupid poetry i wrote for a guy because i'm a goddamned moron and can't learn that he doesn't like me that way


in the words of trent reznor, "i just want something i can never have"



we are together,
laughing together
talking to each other
for hours on end
i see you, the real you,
and you see inside me,
can you break the tie
that's holding you back?



your eyes are my escape
my refuge from the world
your eyes are my mirror
where i see the goodness within me
your eyes are my window
into a soul as perfect as a snow-white dove
your eyes are my friend
calling me to confide in you
your eyes are my dreams
helping me learn exactly what i can do
your eyes are my hope
they keep me here
i breathe each day,
only on the hope
that i will gaze
into your eyes




i can feel the pain
she's still inside you
holding on cruelly
like some blackened unbilical cord
attached with jagged hooks
into your heart
the blackness of her twisted soul
eating away at your emotions
making your sanity hover
over the edge of the black cliff
until you can wrench it free
you'll continue to bleed
and although you're afraid to fall
i'm here, waiting to catch you



i'm standing alone
i can see you far away
i'm pushing my way
through an invisible barrier
it feels like the weight of
a thousand people
i fight to get closer
to be near you
a step towards you
every day
now i'm right next to you
i reach out to touch you
when the blast hits
i'm thrown away
cast back outside
broken, torn, and mutilated
i don't have the strength
to fight anymore
i just wonder
what if i'd tried harder?



racing heartbeat
wandering hands
quietly whispering
roaming fingers
gentle kisses
burning thighs
quivering muscles
wet mouths
slippery warmth
rocking bodies
gripping hands
flexing muscles
sweating backs
pressing flesh
screaming throats
pounding hips
tensed muscles
arching backs
heavy breathing
resting bodies
clinging hair
rising and falling
together we sleep



tears for life
you're my obsession
let me touch you
i'll ease your pain
take me for yours
that's where i want to be
let me help you
forget your pain
touch me always
rough or gentle
i need your hands
to feel you
is to be redeemed
let me take you
inside of me
you can be free
release yourself
from your self-inflicted hurt
let yourself go
you're the object of my hope