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cubist portrait of a pink lemon slice
tension keeps building and rolling in her mind.
her shadow beats her in dreams that she never had.
she needs to seek the seeker.
she has no faith to show.
what has she got to offer?
there's no end to her pride.
sleepwalking
all the world can see her. (4x)
(chorus)
the sun is up above, the ground down below.
what she cannot hear never can be known,
and what she cannot see, she never will believe,
but the world turns even in her sleep.
...and her mixed obssesion. (4x)
chorus
all the world can see her and her mixed obssesion.
she wants us all to feed her and wants us all to be like her.
chorus
...even in her sleep.
why can't we see?
the universal wheel
is it possible to know the truth and still want to lie?
i don't know, but we never cease to try.
and can it be that we don't see the cold winter sun
as it looms on the horizon above us all?
i don't know what God has in mind or the secret that's behind the universe.
but i know this can't go on before our time is all gone.
the actions that we worship become gods in our eyes,
and though the yoke is easy, the burden hard.
we turn to self absorbtion to fill the passing time,
and so we pass life on by.
the time will come now not to hesitate.
with nothing to win and nothing to lose.
the time is here. now let us hesitate.
when what you win is what you've got to lose.
the weakest one will beat the strongest one
and you know this yourself.
the silent man will beat the man of action.
this can't be taught, only felt.
won't you save us? won't you save us?
find your center. the center of the wheel.
improvisation
the case of gesualdo (moro lasso)*
don't touch me! i hate it when you lie.
a fever...and lust to lie with a dog.
two flowers on a mountain top with and ardent wish to go to hell.
the juice stinks, but i drink it down, ice cold on my flaming throat.
(i did tell them not to go. they don't listen, they go by)
stop! get away!
run as fast as you can!
there's no shame in filth and disease.
wait. not this time.
no, not fast enough!
i saw the light once long ago.
i crushed its head. who can save my soul?
moro lasso...
* inspired by the madrigal "moro lasso" by carlo gesualdo.
untitled #3
i've got my back against the wall,
and feel cold hands around my throat.
why did i insist on breaking my own way into the ground?
i lost myself into the crowd.
my deepest fear: to be like you.
(i put my own neck into noose to see how long my breath would hold)
hold on...
why should i insist on ramming my own face into the wall?
the yellow room
though i said i loved you, i guess it doesn't matter.
something they say, in the world today, will always be in the way.
and though you said you loved me, i guess i couldn't hear you.
so far away when you're always so near. what does it take to hear
words we've got to say?
i should have known what was coming ahead,
but i couldn't hear a single word that was said.
oh! i should have listened to you!
it always comes back to me...
so we've reached to ending. this, the new beginning,
when self-deception gives way to the Truth.
Truth i always knew. why did it have to be?
and why did it end like this?
absolute Nothing
now retribution marks the violence.
forgivness crushed by cold revenge.
before the law lies a shadow. anger lives here. hatred spews death.
now justice says i am a liar.
it leans on nothing as it dies. but why?
so, you want to be colder?
so, you need to succeed?
then pierce through your own heart with torment.
watch as the universe bleeds.
eyes plucked for an eye.
sawed-off innocent minds.
no right and no wrong.
hollowed-out absolute Nothing.
before the law lies a shadow. faith has left here long, long ago.
savior
when he reached the age that i crossed just yesterday,
lies and confusion reamed the seams of insanity.
lost in burnt horizons when the sun refused to rise
he had no light to guide him but he was a light for me.
it's you - who taught me all i knew.
it's you - who showed me how to choose.
it's you - who's story's all so sad.
you are my savior. you are my hero.
you are my savior. tied down and beaten.
it's true - you told me what to do.
it's true - you still are so confused.
it's true - you're story's all so sad.
lost in the answering of questions, he can't move.
lost in the answering of questions, he can't move.
lost in the answering of questions, he can't move.
lost in the answering of questions, he can't move.
it's you - you gave up all you had.
it's you - who can save you now?
it's you - your story's all so sad.
living suicide
who's to say that i'd hurt you if i only fade away.
if i went with my feelings, i'd go away to stay.
i never meant to stop for long on this road of tears.
clear as glass is a feeling that i haven't had in years.
chorus:
let me step aside from this living suicide
and let me know what's in my own mind.
in my head is a statue that is lately made of stone.
when i turned to see where i was, i was left all alone.
i prayed to God that he'd help me find my way.
i'm still looking for the answer...
chorus
i'll take the journey to that foreign, distant country
where the streets are unknown. so far from my home,
yet so close within my soul.
cool wind in my hair.
i long to be there.
